I feel that i have lost everything i have ever had, even though i know i haven’t. i can’t pay attention in school and its getting me in trouble there and i can’t do my work because i don’t know how to do it because i can’t pay attention in class, which is making my grades drop drastically. i used to care about wanting to pass school now all i want to do is lay in bed excluded from everyone. i wish i could find what was holding me back from comiting suicide so i can just get my stupid life over with.
I am new here, ways trying to find ways to kill myself on the net and came across this site. Well yes life sucks big time and after going through this site guess I am not the only one trying to find answers and frustated because every door seems to closed down with no key in sight.
Well about me I am in my mid twenties, lost my mother when i was 7, then dad passed away from cancer two years ago. now stuck with a husband (had to marry because it was my dad’s last wish and i could not let him down, i love […]
I am 46. That’s pretty old compared to most of you. The first time I thought about suicide was in high school. I often regret not following through at that age because it would have been so much less complicated–so fewer people to hurt. I am now married with 3 kids. They keep me here because I don’t want to hurt them. But when I get really low, I can even put them aside and go through the motions of hurting myself (that’s what my therapist calls it). I think in reality I know that I just want to escape the mistakes I’ve made, the […]
Struggling to keep my happiness going. Not the lollipops and confetti, I mean the ignorant smile. I don’t fit in. My little dumb switch is non-existent. I’ve been searching for work still. I don’t qualify. I’m unable to lift safely, I don’t want to be an ass sitter on’r, and I don’t seem to work well with helping people with their customer service related probs in a day to day manner.
That farm. I found land in a land magazine up north that coats 12,000 dollars or so for 19acres of land. My mom said the land is too much. She’s right. But I want […]
My years at school were going great, amazing friends and amazing family. Everything was perfect. until, I messed up. I don’t like talking about what I did, bit I will tell you my whole story so here it goes:
my best friend was seeing this lad, but he was sending me pictures and videos, he asked for a picture of me with no clothes on. So I did. I told my best mate he sent pics of himself, which was a stupid thing to do because he then told her what I did. She was obviously mad at me and didn’t want me as a […]
Today was my 1st day at school. It was ok at 1st but turned to hell. I realized something today. School is what depresses me. Â All these people but not even one person needs or cares about me. I feel like the only way to get peoples attention is with death. I always get memories of all the horrible things that have happened to me when I was with alot of people. No one has EVER had faith in me. No one cares. My death is the only thing people would care about. I win a trophy? Big deal. Someone can buy one online or […]
I have to take my life, i need advice, the best way to go, I do not, will not live like thid any more, im 26 and ive had a very very good life, now i have nothing to live for, so i just wanna end my life, it helps to know theres others who feel the same.
I just don’t want to be here anymore. Lately I really have just lost the will to care. I can’t really go to my family or friends with how I’ve been feeling. My family would probably put me someplace and I really don’t want my friends to see me in this light. I’ve been in therapy practically all my life and it hasn’t helped. I can’t even go through all the medication I’m on. My appetite has gone to complete hell, I just don’t want to eat anymore. According to my bmi, I’m extremely underweight but in a way it makes me happy because hopefully […]
Everytime I get into a car I hope it’ll crash so I don’t have to go on, everytime I go to sleep I hope I’ll never wake up, everytime I walk around late at night I want to just be murdered. I starve myself and take small overdoses in the hopes that my organs won’t be able to handle it and I’ll just drop dead.
I just want it to end. The fact that I can’t do it myself makes it even harder, it’s a vicious cycle filled with malicious irony.
I need help.
Ever since I was 12 my mom has made me feel like a horrible human being every single day. She insults me, hits me, mocks me and laughs at me when I cry, and tells me how much of a failure I am, how I’m not muscular enough to be a real man, how she wishes she had a better son. Even after multiple suicide attempts, one of which resulted in the school counselor taking me to the hospital ward to get help, my mom still doesn’t see what she’s doing. My dad realized it was wrong to hit me and insult […]
I’ve been bullied ever since i was younger
I’ve been called stupid, useless,worthless, been told to go kill myself, i just don’t have it in me. I have self harmed myself in the past. I didn’t cut myself or anything, instead i gave myself earser burns. i stopped doing that when my friends got really worried about me. my  best friend killed himself when we were 16. He’s the reason i could never kill myself. I saw the pain in our friends eyes when it happened and thinking about killing myself now even kills me to picture the look in their eyes. Or my boyfriend…i’ve been […]
Hey if anyone ever needs to talk then I am here for you ALL. No matter how extreme the problem is because chances are I have been through it too.
I hope some of you comment/message me 🙂
all I’m sure of is non-existence is the best.
It’s so hard to keep going 🙁 I suddenly feel like crying. I wish my brother would die. Then I could go do whatever the fuck I want guilt free. Instead, I work a job I hate everyday, sharing oxygen with people that disgust me, just so he can survive. Our mother is fucking useless; I wish the both of them would die. She’s a fucking whore, a stupid fucking whore that keeps having kids cause she’s too dumb to keep her legs closed. fuck, I hate all of them. Not just my mother, but her mother, […]
I’ve been falling in and out of depression so easily over the past two years, I’ll feel okay for a few days and then something will happen and I’ll go crashing back down. The worst part is everything that has fucked up in my life has always been my fault. The last time I tried to commit suicide I told some friends about it, I made an unsuccessful overdose attempt and pity turned into cries of attention seeking. This time around I’ve not told anyone because I know the same thing will happen and I can’t handle any more. I feel so alone, I am […]
I usually have two or three days where i feel happy and normal. Then the depression hits me twice as hard and brings me down to nothing.
I completely forget what happiness is like, and feel like there is no way out. It almost feels like if i ever felt anything else but this consuming darkness, it was just a dream.
Then there are those amazing weeks that i am normal, i’m not exactly happy but i’m not depressed. But the funny thing is… After about a week of feeling neutral, i start to say to myself. “I miss being depressed, i wonder what it felt […]
I have always wondered what exactly it was about my life that made me so depressed. I can never pinpoint what is so terrible that i want to erase myself from human-kinds memory.
I am currently studying at University and alot of things have fallen into place for me. They still don’t explain everything but the information i am learning has highlighted some very important things.
My mother has an anxiety disorder, looking back on my life, childhood was harder than it seemed at the time.
My brother also has a learning difficulty so although i am the ‘baby’ of the family, i have always had to […]
Great success, i went from doing soo many pills to alcoholic, i never drank ’till i was 18 (i’m 18 now) ’cause of dad, he’s an alcoholic, i see why now, although i’d go back to pills without a doubt if i could, i been sober for 7 or 8 weeks tomorrow, from pills that is. I might stop with alcohol some time, prolly not, but i’m never ever gonna stop smoking weed.
The pills i did were mainly benzos, and also codeine. I haven’t done codeine since i overdosed on codeine and paracetamol, prolly almost died, idk really. Didn’t feel too well for a week. […]
hi.
was just hoping someone out there might actually be able to help me.
I was in the navy was injured during the intense training.
they made me spend 4 months in there hospital with no friends or family.
i had surgery to both legs and now suffer from extreme chronic pain depression anxiety and chronic fatigue syndrome.
i cant do any of thethings i used to love because of the pain.
this has also caused my boyfriend to not be able to handle me anymore.
i believe his about to give up on me and when he does it will be the end of me as he is the only thing […]
I want to die
That is all