So I’m not even sure where to start. People are always telling me how their life sucks or they hate their family. When I was 14 15 years old, my gradfrather passed away Ans that’s when I woke up and realized how my life is going to be. I feel like his death is my fault because if I would have done better in school my grandmother wouldn’t have had to take me to night school and she would have been there to call for an ambulance. Well a year later I meet my wife. This girl made everyday worth getting out of […]

What to say reallly i think about suicide nearly everyday… i was born to a 14 year old girl lost in the world my sperm doner beat me till he finally got sent to jail for killing a person….. i grew up lost in the world with no father till the age of 6….. my mother married a military guy things didnt change much my mom was getting abused and i was witnessing it all…. as i grow up people tell me im smart but when i make a mistake they tear me down like im worthless..ive never found a person who […]

My fantasy world is gone, what I had made of the world to keep me happy is gone. Nobody in the world understands me. I feel distant from my family. What was once unity, is now one son, one member isolated and confused, me. Nobody expects me to suicide. But for the last 3 years, i have had countless suicide thoughts. Is it for the attention, no. Is it to send a message to those who don’t care for me but will then; maybe. Or is it because I’m sick of the fakeness, the stupidity, the judgement, of our society. How the government fucks with […]

People always say that its going to be o.k. that pretty soon everything will go back to “normal”… Well what is normal?  Since everyones normal is different i’m not even sure what my normal is…being happy sometimes it’s effortless and sometimes it just feel’s like a role i’m forced to play so that everyone around me doesn’t have to ask why i’m down again..

I wish i knew when thing’s would start being “normal” again.. i tried to kill myself almost three months ago and i still don’t feel like myself i feel like i’m just going through the motions.. people ask me what i’m doing […]

I have been on this site most of the day commenting on others posts, its actually that I’m scared shitless and don’t know what else to do.

I just want to runaway to a foriegn country, yet have no money, passport, no second languages, no serious job skills to speak of.

No hope, ……. I’m stuck, If I don’t manage to exit my life.

My future is bleak as bleak can ever get.

I don’t know how illegals can enter and live in the US, if a US citizen is caught illegally in another country, … no deportation, no staright to

a nightmarish prison.

I want to leave America, yet can’t […]

There is  nothing to live for

Nothing to die for

Nothing to love

Nothing to laugh at

Nothing to smile about

Nothing to joke about

Nothing to look forward to

Nothing to dream about

Nothing to wish for

Nothing to Hope for

There is no love

No hope

No dreams

No happyness

No fairness

No equality

No friends

There is no reason to live

No reason to try

No reason to care

No reason to love

No reason to smile

No reason to laugh

No reason to be here

There is Nothing

Nothing at all

Not a caring friend

Not a loving parent

Not a concerned aquantence

Not a God

Not a hope

Not a life

All there is

is Death

i culdnt find any gud options for me when it comes to fatally overdosing and now i feel more depressed than ever i just want to die

So it’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’m seeing a doctor pretty soon, already got it scheduled. I realized, it doesn’t matter if other people know you’re depressed. It’s not something anyone should be embarrassed about, and it’s not your fault. It’s just a parasite eating away at your soul at the very thing that makes you you. Today is the day to do something, to get a doctor’s appointment or a second opinion.

Long story short, I feel like it would be better to die then live through the pain, guilt and agony knowing that I did something to people that loved and cared about that they can’t forgive and hate me for. I was on Cymbalta, yes prescribed by a Doctor and about after 3 weeks on it I got in an argument with my GF’s Grandfather in the car, I was told to get out, later he dropped my phone off to me while I was walking back I guess, I don’t remember everything, just what I’ve been told… anyway I assaulted him through the car […]

I want to die. I do. I don’t know why, but I’m contemplating it seriously right now. I know I can’t fucking be that selfish but I don’t know what else to do. I want to do something…I want to hurt myself. I’m so lost and alone right now, someone please talk to me…It sounds dumb, but I’m so scared to die… Please help…?

