I’ve been through a lot within the past two days. I lost my best friend because of her thinking I was sleeping with her boyfriend and I wasn’t. He was wanting to and she saw his messages on my phone and doesn’t believe me. I recently dyed my hair black and pink and I look scene. Yes, I guess you could call me that, but I don’t want you calling me a “scene emo faggott going through stupid phases. I didn’t realize how bad rumors would spread or start from my friend. Now I’m the new freshmen scene emo ****** who’s an attention whore and […]
Guys imma disappeared for a while so I can study for my finals soon probably be back before march …….hopefully I pass the subjects wish me luck
Hello there! I’ve been having a rough time lately, and would like to get a bit of it off my chest.
I’m turning 21 next week, and I’ve been telling myself since I was much younger (7 or 8, I think?) that I wouldn’t live this long. I’ve always felt that I just wasn’t supposed to be alive. What a trip, right? Time passes so fast. In addition to being suicidal, I also have Asbergers and am extremely obsessive-compulsive, and don’t have many friends.
Over the past couple of weeks, my sleep has gone all to sh**. On the relatively rare occasions that I am able to […]
I finally became quite suicidal tonight. For years, I thought my dad and step-mom treated me horrible (they kinda did and do). i thought they lied to me about many things, and didn’t care about me. But i found out tonight i over reacted very badly about most things. I have a bit of a temper, so when i was angry at them, i would say awful things to vent to my friends. My dad found out one of the things i said about my step mom, and told me how messed up it was i said that. All she ever really wanted was to […]
My life basically ended a long time ago and I just kept dragging my breathing corpse through life….since i was 13 I’ve been dying every single second…..I cut,I cried,I hurt,I died & no one cared…I went on falling deeper & deeper in the slought of despair and my misery was getting worse….they thought it was all a bunch of balooney and that I was just being dramatic and making sick excuses to escape stuff….but I was not…I was really hurting inside….I was alone in my pain…..I cried at night almost to the point where it was literally imposible to cry any further…I slept on damp […]
I was depressed at the time, cutting myself and whatnot. But accidentally I cut my wrist where my veins are. You can DIE from that.
But I survived. And you know why? Because my life line was long. You can find that on your hand, it’s the third line. I’m not sure how old I’ll live up to, though. Well it was srill bleeding a little. And it hurt, BAD. You shouldn’t try it It was really painful. I know this MIGHT get boring. but I’m doing my best.
That’s when it started. My therapy. My mom just thought […]
people ask me what depression is like. i answer: its like drowning but you can see everyone around you breathing
My foster mother keep bribing me to tell her what’s wrong. But for some reason, I keep refusing. She kicked my leg and said, “Come on dear, please tell me!” I just got up and walked into my room, having a good hard cry. I never hurt so bad since I’ve been in foster care for a month and a half. Just fuck it all. Fuck life. I’m fucking over it. Kill me now. I’m done.
And to make matters worse, I found out my boyfriend was cheating on me, so I broke up with him. Now I’m alone because I had nobody else to talk […]
Why.. Everything changed March 28, 2010. You died and took a large piece of my heart. Now I wonder why it wasn’t me. You were too good to everyone. Always cheerful and happy. Had a beautiful baby daughter. All she wanted to have was her daddy home. It wasn’t your fault, but its killed us all since. You were the one for me to talk to. The one that kept my head up through even the littlest of problems. You knew how to keep a smile on my face. I’m so proud to call you my brother. I don’t care how long it […]
i feel like im drowning in my own thoughts. they suck me down further and further and i cant avoid it. i lost a close friend today and dont know if i can get him back. even though i pushed him away. he told the guy i was talking to the stuff i told him about the guy i like. he came to one of my classes today and i told him to leave. he tweeted that he was crying and i physically feel like my heart is breaking. i drown in more thoughts and i dont know what to do. i ruin everything i […]
Can anything be posted on here ? Im new on here.
