I don’t know y I’m so worried about if kodys sexting or cheating I can see y if he is with all the bs I’ve been doing but I just don’t want to get hurt. I really think I should just stop caring about everything again so I don’t end up trying to kill myself again. Even thoe I’m still thinking about ways of doing it. I guess I’m just still too depressed to see the good in life. I honestly think there nothing worth living for. I hardly see my family and kody seems happy sometimes but I don’t think he’s truly happy. He […]
so…I have no idea if I can go on living anymore…I’ve been lied to and back stabbed so much, yet I’m still only 14. it’s ridiculous. I’ve only told my cousin and my friend and school that I want to die, my situation, etc. I hate my life, and my adoptive parents don’t respect me. hell, if I told them I want to die, they probably wouldn’t take me seriously. Â they don’t respect my decisions. for example, they both hate my real dad, who I found myself on facebook last month. I told them how much I wanted to see him, get to chill with […]
So, I’m pretty sure that everyone I knew back when I used this site are all dead. So, on the off chance that any of you are still around, let me know, if not, then I guess that I was right in guessing you’re all gone.
For those of you that don’t know me, here’s a quick description, I’m 19, graduated at 16, joined the Air Force Special Forces at 17, got kicked out from basic for medical crap. Spent my childhood getting severely abused by my mom’s husband, turns out that she cheated on him and that’s how I got here, my biological […]
I’m going to write this out here, not because you are likely to ever see this (almost certainly you’ll never see this). I know you stumble around these sites (not necessarily this one). Instead, I’m writing this because this is all a little cathartic for me. It’s kind of my own therapy for coping, to stumble around these sites.
In the few years that we have known each other, you have become my best friend, and I have become yours. You know this because we walked and talked a few days ago, watched the sunset in the park and refound each other. At least I refound […]
I really don’t care about anything anymore to the point where I no longer care about trying to cheer myself up, or doing anything to make myself comfortable, or happier. To explain a bit about how I got here let me start by saying it’s been a very long time since I have been genuinely happy, and the few times I have been happy it’s for a short time and it’s always followed by way more sadness. I’m 17 now, I finished high school last june, a year younger because I skipped a grade. At high school I had almost no real friends, and there’s […]
if only there was a switch to simply touch and then die.. it would be so much easier than having to find ways to do it ourselves.. but you know what there’s a time to go and is our decision and I’m debating..
I am not used to love. When I fall in love, I get physically and mentally sick. When  first realize that I am in love, I want to throw up, my stomach starts to hurt, I start to have a hard pain in my chest if I’m not with that person, I feel suddenly tired and really sleepy. I start feeling so sad, really sad and out of me. Eventually, if I am not with that person, I start feeling depressed and then suicidal. I would describe this as some kind of poisoning.
I met a girl online and she introduced me one of her […]
this picture is of me. i got made fun of becasue i was different.wen my mother found out that i started to cut, she didn’t do anything.she thought i was crazy. but thing was she didn’t understand.a girl came up to me and said, ”hey freak show why don’t you just go kill yourself.so i ran home.my mother was at work and my dad had die in a car crash a year ago , so i was alone in the house.my mom had these pain pills so i took one.and another, and another, and another. finaly i gave up and swallowed them all.i must of […]
If anyone knows of another site where they post on ways to consider staying alive I would be most grateful to know of it….I am more interested in ways to stay alive and not so much looking for ways of how to end it all….so if you know of a site, please pass on to here, and thanks so much 🙂
15 years old and havin a shitty life im adopted my bio mom name is karen my bio dad michael left right after i was born i moved around alot my mom was always with abusive men and into sex drugs and drinking dcfs had to get involved when my mom was with this one man who physically abused me and shook me till i fell unconsciousness and i was only two years old i nearly died sometimes now i wish i did i was supposed to to me i sometimes think im gunna end up the exact same way as my momn middle school […]
I’m just so tired of being this way.
