and I am going to die breaking out. Don’t tell me that ‘the sky’s the limit’ when there are footprints on the Moon and a remote control toy on Mars. My body may become a future generations’s fossil fuel, but I am setting my spirit free. Fuck the stormtroopers and your masters. I am no longer your lab thing. I won’t see you in Hell. I won’t be here. 😀
My last post was a while ago. I was worried about going nowhere and having nothing.
Well now I’m Nowhere
And I have nothing
The one I used to love, shes gone now. And she wont come back. She broke me, she gave me the hell I tried to save her from.
I have no future prospects, no past prospects, no job, no life. no skills, or talents. no friends, no life.
Now what.
Please, someone, anyone
P.s I am too unmotivated and depressed to do anything at all. I have nothing, and I want something, but I don’t remember how to want anymore.
I just can’t stop crying I why am I so stupid how could believe I could be happy why’d I ever think I could be I don’t get it I just can’t I’m shaking
Ou want me to tell you the pain I’m in now because my past post didn’t justify the reason you I chose to be on this site? Fine. Ever night I think about endin it. Just grabbing my moms pills and shovin them done my throat till I die.
I’m scared of myself because I don’t know my strength. I fear that it will get so bad that my bady won’t be able to take it. I fear the darkness that consumes ever beam of light and leaves me to my own divices. I fear my own mind because it plays tricks on me. Till […]
I had my first meeting with a therapist today. I talked about my problems, I cried. Everything happened just I envisioned. My therapist said it’s important to have hope. No Kidding!
She asked if I ever thought about suicide. I said No. I lied.
My biological father who has not been a part of my life since I was a baby. My disabilities may be why he abandoned me. I have had almost no contact with him in my life. I wanted him to raise me as his daughter, teach me things, care about me. I wanted to love him. Now I feel like it may be too late to have any sort of contact with him. I mean if he were to show up in my life sometime in the future. I guess the question is does he deserve to be part of my life at all or […]
i have thoughts of killing myself every single day. everywhere i go, everything i do has these thoughts tailing me in a deep darkness. so why is it so hard for me to final just let go and end it?
Why you ask? “Why not?” I state. Fuck it’ I’m outta here.
and as the world just
fades out
like a sparklers
short life
i realize that, god
i really wanna
die tonight
I’m going to do it soon. I will buy what I need tomorrow and commit suicide soon. Even the thought of the pain just doesn’t scare me anymore. Although I’m sure that when I actually go to do it I will be very scared. I just can’t live in this world anymore. I hate the waiting.
Im 13 i have a pretty bad life i dont live with family only me friends. . I don’t understand why i hear voices but its just probably me fighting against meself i guess i hate that im ugly fat i hate everything about me .My friend couldn’t take seeing all of me friends sad and depressed and cutting all the time and all so she forced us to go to the school counselor and its just making things worse.The counselor keeps telling me all the things that my head says are lies and saying i deserve to die and that i deserve all the […]
Hi everyone, so today was the weirdest day in English. My class and I are reading Fahrenheit 451  and we got to a part where Guy Montag’s wife Mlidred overdosed on sleeping pills. So, of course my teacher had us stop there and she started talking about the book’s society. Then she got into suicide. As she was talking about overdosing and what it does to you, I tried to stop listening to her because I been wanting to OD for a while now. Eventually, I heard the word “cut” from my teacher’s mouth and I wanted to start breaking down crying. Suicide really affects me, […]
i never knew sites like this were actually real..
maybe one of you understands.
After spending years debating whether or not to kill myself and multiple attempts when i was younger, I’m running out of reasons to stick around.
I’m just an average teen with an unusual problem. I have the heart of an caveman. Sometimes I sit still hold my breathe just to see if my heart is beating most of the time its seems like its not. I could watch someone get hit by a car and just stand there and laugh. My soul is so dark that the only emotion joy when others get hurt. I think of killing myself everyday. I look for suicide methods and when i look it over i smile and say that’s a good way to die. I would kill myself but i have no opportunity […]
First let me start off by saying that this isnt a story about how I tried to kill myself or a post about methods to do so. All this is is my story. At this point I am having very bad thoughts and I’m hoping by just getting them written down and maybe even some hopeful comments I can feel better
I am a freshman in college. I have always been an overachiever with school. I have always been very social and enjoyed going out and doing things. About a year ago my Dad, who I am very attached to and depend on a lot, almost […]
It seems that more and more often, I question my existence. It’s to the point where I ask myself multiple times a day whether or not I want to keep going. I always find myself wondering if anyone would care if I was gone. Or if they’ll just get over it after awhile, like I never even existed. It’s so frustrating that hardly no one ever takes interest in me. What makes me feel worse is that when someone does want to be around me, I end up avoiding them and push them away. And I regret it every single time. I don’t know what […]
I think some people think after they die people will scream and cry and have so much sympathy for them and finally understand what they went through…that all their former or current friends will have so much guilt about it and loathe themselves….that the president of the united states will personally attend their funeral to pay his respects….that celebrities will come from afar to attend your funeral….well….I have some news for you….nobody will give a shit like you think they will….
Sure people might show up at your funeral crying and saying “how they wished they could have helped” and “how they loved you so much” […]
I hope that your head starts feeling beter that cant be good on top of not being able to sleep. Insomnia is a *****
My head is pounding, excruciating. And I can feel the weight, the pressure, pushing down. Trying to write an assignment, like I have been trying to do for hours, today, yesterday, the day before, and before that…
My head isn’t in this. In fact, it couldn’t be less involved in reality. Work hard… I always have. I felt like I owed something, putting myself behind bars of steal to force every ounce of strength I had into it… I can’t do anything else. I have to… I mean, in my field, you would really think I would care more. about people… I study a variety of […]
Is it possible to hold breath unto death?
I been trying for it, unfortunately my breath holding capacity gone to 2 minutes
I believe, person who can do that has incredible will power.
Based on this
if you hold breath for
30 sec= no suicidal
2 min= average suicidal
…
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until death=absolute suicidal
Some People  die for 2 min he is still absolute suicidal
To generalize this —->
age(A)+physical health(H)+ breath hold capacity(B) proportional to suicidal willingness (SW)
A and H, B are inversely proportional
A/B*H = k SW
:k is constant
Does anyone has suggestions for value of K?