Well I’m 26 and have never had a girlfriend, date, anything going.   Being with someone is totally 100% blank.  I was always afraid to approach people. It’s come to define me among the people I know. I really have no reason, and everyone I come across thinks it’s strange…always had a good job, lots of interests, did well in school, no strange mannerism ,look pretty normal. I just feel out of place.  It’s like a code I can’t crack. I feel like it’s pushing me to the brink. Every year that passes I feel more bitter and worse than the year before…I’m so sick of the constant […]
I decided a while back to devote my entire life to my soulmate, my master, my love..
But now he doesn’t want me anymore.
Since the day he left me I’ve tried to be happier.. I have a girlfriend that I think I love very much now and yet I still feel as if I’ve no purpose.
I’m not sure how I’m expected to keep on living when I cannot even serve my love..
Depression is surrounding me again, I wanna cut.
I wanna feel something, I feel so numb.
Today is mine and my boyfriends 7 months.
And he’s currently looking at 10-20+ years for dating me.
He’s 21, I’m 15.
I’ve lost my best friend, and haven’t talk to him for a month and a half.
He was my reason for living.. my happiness.
And like everything else in my life it was snatched away.
I need to talk to him.. I’m slipping again.
I might break tonight.. I know if/when he finds out he’ll be […]
I graduated from college two years ago. After graduation, I suffered from deep depression for complex reasons. I cried crazily and I am very suicidal. I couldn’t even go outside to seek a job. For a year, I just stay at home, isolated from all people and handle my emotion. In 2013, I went outside to seek professional helps, including psychologist, doctor and social worker. However, none of them think I need help. They just ask me to seek a job outside. In fact, I sent out many resume outside, none of them replied to me. Then, they told me just to work in restaurant, […]
I’m back on campus and it’s just overwhelming. Between school and my other responsibilities I get so stressed. And I just cry. I’ve been doing good about not having bad thoughts (why am I alive? whats the point? why did I die when I tried? etc..) but the past few days they’ve come back with a vengeance. And I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to do life.
Ok, I’ve never expressed myself like this before but I have nobody else to turn to. I am a 35 year old man whose partner left 5 weeks ago. I had a 19 year habit with cannabis, something I have given up since my partner left because it caused me to rage in uncontrollable ways. So would never physically harm her but the mental torture I must have put her through was intense. I don’t even know why. Now after 5 weeks off it I haven’t had one money of madness and feel good about that but there is one problem. She won’t speak to […]
and why are you suicidal? (…*Hoping nobody has noticed that I haven’t said my name or why I’m suicidal*…)Â
life is pretty awful right now.. I am honestly hopefully it eventually picks up, but it straight up sucks right now.. I’m not a good person and life is falling a part.. Considering the pointlessness of human existance in general, whats the point?
I wonder if I told someone that I’m going to kill myself right now if anyone would even care or take me seriously…
I don’t really know what else i can do anymore. Cameron died almost exactly a year ago (September 8 2013) and I am STILL not over it. I’ve gone to all the groups, I’ve been hospitalized for PTSD, I’ve got a new boyfriend who treats me like gold, I go out, I don’t talk about it all the time anymore. What else can I do to make it feel better.
The thing you have to know is Cameron and I were very much […]
Where do I start off I have a really low self-esteem, when someone calls me ugly I smile and I try to let it go.but I tell everybody I can that their beautiful cause i don’t want them to know how it feels this way i constantly think of suicide i cut and when i do it i don’t do it very deep just enough to feel the pain i cry myself to sleep and i ask god the same question over and over why am i still here? I go to high school and when i see the pretty girls i collapse i try […]
I got to this point where I didn’t want to die. I saw my future for the first time in years. I thought I had a future. I thought maybe I mattered, that maybe I could survive, that people liked me and I could handle relationships. I was so wrong. Here I am, in college sitting in my closet, wanting to escape again. I don’t think I can do this. I don’t have enough left in me to keep going. But I also made the mistake, in the time that I was feeling ok about myself and my life, to get attached to people again. […]
My home life really isn’t as bad as some here. But, I’m not going to say it is spactacular, because I would not be telling the truth.
But at home, there is always conflicts. People are always unhappy. And if I want to talk to anyone in my family about my feelings of depression or emptiness or loneliness, they get shoved asside. When I went to the mental home last year and my parents found I was suicidal, it was more like, you’re turning your back on god, or, how could you be so selfish?
I never want to be a greedy person or selfish, […]
Everyday seems to be getting worse…. I’ve been thinking of suicide a lot… I’ve been hurting  a lot but no one seems to notice it, I’m screaming for help but I’m not getting any.. I feel as if no one cares no ones listening. I’m so scared of letting go but at the same time I feel the need that it’s my time to go I will never be what anyone expects me to be everyone’s trying to change me.. Every little side comment that people make about me hurts me more inside than they realize.. It hurts to show my face anymore! NO ONE […]
Sometimes I feel so ‘worthless’…I care about myself to some extent but no one REALLY cares about me.People have their own problems to deal with , they don’t have time for me.The more I breath is the closer I come to dying .So what’s the point of living…No one ‘loves’ me either there isn’t anything ‘lovable’ about me.Even if there was I can’t think straight anymore no one has time to take care of me…
Its sad that you try to find out your sisters schedule because you don’t know if she’ll say hi to you when she see’s you or even if she does it’ll be awkward…So you try to avoid her
Here I am atop of the world looking over one of the most dangerous and filthy cities in the country..it’s actually the most violent city in the country I believe.
But it’s just me and the concrete formations looking out across the land still asleep from the dead of the night.
Just me and the sky waiting for life to begin.
“Here goes another day!” I say to the sky.
And if the sky could tell me anything in return, it would say..
Im asian and i hope chuck norris will come to my house and kill me brutally. these are just one of my thoughts before i go to sleep, i just hope i could die painlessly without anyone noticing me or causing them trouble like cleaning up my mess after i kill myself. haha anyways where do you think is the best place to commit suicide??
Hi there, i’m not going to bore you with my life story, i’ll be here all day! But just in a nutshell, I’ve suffered from severe depression, anxiety and Borderline personality disorder for over 10 years. I’ve tried absolutely everything to try get better, including ECT.  Anyway, I’ve been thinking about suicide for at least the last 2 years and I’ve attempted several times with no luck (obviously!). I really cannot stand living anymore and the pain is unbearable!
Just out of curiosity, how do you know when enough is enough? I see some of you have set a deadline (scuse the pun) for your suicide. How […]
Does anyone think that there actually exist people who can touch higher states of life or universe or w/e Or do people just sit around for six years deluding themselves to believing they can…?