While in was still in the womb, my dad used to abuse my mother. Yelling, hitting. Since as long as I remember, I cower from anything close to fighting. My mom also did drugs. Hard drugs. I was born premature. Two months premature. I was 1lb 7oz, born addicted, I also had a heart murmer. Maybe she didn’t want me? My mom went to jail for possession and use of the drugs. My dad was already in jail, fuck if i know why. I went in and out of foster homes up until I was 12. One family decided to adopt me. They […]
Crying Right Now For The People Like Me Who Are Giving Up. I’m Soooo Sorry Guys! I’m Sorry You Can’t Take Life Anymore Like Me. Just Know, You’re So Beautiful And I May Not Know You But You’re Worth It And I Love You So Much! I’m Sorry You’re Giving Up. I’m Sorry People Are Making Your Life A Living Hell. =”( See You On The Otherside..<33
“My legs are dangling of the edge, the bottom of the bottle is my only friend, I think I’ll slit my wrists again and I’ll be gone,gone,gone,gone.
My legs are dangling off the edge, a stomache full of pills did’nt work again, I think I’ll put a bullet into my head and I’ll be gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.”
Bullet- Hollywood Undead.
Damn this life.
I’m writing another poem. the last one was actually part of a song I wrote…
anyways I’ll get back to writing and listening to hollywood undead
Peace.
I love drinking coke… A lot. So I’m trying to drink myself to death. It’s unfortunate that I told my doctor that I love coke so much, because somehow she knows that I’m trying to slowly die so it looks like a circumstantial death rather than a deliberate ssuicide. Now the family is trying to stop me from drinking so much coke, so I’m gonna look for another sneaky way to abuse it.
I don’t want to die, yet I hate this life as well. A few health problems, yet I don’t want to go to hell. Yet when I’m old I’ll go there anyway. Different […]
I Search Easy Ways To Kill Myself On Google All The Time. Hanging,Cutting, Drowning, Overdosing, Jumping Off Buildings Etc. But, Once I Think About It, Is It That Easy? No, No It’s Not! I Wanted To Be Someone When I Grew Older, I Wanted To Get Married And Have Kids. But How Is That Suppose To Happen When I’m Self Conscious About Everything!! Why Can’t It Be Easy As 1,2,3? And I’d Be Gone In A Blink..
I’mstupidI’mworthlessI’mawasteofairI’materriblefriendnoonelovesmeI’mdumbIshoulddieIfeelsorryforanyonewhoknowsmeI’mastupidexuseforahumaneveryonehatesmenoonewilleverloveme
Why can’t I just die…
How can I get him back?
We dated for 2 years.
I was dealing with my unmedicated bipolar disorder, so I was rather moody.
Around out 2 year, 5 month mark, I got a message from his best friend ( also my best friend at the time.) and he told me Isaiah was going to ignore me until I broke up with him or completely stopped talking to him.
I broke up with him. It was the hardest thing I had ever done.
I was at my friend Ashley’s house.
We went to a party. Ashley and Isaiah’s best friend were there.
I got blackout drunk that night and ended up […]
Stop Telling Me Everything’s Gonna Get Better! If Everything Was Gonna Get Better, I Wouldn’t Be The Way I Am Now. Hurt. Depressed. Worthless..I Just Need To End It Hear. I Just Need Everything To Be Okay. Dead. If I Killed Myself I Wouldn’t Need To Worry About Anything. I Mean, No One Likes Me Anyways So What’s The Difference? Absolutely Nothing. This Is Just The Beginning..
My Name Is Cassandra And I’m 15 Years Old. I Sit Alone On My Bed, Looking At My Ceiling Everyday. Thinking To Myself That I’m Worthless And This Could, It Should Be The End For Me. I’m Picked On In High School And Usually I Just Can’t Take It Anymore. I Grab Blades, Knives, Whatever Is Sharp And Start To Cut My Wrists. Watching The Little Blood Coming From My Wrists. Being To Afraid To Go Deeper, To End My Life. I Think About Suicide All The Time. Maybe This Is It, Was What I Was Thinking. Maybe I Should Just End It Here! On […]
I’m torn to pieces right now. I’m going back to school in 2 days and I just wasn’t to kill myself already. I have SO much work to get back to and everyone at school hates me and says stuff about me and I’m just behind done. Home isn’t any better. And my self harm is gonna get worse i can tell. Goodnight everyone
I’m not like in the suicide mood but in the murder mood… probably I’m just being foolish and getting mad about something meaningless, but it fucking hurted.
