i am a survivour of suicide i tried to kill myself and now i an’t make the feelings go away, i can’t really share my feelings with my gf, i’m a lesbian which makes things worse, cause people say stuff, and my family won’t accept it and i’m also a survivour of childhood molestation. i see things at night and i feel like why bother some times. help

Rhetorical questions. I don’t expect anyone to do anything. Part of me doesn’t want them to.

It’s the 27th of September next Thursday, Those of you who know me well will know how I feel about this date. For those of you that don’t, I guess you will find out.

Today has been shit. Really shit. To the point where I realized that I don’t want to do this anymore, And don’t fucking tell me that medication will help. I know it won’t, It will just basically numb my emotions so i’m like a lifeless robot (funnily ironic right?) I don’t want to do these routines anymore, I figured […]

Ok, been to the doctor today and he tells me I have cancer. I’m killing myself if I don’t do a treatment option. So, the only thing that comes to mind is a noose and latter. I’d rather die quick than let them kill me or make me the walking dead. I’m just stuck.

I always comin back on my black days.. Some of small comments always helps me a little bit..

I got knife to my back yesterday… New lesson of life: “never believe in people too much” “never plan too far” “never trust somebody too much”. My fucking roomie, he called me and said: “im moving out, i quit studies. bye”. It means i cannot rent this big flat alone, too expensive! I am going to Asia after three days – it means i have no time for searching and […]

Friendship is sometimes painful,because my friendship is painful.

Actually, It been since 2 months  I talked with my friendship. The reason? Because one of my friend dont want to talk to me. I miss them. But when I see that they are happy without me it’s hurt me alot. I was not special to them.I was only a person to hang out when they were alone or to use when they are bored. I know. For them I am always the bad girl who make problems. But i want to change that I want to show them that i can be a good friend. Everynight I […]

My friend. She started dating this dude. But last week she hated him? I was taking her to homecoming. Still am, but her boyfriend may be upset. She said if he has a problem he can’t be with her. But I want to be with her. This is only a small piece to the puzzle for my reasoning. Help

im so lonely, and sad.. i just want a friend, someone I can talk to everyday about anything and everything, someone who won’t judge me, someone who will listen and understand. anyone? 

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love to all!

I am sitting on the couch next to my beautiful girlfriend.
I am on my iPad writing this. She has no idea. I think she loves me. But I’m not happy. Every night the only thing that helps me sleep is the thought of suicide. I have failed at most everything I have tried. I have run out of options. For the last few years I have been telling myself “next week will be better”. It doesn’t get better.
I can’t be positive anymore. The eternal void of death looks so inviting. I have got my method planned. It some […]

I’m exhausted. I’ve come to believe that there are people put on this earth that are meant to struggle throughout their lives. They are the ones that we look at in their 80’s and say…oh but she/he worked soo hard, did what they could, just couldn’t catch a break, but never complained, just went to work did what they had to do…. yeah well, I’m 42 years old, been divorced for 4 years now, I have 2 children remaining with me, my oldest is 19, has moved with his father and hates and refuses to speak to me bc of the divorce. I went […]

soo its my birthday tomorrow… and all i want is for it to stop.

thats it.

i want it all to end.
my mother to be gone. my problems to be gone. my friends worries to be gone.

i want to be gone.

Every choice you make makes you unique
“You are the universe experiencing itself”
-Carl Sagan
We are a random assortment of protons electrons and neutrons or quarks if you want to go deeper
Of all the different combinations possible a vast and infinite universe is built
In that universe a galaxy completely unique to every other galaxy
In that a solar system, quite different from others a planet
where the particles combine
to make chemicals that send signals to biological organs
made of cells made from the particles
all within these natural machines called humans
that convert food into love and movies and music and […]

God is fair; if he gives you something, he’ll take something away. He gave me a good brain and a good body, but toke away my ability to make close friends. He gave me many talents, but toke away a good family. He gave me… many good qualities, but made my personality pessimistic. I guess personality couldn’t really blame God, because I developed it myself.

能力

名词: 能力, 能, 才能, 本领, 本事, 才干, 能耐, 才, 技, 材, 伎, 埶, 蓺

Hey there, I know it has been a few weeks. Lately just been thinking, not over thinking like I did before, but still. I have isolated myself for a few, but started and tried to hang out with a few old buds of mine. Since Labor day Monday, my dreams have gotten better. I’m not stressing out like I used too. I have realized I have done a lot of disappointing choices in the past, but I am accepting the consequences and slowly developing, understanding what I have done wrong, and accepting the choices on why things have gone down the drain. Since I have always disliked changes […]

The feeling of being abandoned I know all too well. I know it like the back of my hand. Love hurts, being lied to is expected.. but being and feeling as if ur abandoned completely fucking sucks. Sometimes I feel like a dog who’s master has gone away and as a dog I patiently await the return of my master to no avail. Sometimes I still shed a few tears from the horrors of my life. I am matured far beyond my age in the aspect of trials and tribulations I have endured thus far. I can’t say I have endured all the conflicts which […]

I came across this site purely by mistake … a mistaken type in google search but decided to check it out anyways.

I don’t really know what to expect or what this place is but I do know that I think I belong here.

I’m lost. So completely lost. And the will to keep going is unbearable. I’ve run out of steam. I’ve run out of options.

Suicide and death and other forms of self harm consume my head on a regular basis. I don’t know whats keeping me from doing it. But whatever it is it’s slowly becoming weaker and weaker.

I’m just lost.

I’m only 14, and I’m brand new to the local public high school. I just came from a Catiolic school. Its the 4th week and I have already herd people calling me a whore, I have no clue why. But it kills me. I’ve never had sex, I dont flirt with guys, and I’ve only kissed one guy. I got called a cum dumpster in front of the whole class. They all laughed. My brother has gone to that school for 3 years and tells me how I’m a whore. So I can’t even get away from the names at home. I’m also abused my […]

I hate myself becuase i am so unlucky!.. always bad things are happening to me.. i am 39 years old i am not marry i do not have kids and i do not  have a job, i always think things are going to  get better but they do not. i used to have hope i will be a happy person when i get older but things got worst.  i have very little hope that one day things will get better i see people getting married having kids and having nice jobs and i always get screw by boyfriends and i cannot get a job, i […]

ive had enough of the pain….i see no other option…

Hi, I am an 18 Year old boy from the United States. Like most of everyone here I had thoughts of suicide and browsed the suicide project blog daily hoping to find people who could relate to what I was feeling. And for people who could possibly care for me. Well, 3 years later I am happy to report I am no longer thinking of committing suicide and my life took a complete 180 degree turnaround. But for having to go through what I did and learn what I did I am back to try to help people with some helpful advice to hopefully change someone elses […]

im done…bf pissed me off again:/ i know we’ll be back together but…i feel maybei should just go now..so hopefully pills and a knife will make tomorrow a day of non exisistance forever