Hey guys, My name is Megan , I’m 13 years old, & I’ve felt like harming myself before just like the rest of you ..I know your thinking, ‘Oh well you wouldn’t know anything about this stuff your only 13.’
Well , The truth is I do, I went through alot in my life, My dad was military & was gone all the time, & Then my mom went to Iraq for a year, & Thats when it hit me the hardest, I started dressing different, acting different, & Would make myself throw up, everyday so i’d never be in school I failed everything,& […]

I tried to kill myself on tuesday….. i must have taken 30 or so pills, but that wasn’t enough…….i didn’t really feel anything until yesterday, my stomach was killing me and i had the worst headache. I should have taken more pills, 10 more would have done it, make 15 more, but now I’m all out. How many does it take, i don’t want another failure.i just want it to be over. I  was so close………..

I have had so many thoughts of suicide. I have cut myself and i have burned myself. I did that because it felt like i couldn’t talk to anyone because no one understood what i was going threw. I felt like that was my only way of getting my feelings and emotions out. I had so many problems at home and school and it has gotten way worse. Ever since my parents split up my family and i haven’t been the same. My mom and i constantly fight, I’m always in my room.A fight that i always have with my mom is that I’m not […]

just one more day i tell myself, then ill do it. i…….. no one cares about me, no one. i have no friends…i cut myself all the time, i have about 20 deep cuts on my legs right now. ive told ppl and they dont care, they just yell at me. i used to drink alot but i dont so much anymore but  i think im gonna start again now, i ………its an escape, i dont remember how bad things were the morning after, i feel happy and warm and fuzzy and i love it, the taste is good, it helps, stupid psychiatrist told me […]

FUCK EVERYTHING! I just trying to forget everything and live my life with no limit. This shit is so damn hard, and I just can’t stand it. But something tell me I have to live like I was dead. and by that I mean to like, i don’t know.. HAVE NO LIMIT! And just live free, live a “good” life, live life. Just try to forget the sad stuff, at least hide it, and just be a crazy ***** or something. You’ll be so much more happy about yourself 🙂 haha. (Sorry my language )

I’m new to the site but have been thinking about ending things for awhile.  I am looking into the helium hood method but haven’t found the courage to do it.  I have also thought about the carbon monoxide method but found out newer cars do not emit enough carbon monoxide.  Does anyone know if a 2001 Toyota 4-runner can be modified to produce enough CM to do the job.  It passes emissions in Georgia?  My greatest fear is that it will be an attempt and not a suicide.  I don’t want to do that to my family and I already have so many health issues […]

Life isn’t fair, I’m sure we have all figured that out. What I think is the most unfair part, my whole life. It’s not fair how I have so many great things in my life and all I want is to die. I just broke the record for goals in a season in Field Hockey, I have a house, food, and clothing, an entire family, and I’m healthy. (physically healthy I mean, like I don’t have any diseases) I just wish that I could give my life to someone who wants to live and can’t, like some one with cancer. That would be fair. If […]

I once had a friend who was opposed to the idea of antidepressants. I was too at the time, and I don’t like the fact that I have to take them, but I ran out of options. Anyways, she argued that our ancestors didn’t have pharmaceutical drugs, and people living in third world countries who’ve gone through much more trauma still have the will to live. Anyone have thoughts on this? Yes, depression is a mental illness, but what do you think the reason is for today’s higher rate of suicide?

Why? do people not say good-bye. Why? must they depart and leave me alone. Why? was it too late? Many people had left. My pen has vanish. My world… curupted under pressure. What else could i lose now. What else must crawl away from my presence? How i die so much each day knowing i have nothing else. What else? The one i left dont want to be with me anymore. I worry so much that each day could be our last. I want it to last forever… but forever isnt enterity. If i must… should i crawl on my broken legs before i faint.

I once read that a possible cause for suicidal thoughts, is when pain outweighs your ability to cope. Pain could be any number of things, physical, mental, I’m going to talk about loss. Suicide It isn’t weakness. I’ve coped with a lot. I’ve been molested as a five year old, beaten as an 8 year old, beaten in high school, cheated on by many girlfriends, and have always manage to fake a smile.  But I’ve lost, something that is without a doubt more dear to me than any kind of innocence… I’ve lost my child. I’ve only loved one person truly inside and out, I […]