its decided ive picked a date and theres ni turning back now im relived that it will soon be over since theres no use staying alive now im finally at peace
I just don’t understand why I’m like this, see i’ve been on this page for a while, i’ve read peoples stories. I just don’t understand why i’m like this, i let everything just pile up inside of me and it sucks, Â I don’t want to die but sometimes its just the only choice, I haven’t really honestly tried yet, but I honestly feel like I could someday if something bad enough were to happen it could go down, I don’t want other people to see me differently, but I am different. I’m socially awkward, I think negative of everything I do. everytime I lose a […]
My roomate the second time in the hospital. Her real name was Emma, but if she is reading this, i thought that would be a good way to get back in contact with her again. She was an alcoholic. I feel like I need to talk to her, I keep getting little reminders every time i see certain things. Â a post that said alcoholic. I need to talk to her. See a journal. The same one that she had in the hospital from when she was 13. We would read it every day, till they took it away… I saw the exact same one a […]
We broke up a a while ago. Why? He thinks it’s because I liked someone else. It’s not. But thats what my ex “best friend”, Sara, told him. fucking liar. He says she told him that she hates me. Oh well, she wasn’t a great friend anyways. But it hurts that he believes her. He was my best friend. He posted on here about this. But. the truth is, I broke up with him because I loved him, and I couldn’t deal with the distance, we were dating for months, yet saw each other TWICE. That and I was going to take him back until […]
I’m sixteen and i’m an alcoholic already at my age. My town isn’t exactly big on morals so getting a hold of it isn’t a problem
But… I think alcohol saved my life.
If i wasn’t drunk every evening, I believe I would not be here today. I firmly believe I would have killed myself long ago.
I am so disillusioned with the world and the only time I don’t care about who or what i hate and why or how much I hate it is when i feel so inebriated.
I guess i’m just wondering how healthy this is mentally? It’s obvious it isn’t good for my […]
my baby girl who saved me
This post is to give you hope that no matter how hard life is you can always over come anything….
Hi my name is Shiane and I’m 17 about two years ago I found out I was bipolar and also had depression. At first I didn’t quite understand what those were until one day my mom sat me down and explained to me what was going on. So anyway on June 23rd 2011 I decided that I couldn’t go on […]
yup. i shall cut tonight. i think i may have hope to make it through another night but i must see some blood!!!!!!!!! im so mad at myself and all the stress i cause people. i make myself miserable. i dont deserve anything but scars and tears:/
I am 50 shades of fucked up.
I never let anything out of my control, I always have to be very sure that there isn’t anything outside of my reach. I’m manipulative, deceitful, and I’m so good at it that nobody would even believe me if I told them. Everyone thinks I’m sweet, shy, quiet. I’m emotionally cut off from the world. I can be cute and adorable to whoever I want to date me, and they will fall for me without even knowing what they are getting in to. I can be sexually manipulative, taking advantage of how easy it is for me to turn […]
I just feel like no one understands me, I don’t really understand myself but I just wish other people would. I get bullied alot, I get bullied because I am a girl who doesn’t feel comfortable in my own skin, I act like a boy, and hang around with boys because I just can not stand girls and i dont know why! its not that i want to be a boy, at some times i think i do but im not sure! but whatever i just dont get along with girls and its anoying because i get bullied for that. i get bullied for the way […]
I’ve written about it several times and have read other peoples take on it, the inability/lack of desire to get up and go after work.
I want to leave so badly; I work too many hours and I’m not paid for any time I spend here outside of 9-5. I come in hours early, stay too late, go in on weekends…
I want to get up and go now, but there’s nothing to go to. I can go to my mothers house and hang around with my kid brother. I could do something right and getting him on track with his schooling and tutoring.
I feel […]
Funny thing is the way I found this site was I searched on google “Methods for suicide”
Somewhere along the way,
somewhen in the last ten
Years
I lost my life
I took a wife
Who turned into
A truly cruel and vicious thing
Who causes pain
To hear me sing
My song of wubbery blubbery woe.
She kicked the soul out of my heart and I cannot get it back.
Goodbye.
I accidently cut myself while i was shaving and i couldn’t help but notice how fulfilling it felt to watch that stream of blood pouring down my leg and i swear i could have watched it forever if i didn’t have to get out of the shower. I finally understand what cutter’s mean when they explain how alive you can feel by seeing your own blood. Don’t get me wrong though,i will not start to self harm because of this.
i HATE how im so shy, cant even make new friends so i can get ruid of my old.. they’re so fucking stupid sometimes, cant they see that they things they say to me hurt me? or that i am stuck in this depression and they’re not even there for me.. not even close. they ignore my sadness like its no big fucking deal. tho one day i may very well never wake up. and they will all regret how they didnt even try to save me! my one friend steals my food tho she knows very well i have eating disorders, they call me […]
They say everyone has a PURPOSE in this life
I wonder what’s my purpose
Nothing makes sense…Now I’m in those moments when I just want to DISAPPEAR
I’m getting more and more SAD
I really don’t know what to do!
you might as well stop banning me because i will keep coming back.
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there is a time when you cannot tell if you need a uplift in life from somebody else, or you should just end it. I have had many such times in my life when i had the feeling that there was nothing that could be done now except suicide, but there always was a helping hand – friend or relative who stood by me and told me not to do it. but this time it is completely different, i have no way to tell if i should do it or not. and the thing is such that i think that my head spuns each time […]
My Only friend told me last night shes feeling suicidal, Why? her too having to feel like this.. Then she said all these nice things about me being a good friend and all but she does’nt even know who that i’m suicidal and feel like her, I can’t tell her.. No body knows how i feel Just me.. I’m scared for her, Don’t want her to feel like this, Shes incredible, I hate this world i just want to leave but don’t want to hurt anyone
Do many people out there have like a suicide playlist that you play when your feeling at lowest I have songs that really open me up an d make me cry and think about what im plannning. main songs on it are
anthony and johnsons- hope theres someone
Johny cash – hurt
manic street preachers – suicide is painless
what songs really effect other people on here when feelin at lowest?