But too scared to actually do anything about it. How pathetic is that?
Hoping every night to not wake up. Terrified of making life worse. Guilty because I know so many more people have it so much worse.
Nothing unique, I know. Entirely unremarkable, me.
Look at my body.
Look at my scars.
You see them?
Do you think there are too many?
Well, I can tell you,
it’s about less than 1% of the scars that are inside.
You don’t believe?
Ofcourse not, because you won’t.
You won’t believe that I have a terrible life.
But look at my body.
Look at my scars.
You see them?
Do you think there are too many?
Well, I can tell you,
they are uncountable.
Try to count them.
You can’t?
Ofcourse not,
because there are too many of them.
How much you ask?
I don’t know, maybe 300,
maybe 400, 500, 600 or […]
I found this website and decided to post, because I have nowhere else to turn.
I think I am close to ending my life. For the last seven years, I have suffered from crippling depression and anxiety. I always had anxiety when I was a child, and in retrospect, I wish I had gotten help. But I was just a child, and I always thought that, in the end, I would be okay; that it was nothing too serious; that perhaps it was normal and that I would “grow out of it.” But I never did. As I got older I began to realize that my […]
I suppose I do it to myself most times. I wish i could blame someone else; that would make it easier. But its all me. My stupidity, my poor decisions, my attitude. I just want it to end. I hate being numb all the time. It feels like the only thing i can feel is anger or sadness. I want to kill myself but i’m just afraid of what might happen if it doesn’t work. I don’t want to feel any more pain. I just want it to be done–quick and clean.
What am i supposed to do? There’s no reason for me to stay. I […]
I’m old and my life doesn’t have enough pros to be happy but it doesn’t have enough cons, visible cons, for others to stop shaming me. No matter what I say no one believes me, that and other times I’ll get treated rudely; “kicked while down”
I’ve learn that anytime I tried to explain what is going on, I’ll be painted as “resisting” and “unstable” regardless of how legitimate my words and experience are. Usually I take a deep breath everytime it happens. It doesn’t help my situation, it definetly doesn’t help but only lets me reach this acute solution of few minutes where I regress, […]
yet again I’ve lost a bestfriend. I’m sick of it to be perfectly honest, I’m always being left on the side line and being abandoned. Ergh. They just leave when they find someone better, I could have guessed they was just using me for someone to talk to. So why did I tell them all that stuff? Just for them to turn around and say I need help. Ha. Funny that, concidering what they’ve done… Im fe up of this continuous cycle, I don’t want to fight them anymore, but I’m sick of being used, i just want to end this god damned life, […]
Why do these things always seem to happen to me? I remember when i use to be happy and full of fun and joy but that was when i was 13 and now im 18. The trouble in my life all started when i moved to this small town called didsbury just half hour outside of my city Calgary Alberta i had my friends in Calgary id talk to them when ever i could this was before i had Facebook or Xbox live. i went through hell in that town i was beat up and bullied all the time and that’s what organically started my […]
… To be surrounded by people who hate you, to have every movement filled with grinding pain, to live in a world that takes more and more, and offers nothing but lies, false hope and contempt in return. Yeah, life is great, and if you want to end it, to turn around and say:- “Fuck You Jimmy. Screw your lies, and screw this miserable, exploited and downtrodden existence”, to take the first and only truly independent and self serving action in this fucking ‘orrible existence, well, what do the gaolers say? Oh no! Quel surprise, there must be something wrong with my head. I must […]
My dad recently started posting online somewhere about how my mum is a bad mother. Tonight he says he did a survey online to find out what others think. They voted in his favour. And that’s all he needs to feel he is justified. So tell me, would a good FATHER abuse his family? Make his family literally shake in fear like I am now? Break things, and physically hurt people? Shout and abuse people until they break? Deny his son of any choice in his life whatsoever? Make his son feel like he has to commit suicide to escape the pain of life? Shut […]