im only young, 13,& I know it’s not right feeling like this, are my friends like it? I don’t know, I don’t even know anymore, I shut my self down. I’d rather die? What have I got here anymore, my life is a disaster that I can’t escape, my arms and legs are cut and nobody notices because They are hiD, I’m to scared for suicide, but then I’m scared to live anymore, I just need h e l p
TEDx How do YOU define yourself? Through others? Through haters? Don’t. Don’t let others write your story for you. You are the author of you diary. No one should control your life.
I thought I’d actually post something positive for once. A year today I have been a vegetarian. Ys. Go moi. And also, seeing as it’s my birthday, some people have decided to acknowledge me. Wow.Besides things I hear in my head and the shit I see, because sadly these kinds of problems don’t take holidays off,, today has been reasonably okay. Makes a change. o-o
I’ve always been the kind of person who remembers things; every little word, every little insult thrown at me. I remember the first time I told you about my self-harm. I showed you my wrists. First thing you said? “Good luck finding a job with those; they’ll all see you’re a crazy *****”.
So I began cutting my legs.
You caught me cutting a few months later. Clearly upset that you weren’t able to control the situation, you spit your venom at me once again.
“Give me the knife,” you said, “I’ll cut you deep, stop being such a *****”.
That’s why today, when you looked at my scars […]
Who has never killed an hour? Not casually or without thought, but carefully: a premeditated murder of minutes. The violence comes from a combination of giving up, not caring, and a resignation that getting past it is all you can hope to accomplish. So you kill the hour. You do not work, you do not read, you do not daydream. If you sleep it is not because you need to sleep. And when at last it is over, there is no evidence, no weapon, no blood, and no body. The only clue might be the shadows beneath your eyes or terribly thin line near the […]
Lyrics
Death surrounds
My heartbeat’s slowing down
I won’t take this world’s abuse
I won’t give up, I refuse!
This is how it feels when you’re bent and broken
This is how it feels when your dignity’s stolen
When everything you love is leaving
You hold on to what you believe in
The last thing I heard was you whispering goodbye
And then I heard you flat line
No, not gonna die tonight
We’re gonna stand and fight forever
(Don’t close your eyes)
No, […]
Glad to see Mr. Stapp again.
Conflicted guy, but who isn’t? Â Maybe that’s why his fans relate with him.
but we all made it so bad, some good people undergo lots of pain which causes them to suicide
for every suicide on this planet all other humans are reasonable (directly or indirectly)
i’ve been on 200mg for a year to help stabalize my moods……or at least my outward reaction to them. However there is the weight loss thing. i lost weight but leveled………..out until recently i got sucked into a major depression. So, i am slowly being weaned off because of sudden drastic weight loss. i look like Jack Skellington only not as fun or cute, all rib, spine n pelvis-gross. Other than being completly irratable and aggressive there are physical effects as well. i do NOT feel well…..and felt this med was working well(other than starving, lol) anybody else with insight or experience?
it conjures up images of a tired, weepy person with a box of Kleenex lying in bed all day. While that may be an accurate image some days, it’s hardly exemplary of this condition. They’d like you to think that depression is due to lethargy, sadness & general lack of energy. They’d like you to think you’re a car with no gas rusting on the side of the road. At least that’s the popular image as far as I’ve seen in movies, the news and various ads for pharmaceutical products (god, the Zoloft commercial with the sad lazy bubble just slays me).
But in me, and […]
I have been depressed for almost 6 years now with severe suicidal thoughts in the last 4-5 years. I am unfortunately really good at hiding it because I seem to lack the ability to be able to share my emotions with others. I was really close to killing myself, but I met a girl in that period and things seemed to be going a lot better. I thought I finally got rid of my depression. But I was wrong, after a year or so it came back and worse than ever. My relationship slowly started to suffer under it. It was just a vicious circle, […]
A problem with life is that there is no background music
I’m completely isolating myself from my friends.
One of my best friends is visiting after being gone for a year, and I cancelled our plans, both times.
I can’t get myself to leave my house- the thought makes me feel physically sick.
I hate going out, because putting on a mask physically and mentally exhausts me.
 and why?
For me to name a few,
Diluted (and) Everything Ends – Slipknot
Only – NIN
How To Dissapear Completely (and) Codex – Radiohead
After Hours – The Velvet Underground
I Hope You Suffer (and) This Time Imperfect – AFI
Parabol/Parabola – Tool
Does any one want to talk ? About anything I don’t care. I just want someone to talk to
im new on this… it seems helpfull
I can’t help but hurt people and isolate myself from them. There aren’t enough people who understand what I’m going through in my life. Just one really and she’s alienated from me too. I’m alienated from just about everyone emotionally at this point. I had a really positive and engaging relationship with someone but when my depression came out, she couldn’t understand and moved on. I tore into her because of it and that makes me feel guilty. And it hurt so fucking bad when it was done.
I know there’s a lot of people who have it worse than I do. Today I was […]
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