And it hurted ’cause it was my younger brother the one who caused me the humiliation, it was his stupid fault that I had to go there and then when he was getting the carbage out he practically threw it at my face… may be I’m childish but it was so humiliating I just locked my room so I wont go out and kill him.
I keep falling for the stupid lies.
“I love you”
“We are going to be together forever”
“You are my world”
“I can’t live without you”
Bullshit. I fall for them every fucking time though. The thought of us being together and happy seems just in my reach, just over a small hill. But really it’s millions of miles away and I will never reach it. We will never reach it. I just want us both happy. Actually correction, I only care if he’s happy. At this point I really don’t care about myself. I don’t know why I keep falling for the lies. Is it because I want to be with […]
Hello! They say writing and sharing your experiences can be therapeutic, and in my case that is especially true. So, today I thought I’d take a moment to sit down and have a little chat with all of you.
My story really begins about 8-9 months ago. I was going through a rough time, I had just found out I have a lump in my spine. In the past years I have been diagnosed with:
Reynauds Disease
Fibromyalgia
Osteoporosis (in my neck)
Osteoarthritis (neck, again)
Heart Arrhythmia
Severe Insomnia (still […]
Death is calling I might pick up. Telling me come home.
Home where?
To the morgue?
With my friends?
Forever more?
What fate?
Shall i have?
Kinda getting sick of being trapped.
It’s time, I fly, goodbye, I die.
It’s now, I hang above the ground, with my necklace made of rope.
Death is calling I might pick up.
Telling me come home.
Home where?
To the Grave.
With my friends and family?
This offer is so tempting.
I, I, I wanna fly.
Maybe I’ll test it at great height.
I, I, I wanna swing,
Maybe I’ll test it from a tree.
I, I, I […]
I need to die, I don’t want it I need it. More than ever. I hate who I am, who I’ve been, and yet to become. My life is a curse and everyone around me will be effected if youdontgetmeoutofhere. If I cannot die…then ok. Take me too a woods, leave me there. Take away my brain so the thoughts will go, my eyes and ears so I won’t ever have anything to ruin again. Please, if my body must remain alive, remove my soul so I no longer have to be such a horrible being. Please, let me go.
Well here goes.
I guess you can say I have a pretty good life. Thinking about some of the things I have, many still have more troubles than me, but I can’t help feeling like this life I’m living, isn’t really mine at all. Do you know what I mean?
I mean sometimes, you would walk about, head high, laughing at all the fun things in life, and then suddenly you just crash. The clouds in your head are replaced by the dense fog, a fog that’s so heavy it makes you drag your feet as you walk down the hallways. This fog never lifts; it just […]
I just came home from going out with friends. Â Instead of my husband saying nice to see you, he calls me fat….the fattest woman he ever saw today and that I am an embarrassment. Â I am not sure I can do this anymore…I am sick of the most negative person in my life being my husband. Â I wish I can escape, but again he keeps on telling me I am too stupid to get a job. Â He’s right. I tried, I can’t. Â I am stuck and don’t have any place to go anymore. Â I just wish I was not such a coward. Â I would love […]
Hi I guess I’m new here.
I’ve wanted to kill myself for a while (I’m 13), and I finally found a site that I think might help me.
I would, but I’m too much of a coward to
But since I won’t I’m too much of a coward.
I just hate everything
Can’t stand life anymore
Dammit!!!! I feel so fucking low!! I cant even control my mood right now.. I started feeling really lonely today and I tried to kill  it by calling people to see what theyre doing but everyone is fucking busy! So I just broke down… I tried to stY strong. Ive been coping so well.. and they dont know. They dont know anything…
Sometimes life can get pretty exhausting. And yes, that is an understatement. My stack of homework pushed aside for the moment, I try to relax.
The only light in my room is my lamp from my desk, which creates a low yellow glow. The only sounds are the hum of my computer, the typing of the keys, and my cat cleaning herself. In this quiet environment, she can be a racket. Especially when she purrs. I normally bring her with me when I need the comfort. I just want to feel wanted tonight, even if it’s only coming from a cat.
Her purr sounds like kernels popping, vibrating […]