Thank you to all of you who responded to my previous post. Â I appreciate the words of support and caring. Â I used to be a very prolific writer… poetry, journals, short stories. Â I have SO many journals from early on. Â I used to think that one day I would write a book about my experience, this process. Â And that’s what it is, isn’t it? Â A process. Â The thing is I’m tired of always being ‘in the process’ of getting better, ‘in the process’ of this or that. Â I’m just tired. Â I’ve accepted that I will always have a melancholy personality, with the medication I can […]
My ex-boyfriend from middle school messaged me on facebook today, and he’s already bringing toxicity to my life. No, no, I don’t completely blame him.
First, a little background: Michael was my on-and-off boyfriend in middle school. He convinced me he was a demon (how naive and gullible I was) and was the first guy to really do damage to me emotionally. He was the first real self-harmer I met knowingly, the one who introduced me to cutting, the first guy to touch me “down there”… obviously, we didn’t last.
Now, he’s back. He asked me if I want to hang out some time, and I foolishly […]
I just can’t take life anymore. Everything bothers me. I remember once when I was a kid my mom was so mad at me for accidentally spilling my juice all over the bed sheet, she came in yelled and me and hit me a few times, then she tried to suffocate me with the blanket, i was crying for help but my dad just stood outside and ignored me, I still remember that moment 6 years later. the next day my parents we’re trying to avoid me like they tried to pretend i didn’t exist, i also heard my mom and dad were trying for […]
Success!  Finally figured out how to embed a video on here  >.<
To any this concerns to…
I have grown tired and frustrated of life that I cannot continue any longer, I have accepted the idea that I may well be forever alone during my stay in this unforgiving cesspool we call Earth, thus I found no other reason for me to continue living. I have had a good upbringing and life and for that I am thankful, but I cannot live simply for the sake of my family or friends. Life is pointless when you have no one to love. What is good about being alive if it’s not even worth living?
Funnily enough it took a story […]
I feel enclosed around me. I havent really been out and did something for about 4 years now.. My parents are always wanting me to be the perfect child but they cant accept my flaws.. i don’t feel good enough anymore. Everyone blames me for everything. And so i cut.. and i think of how much better things would be for everyone if i wasnt here. I can’t do it anymore. So i think of leaving.. forever.
she nods off when, the cool wind blows, through the tree tops, her open window. it fills the room and, the chair she sits in, a kind of cold she, felt as a kid.
And she just sits there, she just sits there, in the night air, the cold night air.
I feel that over the years, I’m always the one left behind.
It seems as if all of my friends have plans. They all have something to look forward to, something to live for.
Then there’s me, the girl with all the issues.
That’s alright. You guys just go enjoy your awesome lives while I sit in the corner and have a private little pity party for myself.
I’ve literally once heard someone at school refer to me as “The girl with all the issues”
My best friend ask me why I dropped out of school and became homeschooled. I lied to her and told her it’s because I wanted to work ahead.
In reality, I dropped out of school because it physically hurts me to be around people. When I’m out in public, I have to use up my energy to try and focus on myself and not my surroundings. If I don’t, I become hypersensitive. I hear everything. I hear every voice, every footstep, every movement. It’s horrible, it feels like everyone’s screaming […]
Im not scared of reality. Actually i dont think i live in reality anymore, I live inside my head, in a lonely corner.. scared of my demons.
the whole commenting on stories,looking up indigo children,googling why people commit sucuide basically all the stuff I usually think about it but I know it pushes me away from people and makes me feel weird,So ill be leaving but ill probably be back to comment on storys,Thanks for reading
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Hello fellow Internet people.
I decided to make this account because I just need a place where I can vent for once…
I also want to help too, I want to help people who are going through the same thing, I want people to have hope in recovery. So I’m here for you guys. I wonder if you can give out your KIK name here. If you want to talk about something leave your kik name down below.
My name is Amy. I’m 14 years old and I live in New Jersey. I like to play guitar and listen to music. That’s all I do now haha c:
I […]
I have spent more than half of my life dealing with depression and anxiety. Â I was sexually abused by my father, physically abused, emotionally abandoned, not believed… Â I’ve fought long and hard to overcome the effects of such trauma. Â I have a decent life. Â I have a job; I am a mother and a wife; I have a few good friends; a strong support system. Â I ‘behave’ myself–don’t drink, don’t do drugs, take my medications, and I don’t cut. Â So then why is it that I want to start cutting again; why is it that I wish I could just be gone? Â My counselor, bless […]
Why is it that every opportunity I’m given, each person that wants my time, wants me in their life has no effect on the way I feel.
I should be happy to get the opportunity to live in the big smoke and study the art of theatre the magic of dance,
I should be happy that someone wants to be with me and only me, I should be happy, I should but that’s not me.
My body and mind have changed again, back to the depths I thought […]
I am so depressed right now. I just want to die. I am a disabled veteran that has lost the ability to do most things I used to do. My dog was just put to sleep a couple days ago and it was horrifying. She was so sweet and lovable. I think I may try cyanide poisoning since it is fast and clean. I am married and  have two kids but I am taking a lot of medicine that is for anxiety and depression but it doesn’t do much.
My suicide attempt happened when I was 14, I’m 19 now 🙂
I had a problem with this girl because she would make sick jokes about my brother who was critically ill during the time.
I don’t know what made me do it but I woke up that day and went through to the bathroom and grabbed my pills which I was taking for my depression. I then went to the kitchen and grabbed a knife and slipped in into my pocket. I kissed my mum who was a single parents who pretty much lived in the hospital next to my brothers bed.
I went to school and […]
Sleeping pills never work, I know that from experience. But I’m trying some new and powerful shit tonight. I’m taking them slowly so I don’t barf, mixed with whatever else I can find. I won’t die from it, but the 15% chance I referred to in my title is the chance that I’ll get to the point, through delirium and lack of inhibitions, that I’ll take a carving knife and start sawing away. Or start violently hurling myself against this window until it shatters and sends me 7 floors onto the pavement. And yes, I know falls of less than 8 floors are rarely fatal, […]
Hello, im 24 years old have lost everything in the last few months. In september last year I lost m job and my house. In May of this year I lost my wife, then I met a wonderfull girl that has a young kid, I love both of them but latelly she doesn’t feel the same for me and has been ignoring me. Every time she needed help because of her depression I was there to help, but then she got a job that’s wonderfull, except for the part where she toally ignores me up to the point where I lost 2 very close friends […]