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It’ll Always Be A Thought

by SoonerDc
written by SoonerDc

I think to myself, What  if I did pulled the trigger? What if I did overdose on those pills? Just what If  damn it?!!  I guess I’m still waiting for a BIG arugment to happen with my family   just to give me the green light. But they are all too sweet and innocent. I’m looking for reasons to kill myself but I have yet to find one to give me the courage to do so. I think about it 24/7. I wish I would get into a car accident. I wish someone would pull a gun out on me and pull the trigger. I wish  […]

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Never will it end

by SoonerDc
written by SoonerDc

Their comes a time in life when I take a look at what I have been through and realize that it’s ‘Never Going To End’ .  It all started when i was a Sophmore in  Highschool, I was on the Varsity football team and I was your starting wide reciever. I had alot of friends through out HS  and I was very well known. I might have had everything i  ever wanted growing up , but the one thing I didn’t have was Satisfactory. I was never satisfy with everything that I have done in my life. I feel like I can accomplish so much in life but I […]

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My Beautiful Life..!!love it!!:-)))))

by Insanestillsane
written by Insanestillsane

On a very crazy wednesday evening after our usual verbal war i decided to go out and grab a cup of coffee. I waited for his call at the coffee shop…but it never came.

Stan and I met over the net.He was my senior back at college.From the very first day of our chat,there was something that told me he is different…After a couple of chat sessions we started talking over the phone…..AND hell yes!!he was different from the rest of the men i knew…well thats how u feel when you know inside that you are falling for some one…

I was into major depression those days […]

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Thoughts of suicide are a comfort

by danethepane
written by danethepane

Hello,

For some time now I have been clinically depressed. Just an endless stream of doctors & pills (NO HELP). The only time I am happy I am thinking of ending it all. But I cannot because I have dependents, I am frightened that one day these feeling are going to get the better of me.

Really need to talk to someone in the same boat,  are these feelings a common symptom of depression.

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How much more can one person take?

by Annie
written by Annie

I am a 14 year old girl. I have Bipolar, Depression, and Insomnia. I have wanted to die for years now. Welcome to my life.

The first time I can remember thinking about it was about third grade. I was 8. I wasn’t the popular kid, I wasn’t even close to that. I probably had one or two friends. I am a Wiccan, and when I tell people, I instantly become a target for rude comments. People have told me I am a freak Satan worshiper for that, but thing is, I don’t believe in Satan.
A few years ago, my aunt killed herself. She tried to […]

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What’s the Point in Living Anymore???

by painisme
written by painisme

My mom can get cancer again, and my dad left us without a home or money…I have no friends, my family wants me to go die…they all call me a demon…FUCK LIFE! I’m SICK of getting tortured and neglected by people who say they “love” me…WHATS THE MEANING OF LOVE??? LIFE??? I can’t live with this anymore…I”m DONE being the punching bag…I HAVE ATTEMPTED SUICIDE BEFORE…EVERYONE thinks I’m doing it for attention…EVEN MY THERIPIST…They tell me I’m a lying piece of shit…FUCK YOU! I’m only struggling! Why in the HELL would I fake this?! IT’S CALLED PAIN. My STEPDAD don’t give a FUCK about me…he […]

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I now am part of the statistics

by TheLostSoul
written by TheLostSoul

Every 18 minutes,
Somebody dies from a sucide.
Every 43 seconds,
Somebody attempts one.
 

I now am part of the statistics. I have attempted a suicide on Nov. 9, 2011. Depression got the best of me and I ended up in the hospital bed with wires all around me. I remember EMTs yelling at me to stay awake.  I took my sister’s pill in school that day and I passed out in my Algebra class they forced me to tell the truth on what happened. I was nearly dead and I told them. I wish I didn’t though. I am still very depressed even with […]

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Drowning.

by BrightsideUltimatum
written by BrightsideUltimatum

I felt like a puppet, my wrists and ankles and all of my bends really were weak. I lowered myself into the water and tried to hope I wouldn’t sink. But I did, I hoped I would sink. I did sink. I let the violent air escape my lungs into the water, and I just screamed into the seemingly endless dark of the pits below. Eventually I forgot about needing to breathe. I just stayed under, my lungs perfectly comfortable where they were, almost as if they were not new to death. But then I felt the pulse of my ever-so-human heart ceasing. I realized […]

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Butterfly Project Dropout

by BrightsideUltimatum
written by BrightsideUltimatum

Washing away the dead butterflies is something I never get better at doing. I wash away the blues and greens and yellows and all of that red. That scarlet relief is instantly satisfying as it circles the drain and fades into the pipes. I scratch at the healing scars and I have to wonder, what would he have said? But suddenly I don’t care, because for one split moment even through the disappointment and the hurt and the slight guilt…there cuts another razor – a razor of peace and quiet. All of a sudden, everything is quiet and calm. My mind has rested, my body […]

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What’s stopping you?

by mindhewn
written by mindhewn

As the titles says, what’s stopping you from slotting yourself?

