I’m just gonna throw this out there. I am mentally and spiritually broken. I have been laid off twice in the last two years. Married with two kids. Was active in church. Was very close to losing my house. Was unable to pay my bills had power and gas getting turned off almost monthly. I found out real quickly who really cares about you when you hit rock bottom which turned out to be no one. I thought my wife was my best friend in this world but I swear she has cheated on me with a co worker. She went and partied with this […]

So as with everyone alive, I’m on the road to death. I’ve decided that I’m going to chose my exit rather than wait for the road to come to an end.

I’m clearing out my house at the moment, getting rid of all the things I’ve accumulated. Giving away all my nice things, throwing away all the junk. Once the house is cleared out I can get it sold. Get my last will and testament drawn up.

Once those things are complete I will be free to commit suicide whenever I feel like it. I had a plan of what to do once I was free of […]

Im almost 42 yrs of age my career was that of a soldier. Life has never been easy for one reason or another. Now at a point of what I feel there may be no return from.

Um hi I’m 14 and for the past three years I have had severe anxiety that has gotten gradually worse. It got horrible the second year, my seventh grade year, and I missed half the school year(but I still got As&Bs haha). When the level of my anxiety increases I have really bad panic attacks, I am nonstop sobbing, uncontrollably screaming, I get severe stomach aches, headaches, nausea, I vomit(alot), I start hyperventilating, shaking, twitching, I sometimes loose feeling in my hands/feet, my period cramps get worse, and the list goes on. My mom used to yell “you’re doing this to yourself”&”its all in your head”&”shut up […]

Hello all,

I’ve never posted on this site before, but I felt the need to make an account and make one.  To all that is reading this; to all that feels like no one is there; to all that has contemplated life over and over again and feels the need to end things; to anyone that just needs to share their feelings to… I’m here.  I have felt what rock bottom feels like and I have been in and out of depression, contemplating suicide a few times in my life.  I will keep this short and sweet:  the pain may seem never-ending, but it eventually DOES […]

Are any of you in a situation in which most of your friends/peers are completely unaware of your depressive and suicidal tendencies? Have you ever gotten that feeling of disconnection that results from knowing that the person across from you, whom you may have known for almost your entire life, is still so fundamentally isolated from an aspect of your personality that consumes you everyday? As if nobody out there actually knows you? Almost like the social creature you’ve sustained over the years is some sort of agent dispatched by you to maintain the facade - Whilst the real you is still at home, under those sheets, constantly asking questions.

Why is that stabbing myself seems like a beautiful way out of my misery?
More beautiful than friends, more beautiful than family.
The knife is right there, on the kitchen table, next to my cup of tea.
Tea. Or knife?
A simple stab is all it would take. Maybe two for good measure.
But for now I pick up the tea. I’m too cowardly to do otherwise.

Okay. So I haven’t wrote here in a year…I guess I thought things were getting slightly better…they’re not. Life sucks. Now I’m 20. In college…and I just want to drop out soo bad, but at the same time, I really want to be a nurse so I have to keep going right? I feel like such a failure. Because, I might not graduate on time, and I feel as if all my friends are graduating and going to get nice jobs and start their life. And then there’ me who is still struggling to even get up in the morning. I still hate the way […]

I’ve come to accept all this. It’s going to kill me, but I’ve accepted it. It’s just always going to be a part of my life. No running from it. Can’t get rid of it. Just have to deal with it until it’s over.

OK so I was just and average 12 year old until I entered sixth grade and I had a crush on this boy Jonathon*. He knew I liked him so he started calling me ugly, fat,ect.  He also told me to go cut myself and die, so I did what he wanted I watched the blood go down my arm as I got weaker and weaker I stopped for my mom cause she threatened to put me in a mental  hospital,  so I stated to cut in nonnoticable places like legs ankles thighs.  So moving on to the beginning of this year.  I’m still twelve. […]

I’m just a girl… A girl who is truly broken, I have tried to kill myself many many many times. I have scars, scars all up my wrist all down my thighs. I guess I just want to let someone know what I’m feeling because I can’t talk about how I’m feeling to any of my loved ones, they can’t see me like this. I will kill myself, I will. It hurts knowing that nobody is there for you… Ever. My mom wanders why I am always sleeping, she has no Idea, I pray to god that I don’t wake up… Every night! But I […]

When I started my first post.. I thought it might get easier talking. It just gets harder. My parents absolutely hate me. You may think I exaggerate this but they do. I can never do anything right, my life is just one big fuck up. I don’t deserve to put them through this pain and stress. I don’t deserve anything. I’m a spoiled brat. I have nothing going for me. I just want it to be over, I just want to have a gun in my hand to end all this misery. I wish I had some way just to kill myself. The more I […]

i have sat down so many times and contemplated how to end my life how my time i have tried and how scared i have felt and chickend out of it, i was abused at a very young age i just want closure and a way to let it all go….

at a very young age maby 5 or 6 i was molested by my babysitters husband i remeber him putting his hands in my pants every night i stayed over her house and mom worked late. he would wait till everyone was alseep and come to the living room and touch me while lay there i […]

this is my first post .  I lost everything this year.  I am so sad I cannot even think much less live.  I read that ******** is now tightly controlled in Mexico.  Anyone else know where to get it.  Please help me end my pain.  I cant do this much longer.  How can it hurt so much?

Hello, well I don’t really know what a forum is, or how to use it, but I guess i’ll just share my story and maybe someone can help.  I am a 19 year old guy from California. 9 years ago I stared getting bullied. I was already a loner, so I guess it made me more lonely. I always thought that was fine though. This was before social media though, which just added to my depression. When I used to sit at home alone, I thought everyone did. Later I found out that people actually do fun stuff with these things called “friends”. Well I’ve […]

I don’t know how much longer I can stand the uselessness of my life.

I hit a lot of those success markers.  I am 30.  I have my own place, car, job, life.  I’ve had a number of intense long term relationships; my ex of a six-year relationship left me in October.  I have a large group of friends who are, frankly, some of the very best people on the planet.  I am loved by many.  I have a Master’s degree in a field where there is at least some work.  I volunteer.  I create.

And I just feel done.  You ever make scrambled eggs and just […]

All of this stuff that they say I have to look forward to, this amazing life that they say I’ll have. But the way I feel will never change. It’s bullshit, I’ll always be fat and vile. No one will want me. I’ll never be happy and smiling at festivals surrounded by people who want the best for me. I’ll always be in my room depressed and waiting for it all to change – to end. Curtains closed, hidden under the covers. It’s never going to happen. So what is the point. For someone who craves death so much yes I’ll admit I am scared. […]

For those that remember me I tried killing myself and ended up in a treatment center for twenty three days.  How have you all been?

Every day, I wish I was dead. All I know is that I once had a life in another place with a family that cared about me. I’m not to allowed to remember any of that. Nor am I allowed to remember all the horrible decisions that I made and the crimes that I committed to end up here on “earth”. I wonder every day what was different about me as a young man. I wonder why I didn’t follow the rules or care about law and order like everyone else who enjoys a good life by following the golden rule. I wonder what went […]

It’s time, I’ve finally made the decision to go.
What triggered this choice? Reality. I’m ready, there is nothing to live for, except my girlfriend.

My name is Gabriel Tullio, I am 17 years old, living in South Australia. I am about to commit the inevitable a bit sooner than expected. Early last year I had an arteriovenous malformation resulting in a left side hemiplegia. I was supported by family, friends and my girlfriend for quite some time, but the injury has gotten to me. Just recently my friends have drifted as I am a burden in their eyes. I am a constant disappointment to my family […]