Hi, my name is Xavier. I am a 14 year old boy. I suffer from depression, suicidal thoughts, and social anxiety disorder. If your wondering why I bothered to include my social anxiety disorder, it’s because of school. As some of you may be aware, social anxiety disorder is when you get freaked out about being near other people. Some people have normal social anxiety which is just getting a little nervous when they are near new people. Some people get it mild when they take longer to get to know people before getting comfortable around them. Some people ( like me ) have severe […]
Dose anybody know if theirs a mental disorter where your mind is running at 100 miles per hour?
When I’m alone my thoughts seem to speed up.I don’t hear “voices” but I’m ussuly cought up in “Fame” if I ever became famious or on certion people in my life.For example,Comic book writeing,how my mother’s job working out for her,Playing the guitar,(or at least a poor exicuse of doing so),work,upcoming jury duity,w2 forms,back to work.I don’t want to be self-centered of anything becouse my psyc said their wasen’t anythink wrong with me but I wanna be sure.I can understad if no body wants to talk.
I really cant go on anymore !
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child of mine, when i die
let then, be me, the infant
when i die, as the light ,
from my eyes cease to shine
let then, be me, the child.
pick me in your arms
and take me into your home.
Undress all anguish from my being
lay me in your bed
but don`t leave me alone,
and if I wake up,
child of mine,
please; sing me a song
and give me some of your dreams
so i can fall asleep at your tone
until another morning has dawn
and by then i will be gone.
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i want to live in a fantasy world. not like w/ mythical creatures. i want to basically live in a movie, because i will know what’s going to happen in the end.
i’ve been living in reality for way too long. i don’t belong here. i belong in dream land.
I hate myself… god I hate myself. It still is not okay
I know a lot of people go through suicidal phases. I know a lot of people spend most of their lives fighting varying levels of depression. I also know that many people erroneously believe that nobody cares about them/everybody hates them/there is no point in trying anymore. I have come to the conclusion that I may very well be one of the rare cases where these conclusions are actually correct.
I have a long history of depression, like many people here. I even have a few suicide attempts under my belt ( admittedly half-assed and primarily for attention, though I didn’t realize it at the time […]
ssup guys ! why all the gloom and sorrow ey ? put it this way. just live your life as it is. if you die along the process, then you die. if you don’t, then you don’t.
i know i know. easier said than done. blach –
depression got me all impervious to life much i guess. but ey, the world isn’t TOTALLY boring. why whine about dying and such. embrace it you self loathing suicide junkies. like say, i have narrowed so far the best way i’d feel like going about it is by jumping of a plane naked (or like, take off the parachute suit […]
I need some information on how to make the device that connects to the helium tank and the tube which apparently isn’t the device that comes with the one from the store. how to i make that device that will allow me to connect the tube to the helium canister and for air to come out ?
February 1 2011
I can’t keep on being this way; it’s hurting my mother, and family, and even myself. But I can’t stop, I can’t control this feeling, when it comes it takes over me, and when it lives, it lives me confused, with no explanation to give. I don’t know what to do anymore, I want it to stop! I tried leaving it in my life, but it don’t fit, is too powerful and my body is still weak from all those other fights. Please help me, I need this to stop. Every time I see my mom I feel like crying, because I can’t […]
People keep asking questions i dont want to answer…
They keep saying i will find the answer.
But when, when will i ever find
the answer in my mind
they tell me im beautiful and i have an amazing life ahead of me
well screw them i have nothing to look foward too
because the one for me has left me life
and he will never come back
i tell him i love him and he says it back
i just want to know what he says behind my back.
I love him with all my heart and everything more
but im not willing to stay here if he is not mine
my heart is black
my world […]
i wish everyone around me realized i wasn’t happy. they all think i’m acting out or being dramatic, but they’ll realize how wrong they were once i’m gone. i’m seriously depressed. i have no real friends, my boyfriend isn’t there like he should be, my mom ignores me, and i never see my dad or sister. so i’m always alone. no one realizes the seriousness of this. I’M DEPRESSED AND SUICIDAL! and they cant see it. no one wants to care. i don’t know what to do. i’m worthless. i have nothing to be proud of, everyone thinks i’m a joke, theres no positive perks […]
Hi, I’m back. Not sure why, why not just go ahead and leave. IDK… maybe because I don’t WANT to die, I just don’t want to live.
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I can’t help but to think that life would be better without me in it, it kills me to see everyone so happy and me having to put on a fake smile so no one asks questions.Iv just started grade10 2011,and I’m doing my best at school that I can.But how can I continue doing my best when my best is never good enough. Not only in school but everything I do feels so unappreciated. My heart breaks everyday. I’m not taken seriously iv tried to speak to my friends and no one understands so I just tell then nevermind. I cry myself to sleep […]
It was June 23rd 2003 when I decided to commit suicide. I am so helpless during those times I don’t see any light at my path. There’s only one thing that playing on my mind. “I need to dieâ€
I was only 15 years old that time. I am so depress and down, I just want to kill myself the reason why is so cleared I am not a educated person to be exact I decide to stop my study since I was in a 4th grade due to separation anxiety (The doctor said to my mom in a psychology session) I want to study but […]
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-MyChoice
my life is shit. i want to be the best at what i do but people are always holding me back and ruining my life. this is been happening for the last 3 years. i am going to kill myself. there s nothing in my life to keep living. whilst i was writing this my wrists have been bleeding on my keyboard and shortly i will die!!!. enjoy your lifes and dont ruin it.
If I reached you I hope I’ve helped. If I prematurely ended your life… I’m sorry… good luck on ether a painless life or a painless death. I see a bottle of sleeping pills. I can take 10 of them with out overdosing. I can take 100 and puke while I try to sleep like other people here …*laughs* I’m going to die anyway right? So today I’m taking one…. for me that’s the beauty in it. I can wait…. the sand is running out I can wait to die. I’ll find more friends I’ll accidentally kill more people I’ll find a woman who will […]
I’m 16 and i hate myself. When i was 15 my mother died of cancer and with her gone, the only person who really ever understood me. My father hates me, my friends dislike my presence, and i just dont seem to fit anywhere. I look like I’m fine and I have it all together, but i wake up every morning and i just wish i were dead. I’m supposed to be a Christian, but I don’t know how much of it i believe anymore, i suppose i feel like killing my self would be a sin, and I don’t want to go to hell, […]
I am going to try to sleep, and maybe check and see if anyone responds in the morning. I hate myself and I hate life. Not just my life, but being alive. I hate thinking. I hate existing. I don’t want any of it. In death I hope there is no afterlife, if there is I hope it is optional because this one wasn’t. I am 33 years old. Divorced. Broken. I have never had any of those special qualities that people look for in a partner, the only person to ever tell me they loved me tried to kill me over and over and […]