I myself  am waiting for christmas to come and go, just so I don’t ruin it for my family. I have everything I need for a dignified, peaceful and quick exit (I’m planning to OD on 15 grams ******** along with a anti-emetic regimen) .

I’ll probably end my pathetic life around January/Febuary.

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Post-attempted suicide retrospective…

by sneezy66
written by sneezy66

Hi, gang.  I just came across this website and decided to add my own two cents worth.  A little background on me is that I’m a 45 year old, single woman, who has a history of depression, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, suicidal since the age of 13 or 14 (around the same time the sexual abuse happened), been through breast cancer treatment and hates her life.  In October 2010, I got caught up in the perfect storm of depression.  Unbelievably depressed, lonely and in physical pain, I decided I couldn’t handle it anymore.  I decided to take 14 Ambien in the hopes that […]

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The Other Side of The Story

by breaking.the.cycle
written by breaking.the.cycle

One week ago, a close family member of mine took her life.  She didn’t “commit” anything, she had a great life until about age 30 when all hell broke loose in her brain.  Her quality of life for the last two decades was terrible.  I cannot imagine what it is like to have actual “voices” in one’s head, or to sleep twelve hours at night, wake up, eat too much, watch TV, never go outside….you get the idea.  However, she had a boyfriend of 17 years, who found her.  He loved her dearly.  He has been there for her no matter what.  She had a […]

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My solitude

by xXBloodyRoseXx
written by xXBloodyRoseXx

i have given up on looking for happiness and love. i dont care if  im alone the rest of my life. i go to school everyday with my ipod fully charged and listening to it all day long. i dont care about anything but my school work and my art. music is the only thing i need. i sit in my school auditorium everyday after getting my food from lunch and take it into the auditorium and sit and eat alone. then i draw. thats it. that all i need is my solitude. friends dont care if im ok anymore. they say they’re tired of […]

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Almost lost him…

by thehelper
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My boyfriend became suicidal when I was dating him. He thought that without his grandfather, he would never be happy again. That one small thing, like losing his grandpa made him suicidal. But to him, it was not small. He started cutting himself. He started burning himself. He chased me down the street with a bottle and then attempted to hang himself on a tree outside his house. Of course, I couldn’t watch him do it. The next week it got worse, he blacked out and started going crazy. He had two knives and was on top of his house, looking down at me and […]

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Why do people say suicide is selfish?

by porphyrous
written by porphyrous

I’ve heard this a few times from people now.  “Suicide is the most selfish thing you can do.”  It always comes from non-suicidal people, though.  My sister popped that infamous line during my phone conversation with her last night, when I finally told her what I’d done Friday night.

I don’t see it.  I see all of the miserable things here that drive people to suicide, and nobody cared when those people were being selfless or self-sacrificing, or just trying to please them.  If it’s selfish, then it appears to be the one time in their existence when they thought of themselves.  That’s not selfishness, that’s […]

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On Wednesday night, I broke.

by porphyrous
written by porphyrous

I found this web site a couple days ago while puttering around, looking for answers, or support, or both, or neither.  I’ve written and spoken to a few people since then.  I wondered out loud if writing things down would help or not, and my mom thought it might be a good idea.

I’ve been dogged by clinical depression since my college years.  I’m now 43.  My wife, who attempted suicide three times in college, has also been depressed throughout her entire adult life.  In the ’90s living out west, it was scary frequently.  She was out of work because of her depression, and many times […]

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Don’t. Just please don’t.

by BlackAngel
written by BlackAngel

If you’re reading this, there is at least a small part in you that doesn’t want to die. Listen to it, and please read on. Suicide is final. Once it’s done, there’s no changing your mind. Since you have even the slightest of doubts, you owe it to yourself to stay alive. You can always kill yourself later, why not wait? Even if you wait just one day, you may find a reason not to kill yourself in the meantime. If you’re feeling suicidal, you’re probably in more pain than you know how to handle. That’s okay. There are ways to reduce the pain, and ways to […]

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My story

by my1mistake1was1u
written by my1mistake1was1u

<img class="alignleft size-medium wp-image-58739" title="Becca hi my name is Becca im 13 years old. My two best friends are brittany and kaitlyn and i love them to death. My favorite sports are gymnastics and basketball . I sing in my school chior and i recently moved to texas from washington state in march of last year. But i have a deadly secret. I’m sucidal and i cut . And was recently put into a mental hospital 3 weeks ago for a week for attempted sucide and cuttting. Now you may ask why. Why would a girl like me do so much harm to myself.. well […]

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When The Rain Falls

by cwardrop26
written by cwardrop26

Last night i attempted to kill my self  again. I’ve been so sad lately and im lonely and want to die. so i took a bunch of one of my meds then a handful of this a handful of that . after telling my brother and mom i threw up and now i just feel tired. Something hit me last night , i don’t want to die like this. I don’t want to die  because im afraid of why may come my way.  When i die i want to be happy , don’t let depression get the best of you.

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