I’m taking a class right now that requires me to write a persuasive essay on something that I’m passionate about.  I’m not really passionate about anything but I think about suicide most of the time.  That not really being a topic I feel like writing an essay about, it got me thinking further and I decided that, legalizing Euthanasia for terminally ill patients, would be a pretty controversial argument to present.  I would like to present it as being beneficial for the individual as well as society.  I am asking for anyone’s input on how they feel about this subject whether they are for it […]
why am i on the earth still: my bf, my best friend, and all my SP friends i dont wanna leaveXD
do i wanna leave the earth: FUCK YEAH
but no way do i wana leave all yeah. so yeah thats why im still aliveXD
˙ʎןʇuÇɹÇɟɟıp sbuıɥʇ ÇÇs  *Turn the screen*
This happened so fast. I finally have the will to live. I think I finally have enough will power to get myself out of this … It’s time for me to see things differently. See life differently. See my future differently. I’m tired of feeling this way. Enough with the pain. Enough with the tears. As much as I want my pain to stop, I don’t want my life to end. Instead of ending it, I’m going to change it. I have been feeling really shitty the last few days and I thank everybody that tried/did cheer me up. lol […]
I can’t do it. I can’t.
I’m in so much pain, all the time… not physically. Emotionally and mentally.
I haven’t been on this site in a while… Not really, since (he)… left. God… I wish I’d gone with him. So much. Then I wouldn’t be forced to endure. I hate enduring. It feels like waiting, waiting for even more terrible shit to happen. But I have too many people I would hurt if I went, hurt like I was hurt when (he) left forever, to a place where I could never speak with him again.
I miss him… I really do. He was my lifeline. I […]
Do you ever just wish you could stop breathing? Just cease to exist? I just feel no joy for life….I don’t feel happiness… I don’t really feel anything at all. People look at me and think I’m doing better and I’m not. I’m basically lying to everyone and it kills me. I’m not better. I’m still cutting multiple times a day and most days all I can focus my mind on is death…. I haven’t felt this down in a while and I’m just not sure how to pick myself up.
I think I had a nervous breakdown Sunday night…. a couple things happened with my […]
i am so mad at my mom… she knows that i have depression and that i can’t stand it and yet she won’t let me take medicine for it… even my therapist said that it would be a good idea…. i guess i’ll suffer until i’m in control of my medical things.
I hate everything… i am not joking i hate the way i feel… i hate the way i think and what others think and say about me… most of all i hate my life… every part of it.
I’m not really sure what made me register for this website. it’s just something inside of me made me think that finally I have found people that might understand. I feel ugly fat worthless. I feel like if I die nobody would notice. I started cutting about febuary. I stopped for about a month. then I started again. I want to just take a knife and slit me throat. I want to die. it’s just that noone cares. some people say they do but then they act like I am just… I don’t know. just a peice of trash. they don’t really care. I want […]
as i was wrighting a song today all things that i had pushed into a safe and locked it away somewhere to never be opened again….but as soon as i finished they all came flooding back and there was no way to shut then in that safe again…today was the first time i cut in almost 2 months… lately it seams that ive been closer to edge then ever before..its just like that nightmare i have every year on the first day of school… i just ran out of the woods everyones gone whoever was after us got them all im the last one left, […]
i hate how i get mad at the littlest things… someone can look at me wrong and i’m so mad that i’m ready to knock their heads off.
Tomorrow at 3 inthe morning Alberta time I have to face oneoff my worse fears…me and my family r flying to Ontario and I have a deathly fear of planes.. I’ve heard to many bad things about them. But we r flying to Ontario our flight leaves at 7 in the morning butim scared to go through security and to get on the plain.. My moms bf says that the plane istotally safe but im still scared to go on the plane idk wat to do…Knowing me ill probably freak out… Im scared to be on one airplane with lots of people idk…. Â idk wat […]
Last night just wasn’t a good night for me . I guess you could call it my first real attempt at suicide. Before I’ve only cut myself and have thoughts about suicide but last night I just went kinda crazy for no real reason. I guess it was mostly because I had my first day of school and my first day of cheer after two weeks of missed practices- needless to say I was stressed. I’ve nver taken more pills then I should but I’ve always thought of it as a way of suicide. So last night I took  20 pills- 8 Advil, 4 ibuprofen, […]
I love her, I love her with everything I have. I need her. But this guy and her are like, bestfriends. I told her Ive fallen for her, she doesn’t text back. I feel as if ,I feel as if I am in a dark, cold room. Trapped for ever. No windows, no furniture. I feel as if the world is against me. My friends, the girl I love, EVERYTHING. I can’t take anymore…
intense, this is intense, i havent felt this bad in a while. hope its temporary,damit
Just went to my school’s course advicer.wrap up s that.i might have to be on probation next session..truth s dat i just dnt gve a 4ck anymore.
i don’t know who i am anymore. i don’t know where i’m going, i dont think i want to go anywhere. i want everything to end. now. i’ve come to the dead end, the end of no return. i no longer know what it’s like to be happy. happy- what is that word? what does that even mean? i wish i could wake up in the morning and love my life and love everything around me. but i dont. i wake up hating the person i am in the mirror, i hate the sun, and the flowers, and the trees. i hate the day time. […]
what does your average person feel like when they wake up? what do they feel like when they are sad? do they ever seriously want to die or hurt themselves? also what would happy people answer to these questions? im curious.
When you stop chasing the wrong things, you give the right things a chance to catch you.
So starting today…
Give up trying to be perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done.  Read Getting Things Done
Give up comparing yourself to others. – The only person you are competing against is yourself.
Give up dwelling on the past or worrying too much about the future. – Right now is the only moment guaranteed to you. Right now is life. Don’t miss it.
Give up complaining. – Do something about it.
Give up holding grudges. – Grudges are a waste of perfect […]
Thanks to everyone at Suicide Project. I’ve been working on healing my spirit and getting good results. You have to do the work but first must reach out. Don’t be scared, fear comes wether you sit at home or go out and try and get yourself healed. Remember, need to do the work, even if you know you are going to die.   Here’s a poem:
When I want to die, when I no longer want to be here.
I look through a microscope, and all is clear.
The beauty of Life, is so amazing.
Makes all my problems disappear.
No more pain.
No more tears.
No more injustice.
No more fears.
I am the God, who […]