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Your First Time

  November 30th, 2010 by destroymyplanet

It’s funny how so many things change after your first attempted in suicide 

You feel like an empty cup 

You surround your self with people 

Yet you feel like the only one there 

Your emotions disappear 

And you can no longer be normal 

You can no longer feel joy or happiness 

All you feel is emptiness and darkness

All you feel is pain 

You start cutting your self 

To feel alive 

And you’ll start learning 

That you should of died that day

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Help? Ontario

  November 30th, 2010 by lostgirl20

Is there anyone here from Ontario (or even just Canada) that wants to talk, maybe swap stories. Having a rough day and the one person that knows about everything I’m going through I can’t talk to now so I don’t know what to do. So lost, confused and scared and meds aren’t helping. Not sure what else to do, just want an easy way out.

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Why the fuck not?

  November 30th, 2010 by KALICEC

Why not do it?

Not for the first time, I wish. Maybe that way it would be easier. Not knowing what to expect. For the fourth time. How should I try it now?

Why not?

After being molested. Not once, but twice by your cousin. Someone who is supposed to love you so much.

And before that, by your step-fathers niece.

Why?

After telling your mother in tears, and her not believing you.

Give me a reason.

After spending ten years seeing that same mother be beaten by your step father.

One reason.

After being verbally abused by a bipolar pair of idiots. You’re so ugly. You’re an idiot. You ruined my life.

Just one. Please.

All …

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Reverie

  November 30th, 2010 by Bodhisattva

(( idk…))

{~ Sear Bliss ~ Reverie ~}

I am where the loneliest souls gather
Though I remained all alone..
But may these moments be eternal..
May this dark yet starlit sky shine on me
…Forever!…

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run away

  November 30th, 2010 by idk...

I don’t really wanna die,I just feel so sad.
There’re people around,but I feel so alone.

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hey suicide projecters!

  November 30th, 2010 by butterflycrush

hey guys! not here to sate my stories today. but anyone from new-zealand here ?

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unworthy

  November 30th, 2010 by lost_soul

i don’t deserve the life i’ve been given. i didn’t do anything to be placed with this incredible family, travel around the world, meet amazing friends, be loved. I shouldn’t be living this life, someone else deserves it more than me. I don’t deserve to get married, have children, grow old and die in peace. I’m nothing but a failure and I can’t do anything right. So why am I here?

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The Friend Zone

  November 29th, 2010 by Violet Blake

I really, really hate liking a guy.

Actually, you know what, it’s not just liking someone that I hate, it’s the agonizing pain the comes with it. Sure, there are those wonderful butterflies that I can’t help but love, but there is also the pain of not telling anyone. The pain of being so afraid to say how you feel, to risk putting your heart on the line only to have it shattered into a million pieces.

So you don’t say anything. You remain calm around him (or her), you pretend that his random joke are what’s making you smile, you lie and say “nothing” when he/she asks …

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I’m new

  November 29th, 2010 by Ya fuck suicide

i dunno if I’m doing this right. Probably not… Im a guy, been contemplating suicide I guess… Seems like it would never actually happen… I lost my girlfriend a month ago and honestly I am not a dramatic person in the slightest but this is just too much. Nothings as good without her, she was my everything and I was irrevocably in love with her and she dumped me because I changed for her. She thinks it’s who I am but it’s not. I only ever get about an hour of sleep every night now. I just want her back but everytime I talk to …

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just wondering.

  November 29th, 2010 by ihope

im 19 years old

i dont know if i am depressed? how can you tell if you are depressed ?

i pretend/feel alright when im around family and friends, and i never really think about it.

but at night(mostly) because i can never sleep till like 5am, i think about how much i hate myself and think about dying. i think about what my funeral would be like. and i cry soo much when im alone. sometimes for no reason.

i always get really anxious when around people i dont know, or if im walking alone, especially at night and when i get home im shaking just cause i always think …

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Where do you hail from

  November 29th, 2010 by Bodhisattva

Does anybody here come from the United Kingdom? or are you all yanks 🙂

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Diamanda Galas Gloomy Sunday (Hungarian Suicide Song)

  November 29th, 2010 by Bodhisattva

Diamanda Galas ~ Gloomy Sunday

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When will the pain end?

  November 29th, 2010 by FinalStraw

I look fine on the outside but truly im in so much pain inside. i hide it all with a smile. i dont know why i have have pain inside. could it be abuse from my father? i feel like i need to end one of our lives to end this pain. Question is whos?

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rant (bad day sorry)

  November 29th, 2010 by marine105

the stupidity of the human race fucking PISSES ME OFF.  first, i want to know why it pisses me off so damn much.  Then I want to take a hold of every illogical whiny jackass and hit them four hundred times with a rusty crowbar then leave them to the rats in the sewer.  No one will come for them.

Today I sat down in the library after school.  It was me, my cousin, and my brother (chris).  Chris starts demanding rudely that I look at his photoshop pictures, constantly saying that he’s better at photoshop and all that drivel.  Since he was being such a …

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not even brave enough to end it

  November 29th, 2010 by silver88

i don t feel that i have ever fitted in every good relationship i have i ruin.

I just don t feel that I have any worth anymore.

i feel like i am screaming but no one can hear me,

im not brave if i was i would have done it already im a coward.

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looking for someone to talk to

  November 29th, 2010 by dan17

Hey I’ve been depressed for a very long time now. I’m looking for someone to share my thoughts with, as it is usually very lonely for me. If you are a kind and caring person and would like to talk with an understanding person, respond to this post.

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heart broken

  November 29th, 2010 by victor

my name is victor martinez im here to tell you a storey i once thought that there was no escape from my past that what ive done had no redemption if you are really wanting to hurt your self read this if not this will give you propective to understand how we’ve felt and why we want to end our lives…..there was a kid who was born  he didnt know who he was or who his parents were he was abandond from the start he was put into home age of 2 he though these were his birth perants but at the age of 5 …

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My secret confessions

  November 29th, 2010 by SweetRevenge

I was browsing around a nd i found this site. maybe itll help me. i have hopefully kept myself as anonymous as possible to tell my story. I cant talk to my friends or family cuz they either think im crazy or just looking for attention. sometimes i agree with them.

It started when i was 5. my great grandfather molested me for about a year before it stopped. he has been dead now for 2 years. It didnt come out to my family until late last year. When i was 8 an important someone in my life molested me until i was 9 when he …

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He died on me

  November 29th, 2010 by ItHurtsTooMuch

The love of my life. How can I have a life without him? Lung cancer, about 3 months ago. At home. In my arms. Thank the universe for hospice, because it was painless and peaceful. He was 55. Handsome, bright, knowledgeable—everything to me.

I’m 59. I had to sell the business we were running together—he was the main ingredient—at a distressed price and feel lucky to have gotten out at all.

A lot of death in my life–my mother last year, my father (lung cancer) when I was 30, my twin brother (suicide) a few years later and then another brother (suicide–terminal renal cancer). I handled those …

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  November 29th, 2010 by pxckll

i have been in a mental hospital for six days. i wish i was still there. i was actually having fun there. i know its wierd to say, but i want to go back. once i left the hospital, i was hurt again. i almost stabbed myself with scissors last night. i just didnt have the guts to go through with it. i hate myself even more for being such a wuss.

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