Okay so I’m a newly converted atheist at my catholic high school. Some people know and some people don’t. the problem is whenever someone I know/have a high level of respect for walks up to me and ask I deny it… Why why can’t I be myself it makes me feel awful because quite frankly I can’t even tell my folks who are adventists. it so hard. Im totally accepting towards their faith seen as I’ve been Christian for 16 years but no one is respecting of what I believe in sigh. I hate lying about who I am for the sake of some uptight […]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z0RNp0ShHsU

While no one will ever exceed the excellence of the original by Simon and Garfunkle, and indeed, some of the younger members here may have never heard of them, this rendition by Josh Groban and Michael Knight is pretty special.

I hope this song can be a message of support for my fellow sufferers here at SP.  My dear mother died one year ago today.  I was her companion/caregiver for the last 2 years of her life.  Today, I miss her so much and my heart is heavy.

Grace and peace to you all, my friends.

And as I asked of you all before….Please, try to stay alive.

Jay […]

Note the sarcasm in that post? Yeah. Loaded.

I am bringing him up on workplace harassment charges. Today I learned, in addition to him calling me a dumbass in front of everyone, that he’s been telling the guys I work with that he and I were VERY intimate. Uh, no. Never happened. Not even close. So now I know why I few of the guys are being suspiciously nice, and why the one very religious guy almost literally runs away at the mere sight of my face. Let’s make this clear, I’m a virgin, not a goddamn whore. I get promoted because I work my ass […]

Since i was young i have felt a sense of belonging. I was the Football star even went to college of it. Was in the military and served in crazy places, then I was a Police officer. Now i cant see what the next step is. is it possoble that you can feel accomplished like HERO or that you have done everything. Now i feel like the world is getting smaller that verybody is covered in Bullshit or waiting for a pat on the back and thats the only reason they try. what if your back is covered with hands and you want them all […]

I hate how you’re just born out of nowhere forced to go to school and get an education,so you can get a job.What if I wanted to be a duck?

Telling someone they can’t be sad because others have it worse,is like saying someone can’t be happy because others have it better.

Hi everyone, how y’all been doing? I’m bored,  wanna talk to someone. If you have Kik messenger (for mobile devices, not PC), feel free to add me (nigvo). We can talk about anything. But don’t forget to mention you’re from SP first off. No horny bitches, please. I have 3 days to talk to you. So if you feel up to a conversation, hit me up soon.

You’d suspect temptation to be caused by lust or just plain carnal instincts. In my case my cousin was the lustful desires I had. Yet the true temptation at the moment pegs from Nycolle the first girl I fell for. (Read my earliest posts for my deranged and mentally inadequate child in me)   Onto the point at hand, I recently created a new facebook, found her on it after finding she blocked me. I found her on snapchat as well and here is where I consider things. Should I really risk messaging her again. It’s been over 5 years, why bother my childhood love? […]

Are any of you depressed people experiencing not only depression, sorrow, and boredom of life but also HORROR?  Is anyone experiencing trauma and panic from existing in a cruel and violent world?  Afraid to wake up in the morning, afraid to exist, afraid of gods and devils?  Do you feel like you are living in a horror movie?  Fear of someone torturing you?  For me life feels like the movie Saw with God being Jigsaw.  I am trapped in a very evil body and if I want to get out, I have to literally cut myself out or do some other gruesome thing in which […]

so within the past year I have consumed more than a big bottle of different kinds of pills (trying to overdose) obviously. but I have never been successful. what am I doing wrong? why am I still alive. I see this also as a blessing but because I’m so sad I just don’t understand why I’m still here someone please help and tell me what I’m doing wrong

Things are getting crazy here.It’s too dangerous.We can’t trust anyone, people are driving me mad.I think I’m completely insane.Take a look at them, they’re everywhere!.Look at them, looking at me, filling my mind with paranoid thoughts.Talking about their stupid lives, talking about me.Whispers.Pretending to be nice with me.Pretending they do care…
They try to fool me, saying I’m cool and my life is worth living.Lucky me.I know the truth.It’s sad but it’s the truth.I’m planning to get the cooking gas tank, inhale and IT’S OVER!…they don’t know.
Can I trust myself? ….
…
Things are getting really really crazy…

im tired of trying to please everyone but myself. im tired of pleasing my parents(grandparents). tired of trying to please my so called friends. tired of trying on everything. im just tired of getting up to go to the same shit everyday. getting yelled at cause im failing my classes well for your fucking information im taking pre ap which is better then regular classes and its changed since your fucking time. getting picked on made fun of being a expierment for my friends just so they can have fun cause i wont stand up for myself well guess what keep doing it but when […]

some days i’m okay but other days like today i’m not. i’m trapped in my thoughts thinking about this baby that never took a breath. at times i find myself literally sitting up staring at the wall. what could i have done to possibly warrant this event.

sometimes i think maybe its for the best. she could’ve grown up to be the worst human ever

other times i think its my fault. whoever took her away thinks i cant handle the task of raising her right. maybe i was in over my head. maybe i wasnt ready. i couldnt do it.

i’d rather suffer trying and be constantly […]

Movies, books, video games, novels, comics, anime/manga, etc etc, basically human’s IMAGINATIONS is a hundred times FAR much more interesting than this very LIMITING reality / real-world / real-life here in this world!

and what’s even worse is that most (about 90%) of humans / people I meet & know everyday are mostly stupid, shallow, superficial, mundane/boring, money and profits and image driven only, ignorant,.. mostly human beings especially today these days are much more bad & hopeless ..!!
(there are -thankfully/luckily?- only FEW humans/people that I like, eg: the very creative/imaginative & ‘other-worldly’ artists who created/made all those awesome fantasy, sci-fi stories, novels, books, […]

It’s been 3 years since i last made a post on here about my depression. Let’s just say I’m the happiest I’ve really ever been. I coped with my depression by exercising and being healthy, doing so I lost 20 pounds in the process which I am happy about. When year 10 of school started I decided I would try something risky and I did. I tried out for the foreign exchange program to go overseas. With the risky decision I succeeded and am now going to Germany in July. And this is all because I found a way to cope with my depression and […]

After the best summer of my whole life I find myself back here for the first time in a couple of years. Kind of the only place I know to turn to when I really really really need people that understand to lend an ear…

Depressed lately… I just can’t be proud of myself anymore. I used to do really well at uni and now I’m in my final year I feel all the passion and spark I had for my major and my future has been snuffed out by the brutal machine they call the system. It just gets me down… I can study and […]

“Nothing burns one up faster than the affects of ressentiment”

– Friedrich Nietzsche

My feelings crash in my mind,

just as the tide rolls in and out.

I’m calling for help,

yet nobody seems to hear.

I feel like an ocean,

searching for new places to spread.

Yet, I cannot spread until I am found.

Just like the ocean,

I’m lost & stranded.

I am a 58 yr old woman with chronic late stage lymes disease.  I am in pain, sick, hopeless, just can’t fight anymore.  I’ve had this disease for 40 yrs.  I want desperately to die. Can you still get nambutal in Mexico ?

To whom it may concern,

I wish i was a better story teller to describe why i am where i am today. But all i can really think of to share is the present moment. I am a 28 year old male with a fantastic dog great girlfriend low rent and seemily great life. The problem is no job… without a job means i will be forced to give away my dog lose my girlfriend home and great life style. Happiness has a price. I am finally realizing that it cost money to breathe and live in this world. Without a job to gain money i […]