 Hello 🙂 I was trying to write a letter to “InternalHelper” but it seems this email doesn´t work so I will send it here. It´s adressed to this email BUT I want the other people to see it as well. BECAUSE you are my motivation to fight with dificulties in my life so that I can be hope for others.
Hello,
I´m Katy I´m 20, I´m from the Czech Republic and I´m just reading
something on the internet about your depression. First I´d like to
tell you that I´m […]
If you have a long life line on on your hand, don’t try to commit suicide. For there can’t be a way to do it. This is how I prove it.
Like my other post this evolves me cutting my wrist.
I was listening to the Lavender Town theme. (pokemon) I was only 11. I was so scared I cut my wrist were my veins are, it didn’t work. I saw my line was rather long. I knew what that meant.
If you prove in any way it’s wrong, I’ll believe you.
Don’t get mental problems it could lead to this.
I have mental problems. I go to therapy alot. But still I cut myself. I make attempts to kill myself. Everyone thinks I’m crazy. I can’t sleep. I don’t talk to anyone at school. (I’m in high school). My mom talks to me and I feel uncomfortable when she does that.
The way I try to kill myself is like this: I take a razor and cut my wrist. It dosen’t work though. Maybe I should use a knife. Once I get the chance I’ll do it.
You might think I’m crazy, or I need to […]
I tried to kill myself about a month and a half ago. As a result, I was forced on a medical leave from my school, had to go back home where my parents make my condition a lot worse, and forced to speak to what feels like an endless amount of therapists and psychiatrists that neither know what they’re doing or care about me. I was promised a second chance after it happened, that I would get help, in my mind I thought maybe if I finally talked to my friends and family about it, things would get better. Instead, I’ve spiraled, I feel more […]
Hai Guys,
It’s day 2 for this thing. I guess I’m just down right now. I feel trapped. I feel caged. I want to fly. I want to be free, but it’s not that easy. My sister now knows that I talk to a guy… And I know yeah its not that bad, but he’s three years older than me and right now he’s one, out of two, people that know some of the truth. And I feel trapped because how do you tell your parents you’ve been talking to a guy for almost half of a year? I’m not good with confrontation and I feel […]
Hi, My name is Christian and im broken, but i cant help but look the opposite. I’m 18 years old and am not entirely happy. I’ve  tossed myself through the past two years of life without any consideration that maybe I’ve been hiding that I am miserable. I really dont know why, I have a good family an incredible girl and enough friends. Why am i so depressed? Am i just bored? Am i really that shallow? I can almost pinpoint when life hit and the façade that my youthful mind had created  fell through. It was after i started using drugs, i was like eleven or twelve […]
Everyday I feel worse, but there are days that I feel really really bad. Like today. I constantly think about suicide, which is driving me crazy, because somewhere I know I’m not able to die, no matter how badly I’ll try. But still I’m searching all over the web to find ‘the perfect suicide method’, but I know somewhere that ‘the perfect suicide method’ doesn’t exist. But still I’m searching for it (man, i feel like an idiot now). No, my suicideplan isn’t completed yet, but in days like these, my suicideplan gets completer and completer, which actually gives me rest.
I haven’t found ‘the […]
It must not be a good thing necessarily that I’m cured and yet I’m wanting the thoughts. The dark ones back. I love talking about depression and suicide it was my life only months ago. Somehow I was cured. A sense of pride in myself alien to me fills me with self-confidence. Where the confidence came from would be completing basic training for the military.
I came in hoping that during the shooting range i could pull the trigger on myself and if not then then j would be able to shoot myself during my military career. The thought of having a rifle by my side […]
I wake up every morning, I go to school, talk to a few people, go home, play games,sleep. I attend some clubs every week, but no matter what I do I find myself bored. Every once in a while I will find something new to do, but I quickly become bored again and because of that I don’t know what to do with my life, all I want to do is live an enjoyable life, but no matter what I do I always become bored. I am sick of it and I don’t know what to do.