I need too really clear my  head of the thoughts of suicide that are running threw my head. I had a plan too go when I got home and the only reason I am staying here is because I am still in love with my ex boyfriend and he said he was coming too visit me and even though he hasn’t told me when I am still going too hold on until that happens I am sick of being in this unhappy relationship with the guy I am with now. with him I do not feel happy I feel very invisible and he does not […]
There’s no life with clean breaks
Or no chance we can’t take
Forgiveness lies too deep
To be vanished away
So flawless from the outside
Never trust a stranger
Farewell to our hearts
Remember the so-called desire
A brand new spirit destiny
Won’t let my mind play tricks on me
Closed chapters, opened curtains
To let myself be focused
Through coldest nights we found ourselves marching
Summer nights were meant to save us
And stop us from aching
I don’t need another tragic ending
No time for precious glorifying
What’s left in me will be better shortly
I learned too much, I’ve seen it all
Hi, I’m Destanie. I’m 15 years old. I turn 16 in May, but I don’t think I’m going to make it to see my birthday. Here’s why….
Back in June of 2012 i fell in love with this guy Tyler. He gave me the happiness I needed. He made me feel loved and wanted. We started dating but it only lasted about a week. For 3-4 months after that, I kept trying to tell him I still loved him. Finally he started talking to me again and I told him.. He told me he still loved me too and that he wants to make things right. […]
Hello, I’m Bane. I’ve tried to kill myself many times and I decided I wanted to come on here and Impart my story to you fine people. My story begins and ends in darkness, I was born in a prison called Pena dura located in the darkest of caribbeans Santa Prisca. I was forced to serve the life sentence for my snake of a father Edmund Dorrance AKA King Snake. I was raped many times, Raped by Injustice and darkness…and sometimes men, dark men. I had nobody, I had nothing. Except my bestfriend Osito. I loved Osito, I made love to Osito. Osito was not […]
ive decided its time. 3 more days just 3 more days till 2012 is over and 3 more days till i die. i have decided it is time and im going to die. i promised myself that next year i will commit suicide. no one wants to help me, no one understands my pain, physical and emotional. im better off dead. im just a worthless good for nothing person. dead but alive. inside dead and outside alive. i just have to survive 3 more days. i cannot carry on like this anymore and im taking action and leaving. what do you think ?
I have never spoken about this before but I feel that maybe people can use this as inspiration. Something has happened to me that will change my life forever.
I have lived with schizophrenia my whole life which has lead to insomnia, bipolar, depression, lack of confidence, loss of personality…the list goes on. At a young age, I landed myself in a mental health unit, dosed up on stupid amounts of anti-psychotics and sleeping tablets with little to no contact with the outside world. They wanted to keep me there for a long time, as a docile zombie, drugged up and staring at walls with no concept […]
I am surprised how I tricked myself. I guess this time my wish for death is greater than before, it is deep inside me even when I am not aware of it. recently I wrote a story about me giving myself one last chance to prove I am capable of life. I planned everything I want to achieve and do and I was trying to follow my plan. But some wicked part of me  kicked in and I began to sabotage myself. I made myself fuck up without being aware what I was doing. Now when I see it from distance, I see myself relying […]
1) Work up courage to kill self
2) Kill self
3)Â in the event of an afterlife see (3a,3b,3c) below, if not proceed to (4)
3a) if heaven, then find god and kick his/her/its ass for creating such a crappy world. Proceed to hell (3b)
3b) if hell, then kill self again. Repeat as necessary until the end of time (go to step 4)
3c) if reincarnation, same as 3b
4) In the event of nonexistence, congratulations you win
yeah not sure staying off of SP is really gonna work for me..
I said I wasn’t going to post a last post. I don’t know why I am other than the fact that I shut my email off again. This is not about anyone but me.  I have been up many nights trying to figure out the best way to do this.This should not even be as difficult as it was before. Thank you to those that gave me your time and attention.
Hello knife, is it time to go? Shall you lead me from the world? Shall we swim in a pool of blood, away from here for good?
Hello rope, is it time to leave? Will you guide me to the trees? We can swing from a branch, just you and me. I think im ready now let’s flee.
Hello pills, is it time for me? Just give it a moment and we will see. I think it’s time now for me to go, to slip away and be forever free.
Goodbye Life
Sincerely, Me.
So I was doing the whole social thing and hanging with my friend and he said I was a saddest that I make myself sad for no reason. He said that I was depressing to be around. And he is not wrong, in fact I think he hit the nail on the head.
I have come to a very clear realization, that is that I am bad for people. I have been preaching a message of love for a while now, but a few recent comments have brought me to my senses. I have been focusing on finding someone, but what is the point? I am a fucked […]
what would you like to talk about?’…..
i’m not sure why i’m posting this anywhere, since my view of everyone is that they’re all pointless in discussing things with or doing anything with.
I don’t believe anyone has any real power except those who are lucky enough to have had the right circumstances. I want to die so badly but can’t actually bring myself to making the jump off the building or in front of a fast truck. I can’t buy a gun, never seem to save the money for one or have the paper work filled out for a license.
It’s hard to not express how I feel, but it’s what has to be […]
I put a story up on this website a couple months ago, I was doing fine but for the past couple of days I have been crying. I have no reason to live, I am a *****, because all my friends like this girl but I hate her with a passion, she talks about herself all of the time and its so annoying, I am  going to fail all of my exams because I can’t remember anything I have learnt and I have asked my mum for help but she says she is too busy to help because she is cleaning and doing her uni […]
I guess we all have different reasons for being here. For me it keeps coming back to the same thing: I’m not convinced that life is a good thing.
All living things are born with some sort of survival instinct. But has anyone rationalized why we should want to live? I think it’s just some sort of selfish programming, like the desire to take whatever you want. In the case of taking things (stealing), we’ve learned to suppress that instinct. Mindless carnal instincts like rape & violence are mostly suppressed too. But still there’s that ridiculous “self preservation” thing that nobody ever questions.
Maybe I was born […]
i’m 28. currently unemployed and living with my mother. i just (on xmas eve) had my second consecutive miscarriage in less than two yrs (both different fathers, so it’s not a chromosome incapatibility) i’m beyond broken from this. ALL i think about is dying day and night. or getting so F’d up on pills so i don’tt ‘feel’ anymore but i can’t get any. my mother was supportive and comforting at first, then i got upset and called her a name. she wont let me forget it nor does she understand i did not mean it, i was hurt and taking my pain out on the […]
Do you live in circles too? Maybe squares or smth?
I live in little, tiny suicide circles. Soon enough everything comes back to it. And I’ve even found a decent way to do it, with pills that simply make your heart stop, if overdosed. It seems so unbelievably simple. I understand that it wouldn’t be painless  etc, but the fact of death – the possibility of dying to my damaged brain seems like a miracle, something magical.
There’s nothing for me here. I’m really ugly and not the only one who thinks that way, so it’s not my imagination. And, as you know, beauty in this world […]
Do you see how broken I am now? How lonely.., lost.., and terrified I am? Can you see the pain in my eyes now? The cracks and scratches? Tell me.. Do you understand now? Do you care now? Do you regret your hurtful words now? Do you regret your doubts now? I was scared and I just wanted you to be there I just wanted you to care and understand and you doubted me.. Humiliated me.. Mocked me.. the scars are here and they cant be erased. So thanks. For making this bigger than it really was.. And thanks for putting me through all this.. […]
I feel like I am hitting my head against the wall and I feel like IÂ just cant keep doing this anymore… I am running on the little reasons that I have. I am done trying.. my depression has held me back for a long time…I do not want too keep fighting this battle anymore….