It’s redundant.
I believe living life is redundant.
Many have done it before, many have lived,
but for me, I feel like it doesn’t matter if we all die in the end anyway.
Why should I stay alive?
For your loved ones of course.
“If you can’t find a reason, stay alive for someone else,” they say.
Why should I stay alive, if not for myself?
It already hurts too much to stay alive.
I smile because I have to.
I study because I’m told to.
I pray because if I don’t I won’t be happy in the afterlife.
What about now? I’m not happy […]
I am really unlucky. Actually, I don’t hate life that much, but my life circumstances push me to take an extreme decision. And I can’t bear it anymore. All my life I’ve been hated, mocked, bullied, abused and went through extreme stress. I suffer of PTSD and today I almost killed my mom with my angry outburst. She’s at the hospital because had an heart attack because of ME. What is the best method to end all this nightmare? I really NEED to die. Sorry for my English.
I hate myself. Its hard not to hate yourself when everyone else hates you. Hell, Im so ugly and unlikeable that people wont even SIT beside me! Desk change today. My desk was moved so I was beside this one boy Reid, and on the other side of him was Farhan. Before class even started, Reid requested to be moved halfway across the room. But of course, my desk was moved again to be beside Farhan’s desk. What does he do? He moves his chair to be as far from me as possible. Then, he moves his things to the next desk. While I walked […]
My life is good. I really do feel like this is true. But I still constantly think about killing myself. I always have. Since I was nine years old. I’m now 34. I have tried 3 times, not counting the two times with a loaded gun to my head. obviously my heads not working correctly when I’ve tried otherwise I would be dead cause suicide isn’t that hard. But also if my head was on straight I wouldnt want to. It is amazing how I survived not once or twice, but three times a stomach full of leathal pills. I’m taking it as a sign […]
I am only seventeen years old, and already life has lost meaning. It sounds ridiculous, I know. In my more stable state of mind I laugh at how ridiculous I am, how foolish I must be to think that life has no promise for a bright, creative teenager on the cusp of independence. However I might feel on my good days, I know that on days like today the reality of the crushing, empty pointlessness of the world is too much to bear.
There is a pain inside of me. It is like a hollow, black emptiness, a void of emotion where Despair and Hopelessness are […]
I think this is it. I’ve become a junky in my depressed state as I constantly find ways to escape my thoughts. I’ve no money left now so this is finally it. 2 weeks maximum. You guys all know things don’t get better and I’m here as the proof that it doesn’t, at least not in my case. My psychologist is the only one who knows how bad I am and how long its been its time I stop wasting money on her and let her see someone whom’s light has not completely gone out. Thanks for always being here my sp friends x
I’ve been depressed for 3 and a half years  , I’m bi-polar and,  i’m on a lot of medication.
I have friends , but i never see them anymore , and i feel so alone all the time. I don’t have what i used to have , and i thought things would get better by now. I have nobody to call when i’m upset , nobody to see everyday in school and talk to , nobody to talk to in the hallway with , or go to class with , and nobody to spend what’s left of my free time. I just want everything to go back to normal. or […]
i apologize if this all sounds kind of random. i have been having a hard time trying to organize my thoughts. being organically enhanced has nothing to do with it by the way. it is 420 on wednesday and a feeling of dread is filling me. my alone time is quickly coming to an end. every evening is becoming a chore to not get into a fight with dave. i don’t know if i am just hypersensitive but his snide remarks and general sarcasm upset me and are generally wearing me down. tired, so very tired. as i mentioned my mood has taken a dive. […]
The only end to misery is death! Better to be dead than to be alive.  I’m glad we all agree ^^
As much as I wanted to deny it, I believe I’m suicidal. Somehow I found myself on this website.  Just sick of the vanity and all the mundane living. Feel like I live the same day everyday all day. I pursue a happiness that is always eluding me. Pretending to be happy and fitting in is the worst vanity of all!
I started online school this year back in sectmber. I dident notice then but slowly my friends started to dissaper. Now, only 1 of my former friends will talk to me, all the rest pretty much ignore me.  I started feeling sadder in october, and spent more time alone. Now I spend 95% of the day in my room, the rest of the day is spent at school taking band art and chorus. in december I was diagnosed with dyslexia, and I felt that I was an idiot. I was never an A student,  but now i just break down whenever i see me test scores, or overall […]
Drunk and bored. Drunk ’cause I hate life and am more than likely bipolar. Feel free to comment. Randomness is fine. Our fishbowl of a world is random anyway. yay.
You can’t change me, I won’t let you. Yeah, sure, you have a better chance, you win all the time. You don’t know who I’m talking about? Fucking society. Why doesn’t it just fuck off. I don’t need it and I certainly don’t want it.
But I digress,
I’m new here.
Support would be great. x
I’ll support anyone who listens ♥
So my birthday is tomorrow…the 4th of april. Actually it’s really depressing that I’m about to take my life. On the outside I’m that “wealthy girl” who lives the dream. Sure folks, my family is fucked up (My parents got divorced) and I DON’T have a friend who doesn’t call me a ***** for falling in love with a boy, who’s a dick anyway. He eventually broke up with me. So I had no friends, and my school only has 250 stundents. So there are “groups” in our school. And if you were a loner (Me) you can’t even get people to talk to you. […]
I can’t afford a new one.
I know putting your life at the same value as that of an object is… well. but none of us would be here if we were completely sane. I won’t have life without the internet. I won’t.
I haven’t been here for a while but I see not much has changed for a lot of people.im starting to come off the meds and doing well I haven’t thought about suiside for over a year now.if you are depressed hang in there it’s gotten better for me but the important thing I want to say is hang onto hope..maybe the light will shine through for you too
I swear to God I’m trying. When I say I don’t know, I really honestly and truly don’t know. Yesterday we talked about me being crazy, and you seemed ok with that. Well why not today? I’m no more or less crazy today. The demons that haunted then still haunt me now. Everything’s piling up but I swear I’m getting rid of it, maybe not on anyone’s schedule, but I am getting rid of it.
Well passed over at work again and now i want to take the biget with me how sad i want to go but i dont want to leave my wife or scar my kids or stepson, i just want to bang my head against the wall or go drive away for days but i will have to come back to me! wish i was able to turn off my head and sleep i am so tired and just tired (big sye) boo hoo what a suck i say to myself and go ahead you piss weak man and then the upper cut is no one […]
I’m only 12 and i just want the pain to end. My mum left me and my dad and brother when i was 10 and she hasn’t made contact since. lately ive been going through a lot  my dads being horrible to me he hits me and treats me horribly, to cope i take drugs and smoke.He favours my brother even my brother takes drugs and deals them. My school is giving me a rough time too they think that im just a naughty child and my dad does his best. and i just think if hitting children is his best then i wonder what the worst […]