its just been a hellhole, am happy for a week and I get one bad grade and am depressed for the next 3 weeks. If am a be real with you, am tired of this shit and I just wanna end my suffering.
I’m the type of person to kill them self and people’s reactions would be “ he’s seemed happy and perfectly fine, he had plenty of friends and family. There were no warning signs or concerns.” And they never saw it coming.
Cold and lonely
Is the girl from, Manitoba, still here? Why, I do not know, why.
is anyone looking for me here
I’m not really depressed. I am preparing. I do not have a purpose. I feel useless. Anxiety. I’m single with no children and I have no family. I have no support structure. I’ve tried reaching out. My friends are too self involved. I have nothing to fall back on. Impending doom and hopelessness. All I want is to work hard and have a modest life and to have purpose but it always slips away from me. I am high-functioning autism. That’s all. I’m not lovesick or lonely. I’m stable, selfless and caring. I rarely even get angry. I’m a decent person and I treat people […]
I don’t understand why I’m upset that everyone doesn’t want to be around me when all I do is push them away when they are. I don’t know why I’m here because I shouldn’t be with my last attempt but I can’t attempt again after making it so far, yet it isn’t going to get better. That’s all just a fucking lie. Everything is going to get so much worse and I don’t think I can handle it but I don’t think I can go through attempting again because I’ve made it so long it would just all be a waist if I were to […]
Hello, lovely people of suicideproject.org. I’m asking a favor from all of you. I’m currently undergoing DBT therapy. I’ve only been doing it for about three months, so I’m in the early stages of recovery. While I’ve learned a few useful skills, I feel as though it’s not enough. My panic attacks and feelings of emptiness are getting worse. I’m still very suicidal nearly every day, and I think dying would (obviously) interfere with my treatment. That’s why I’m considering taking medications.
For context, I’m doing DBT therapy to treat my emotional dysregulation problems. For now I don’t have a specific official diagnosis written in my […]
I found it here, and found some replies which I think are worth sharing: https://9gag.com/gag/aDDxXxx?ref=android
Jakelong81 writes:
“I was in a very dark place few years ago and I was seriously considering to kill myself. It was around the time the Netflix series, 13 Reasons Why came out. There is a scene in it when Hannah’s parents find her dead body and it opened my eyes. I imagined my Dad finding my body and I realised I could never put him through that. I’m […]
It’s like an itch in my mind. Something that refuses to go away. It’s been little more than a week since I have decided to finally give up. To finally stop bothering her and just let her be. To stop torturing myself and hoping that she cares about me. She doesn’t need me. She has friends and other things going on. She doesn’t care. I repeat these things in my head over and over and over again, but it’s still itchy. Lately I just go to sleep if I have nothing to do. Then I […]
And a chain is only as strong as its weakest link. People know this. That’s why they don’t talk to me.
I have autism, but it’s not that bad, or so I thought. I don’t know what it is really.
I have literally no one who cares enough about me to make the time to even talk to me. Even on here, I’m disliked. It’s not like 2014. I can see why the name “spreject” now. I have no real friends or family. I have nothing and no one. And I don’t want to be here. This world is just harsh, brutal, and cruel. If only my mom’s genes didn’t insulate me from suicide, in my father’s genes it’s strong.
i hate how everything can be all happy and fine then within the blink of an eye, the snap of fingers, SMASH!!!! everything goes downhill, everything goes wrong. within seconds things are getting thrown, hit.
im tried of it….. people say its “fine” that they understand its a condition, but one just cant help feeling horrible and down when it happens. you just want to sweep it under the rug and bury your head in the sand hoping to forget that the mess you created exists, the problem you live with exists, that you exists….
i wish i never existed
I hate myself. I ruined my life to the point where I don’t think it’s possible to change how I see myself. I’m so mad at myself for ruining my teeth. I had perfect teeth and after struggling with bullimia, my bottom teeth started chipping and falling out despite having stopped throwing up for about a year. I’m so embarrassed where I start shaking at the thought of having to humiliate myself if I tried to fix it. I think why do that if I kill myself anyways. It’s like my brain knows if I make myself feel worse then the easier it would be […]
I feel like I don’t exist anymore. Like everyone around me exists on another level, another plane. Its so hard to be seen. Every time I finally work up the courage to say something to someone, they ignore me or do not care. Even my friends are slowly leaving me. I keep trying to talk to them, and they keep pushing me away, talking to other people. Even my friend for the last 3 years, it feels like they now just don’t want to be around me at all.
My family isn’t much help either. My parents refuse me any sort of mental […]
Just fyi, calling the national suicide hotline isn’t anonymous. I don’t know if the person answering the call will see your information, but if you say something that concerns them, they will call the police and the police will have your full name and address (and probably other things)
i was abused for 11 months. my ex sexually, emotionally and mentally abused me for those months. before him i was the girl who would do anything i could to put a smile on someone’s face. i was happy and curious about the world. i trusted and was someone who anyone could rely on. he ruined that person. ever since he carried me into that place and found joy in hearing the word ‘no’. he seemed like he was in love with me and because i was so young and naive i believed him. he made me cut off my friends and family, i lost […]
My body is getting better at saying no, and I’m getting worse at talking it out of it. Yesterday at work I had a two hour long anxiety episode. It was just rolling panic attacks, and I masked my way through it, I thought I was going to get away with it and bounce back….
but things got worse when I got home. I was too tired to do anything, and my struggle for self care made it so I couldn’t calm down and sleep. Finally at almost midnight I wrote my resignation, turned off my alarm, and decided that there wasn’t any way to keep […]