I’ll be placing an ad in the free press soon, when I figure out a way to word it to a min. if anyone doesn’t know, I’m going on strike against “life”, basically, the government denies our right to live by taking away all opportunities of real help when we ask for it. Not just for severe depression but for other illnesses too. I’m going to live based on survival only, if I have to pay for it, I’m not doing it, (except food and hygeine, they are a nessicaty). If anyone wants to particpate, they can in their own way, just mention it here […]

Tonight’s the night.

Hanging is the method I chose. I’m not looking forward to dangling while conscious for 10 minutes but it will be worth it in the end. My bestfriend knows I’m going tonight which is kind of nice. At least I don’t have to hide this from everyone close to me. It’s such a weird feeling to know that these are really my last couple hours of physically being on this earth. I don’t know what happens after death, but I’m hoping for just nothingness. Like before I was born. I don’t know how people live till they’re 78. I’ve been here for 15 years […]

For the past 5 days I have been starving myself. In the beginning I didn’t really think I was serious about dying, but as more time passes I have become more sure that it is what I want.

I want to die as painlessly as possible.. Ive looked up information on Carbon Monoxide poisoning but Im not sure if it really is the BEST way to do this.. I don’t have a garage so I don’t really even know how I would be able to kill myself in this way. Is it even possible?
Would lighting charcoal grills in my car work?

What about H2S gas? Would […]

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I found this place because I typed “I’m never gonna make it in the real world” into Google. Those words pretty much sum up my biggest worry. Everyone tells me that these are the best days of my life and I should enjoy not having responsibilities like adults do. Ha, I think life sucks right now so why would I want to continue living for something worse? Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy some things about my life. However, those are too few to get me by. I usually end up completely avoiding the things I know I have to do so that I […]

so today, i decided to chill with my ex and one of our mutually close friends. it was incredibly nice today, something like 80 degrees F… the sun was just blaring on me, and i had my shirt off, along with our friend, and she was in a bikini top, and we were just walking around the neighborhood, laughing our asses off, singing songs, and going to battje’s park (cause it has a small lake). that water was limb-numbingly cold lmfao…

but this morning, i woke up, and saw a bottle of unopened nail polish remover…

had i drank that, i more than likely wouldn’t have lived […]

I don’t feel the same anymore, about us… I don’t know what to say to you anymore, I don’t feel anything when we kiss, I don’t feel happy around you anymore, and you used to be the only one who could make me cheer up, but now, now everything’s changed, you’ll always love her, everyone does, I know you don’t love me, and I don’t blame you, I am shit, shit for you, shit for anyone, why am I still even breathing, I’m sorry for not knowing how to act, not smiling or laughing enough, not being there for you, not seeing youu enough, not […]

I would have had a brilliant night, an amazing night actually. I’m a little drunk, and I WOULD have camped in an abandoned caravan tonight with Reece and Zoe if my bloomin’ mom hadn’t said ‘noo you didn’t tidy the living room’ yes I fucking did, but nooo, everything has to be bloody fucking perfect with you eh? fuck off. thanks for ruining ANOTHER night, fuck off you bloomin’ whore.

to you, yeah this is a pathetic post, but to me, I’m fed up of her. Fed up uf her ruining EVERYTHING for me, I hate her, I really do, some birthday this is going […]

http://www.samaritans.org/your_emotional_health/about_suicide.aspx?gclid=CPGLyMLZkqgCFZBkfAodc3jYCQ

I’m in love with my best friend’s girlfriend. Like madly in love.
I’m also going out with his ex, but I lied to him about it and lied to my girlfriend that I told him. They know and so does his girlfriend, they are willing to give me another chance but his girlfriend has lost so much respect for me but is willing to give me a chance.
I’ve tried to commit suicide once before but I woke up the next morning throwing up.
Everyone is loved, but I really don’t feel it

pls help….i wanna die..!!

I hate mondays.
i wonder if hammy made it to the frost?

everything doesn’t make sense, you know? you think you know what you want but when you think about it again, you realise you don’t. you know alcohols bad but whats wrong if you never have to be in the state of having to think things through.. one day were all going to die,so what makes the difference of doing it now or waiting? whats so important in life, having a job, a family, a home and friends..or just simply enjoying everything you do, not giving a shit about the world, doing what you like..what makes that so fucked up? why does drinking, smoking, sleeping with […]

So I ranaway on Wednesday night. I didn’t even mean to. I. Snuck out of the house for the millionth time and when I. Came back there was a cop in front of the house I was terrified so I didn’t go home y would I’m so fukking scared of my father. It is now Sunday. And I’m still alive … I’m actually happy so it really took all this shit I’ve been through to became happy I’m with the one who makes me much more happy then he makes me mad and those people are hard to find nowadays. I’m movving with my […]

I lie

I cry and hurt

I feel pain and smile at times

I love and I lose

I wish and I fail

I’m 17 in a month

I’m a female

I’m suicidal

I cut and I take pills to make me sleep all the time

I care…

I hate myself

I hate who I am

I have been beat up

I have had boyfriends cheating on me

I have been threatened and hurt for not doing what I was told.

They taught me not to speak unless they tell me to

They taught me to do what they say

I was forced to have sex my first time and many times after

I was forced to do certain drugs

My ex’s put bruises […]

Yui- Life…

I am covered in dirt,

in a city I can not get used to

I can’t laugh in the same way

I walk past with my head down

The people who miss each other walking quickly by
“Has your dream come true?”

I’m still struggling….

rather then returning to my childhood days
I want to live the present in a better way

I was born to be scared…

I went out to the place where light shines
and spreading both my arms out

I wonder if I can fly ” I thought”

The wings for me to fly…. I don’t have them yet

since things aren’t easy

That is why I can live…..

Just holding up […]

feels like a lifetime ago that i thought everything was so nice and simple… truthfully it was more like 3 years ago.

who knew that life could be so stressful, how every tiny aspect of you life could make your hair fall out.

how you’d spend so much time on things that ‘dont matter’ that you’d forget to spend time on the things that did.

who knew there was a place where people could anonymously talk about hating life. i can tell you i didnt.

who knew that you’d reach a point where you had no great friends, and had to bottle every thought and feeling up inside.

who knew […]

What do you think of trains?

They’re somewhat reliable, travel at high speed and have a braking distance of a couple hundert meter. Sounds pretty lethal to me.

I’ve thought I would go with something like cutting my throat, but I doubt I could do that properly. Just sitting there waiting for a train sounds kinda lame compared to that. But you know where you’re at and you don’t have to do anything for it.

Again I’m not sure if I could stand still once I see the train approaching. Maybe I’d have to be drunk.

Just wanna know your opinion.

Everyone turns to me with their problems, ignoring the fact that i may have my own to worry about. Even when i feel overwhelmed i have the sense of duty that i have to solve others issues when asked of me. It’s even come so far that when my mother and i discovered my ‘step dad’ was a trifling asshat, i was the one to confront him directly and tell him that hed never see my mother again. When will someone be there to help solve my problems? not just tell me their opinion but to also be there for me throughout the whole issue? where’s […]

You can’t really help anyone who doesn’t want to be helped. The thing is, everybody wants to be helped, even if they tell themselves and everyone else differently.
I’m not exactly the poster child for accepting help, God knows I can be pretty stubborn when I make a decision, even if that decision is a really bad idea, hell, especially if it’s a bad idea.
I’ve made so many bad decisions, and I’ve messed up so many opportunities. I’ve felt completely alone, and utterly defeated. I’ve hurt myself pretty badly just to deal with the pain and self-hatred, and I’ve given up on life a […]