I think it’s about time that I introduce you all to a very special friend of mine.

His name is Nicholas Kyle, and he’s the starsailor.

Nicholas has done many wonderous things already even though he’s only sixteen. He’s become the captain of his father’s old ship, one that flies around the galaxy defending the universe and all that it inhabits while searching endlessly for the lost planet. He’s kidnapped a pretty girl named Stella against her will, fallen in love with her, gotten caught by a nasty band of space-pirates, escaped from the space-pirates, survived a meteor shower, has his ship and crew caught in a […]

Hello! I just want to say that right now i feel like the worlds loneliest person. I have no real friends, and I’m so insecure about myself that I didn’t even go outside today to mow the damn lawn. Let me start from the beginning as to why I’m so upset though. My life was fine and dandy up until the age of ten. When I was ten my dad died and I was closest to him. He was the smartest person I ever knew and he got into Georgetown University at 16, graduated, and went to work for one of the top law firms […]

New on here, soaking up all the comments and trying to get the feelings out of my head but I don’t think they’ll ever leave as i’ve had them for 25 years but life is going from bad to worse and definitely looks like it’s gonna get even worse but i’ve not done what I wanted to do as it would fuck my kids up.

Suicide is often referred to as a permanent solution to a temporary problem.   I figured the reverse could also be said though.  Whether or not someone chooses to end their life does not change the fact that their life will end one day.  In otherwords, choosing to live is a temporary solution to a permanent problem.  We’re still going to die.

Often I’ll ponder ways that make committing suicide more rational than not committing suicide.  I have not been able to rationalize suicide though.  At best I can say that with a certain value system (a valueless value system) choosing to live is just as rational […]

Theres a lot of things that i wish i could change or take back. But thinking the un-thinkable is not one of them. Dont tell me im crazy, or insane or wrong to be thinking about sleeping forever. im only 30% sure about it. but thats growing. i think the things keeping me from 100% are 1. leaving my family, my friends, my boyfriend(who i love so much) and 2. the fear of what happens next, after i sleep. is there a heaven? a hell? or do you just dream forever. now i know i said my family, friends, and my bf and your probably […]

I’m not going to bore you with a long drawn out list of reasons why the world sucks, why everybody besides me is bad, or anything like that.  I won’t do that because that’s not the reason I want to die.  I want to die because of what I believe is next.

I believe that when a person dies, Death comes for them.  This isn’t your grandma’s grim reaper.  She’s a beautiful, kind woman whose sole purpose of existence is to comfort you and take you where you are headed.  Though you think you’ve never met her, you can feel that the two of you are […]

This so-called “real-world” is too dull and uninspiring and even obnoxious to my very vivid imaginations and dreams.

Human beings -the Earth’s “oh-so-special” species- largely is stupid and moronic, not even that, but they’re also largely ignorant, and then escape to religions and shits like that for “feel good”, “everything is alright”. No it’s not, dumbasses. Until when you all want to play this obnoxious ignorance game? oh sure, ’till our planet and what’s actually really ESSENTIAL for Earth’s life is destroyed to ashes?  then I pray for the End of the World to come fast, because I just fucking hate humanity and its obnoxiousness.
Everybody […]

When I was younger I thought that physicians were like God.  They seemed to know everything and there was nothing they could not fix or cure.

Then I grew up.  Doctors are nothing but very well pain morons who know nothing; they are anything but like God.  They give people false hope that all will be okay, all the while thinking about their big pay check while I am in pain and severe distress.

Time to go to sleep and forget these useless beings called Doctors.

I’m just about finished with my plans to finally go to peaceful sleep.
The doctors, hey they don’t care, never have. Too much in a hurry to see the next dope come in with another fee for them to pay for their swimming pool.

I went to a new doctor who seemed so different, seemed caring. NOT
He told me that all the constipation, pain, spasms of intestines, vertigo, these are just an anxiety attack. Up to then I cared about his diagnosis but after I decided its time to go to that eternal sleeping peace. The place I was before […]

mine will be short.
it won’t be grammatically correct.
i’m writing this only as an outlet.
ihave never slit my wrists, or inflicted pain upon myself at all to be honest. not on purpose anyways. i used to really hate myself. i used to loathe waking up. i hated the people around me, and i wanted them to dissappear. except my family, they were always there and always will, i love them for that.
i didn’t have many friends, i was lonely, i was hating EVERYTHING. but then i met my bestfiend, her name will be Kall (fake names) and she changed me. i never […]

Everyday I endure this pain

The pain of these haunting memories;

I remember the day it started;

All this chaos in my head

This chaos that makes me wish I were dead;

I put on a fake smile throughout every day

All because I hate attention,

I hate affection,

I hate when people care, for me;

I wish I could just end it all

No more pain, no more tears, no more blood, no more fears;

I want to be happy, all alone in the sky

But I think the only way to achieve this, is to die.

In just a few days I’m going to publish my Life’s story of how I got this way.

This will be the first time I ever tell anybody about my personal life and feel that sombody should know about my life before I die.(Wich might be years or weeks from now).Theirs many ways I could kill myself as I personally know I could kill myself with anything..and I do mean anything.I have varry creative ways I could kill myself but,i feel I should still live for some unknown reason in this world and that will also be reviled.I might break into pices(such as PART 1 or […]

It basically started with Him . A wayward mother & her three year old bastard of a daughter . Leaving everything behind, just throwing it all away . & making the biggest mistake a mother ( or at least mine ) could ever make .

How could she marry Him ? I was three years old & I cried at their wedding . I didn’t want it to happen . I didn’t want another douche bag of a father . & exactly that he was . The abuse , Manipulation, lies , drugs , You coward . How could you do that […]

I want to have an out of body experience. In my body I feel like I am going to explode. I hate my body. I hate being in my body. I hate being. I want to see my self how others see me. And see if all the flaws I self consciously invent are real. I want to know. I want to know if I look normal, because I never felt normal. I want to know my own mannerisms. I want to see myself outside myself because I can never see my self and I feel entrapped by my subjective experience. I am trapped by […]

i hate u. i hate myself. in fact, i hate the entire f’ing world. so wat? why should u care? u shouldnt..but u shouldnt pity me either. i dont need a worthless emotion that makes me crawl back into my shell..i dont need ur look of hurt when i say a lie or tell u tat i dont need ur help or that im fine. wat  i need is blood…not that im creeper for blood but i need the calmness tat i get after i feel that pain and ripping of my skin into tiny nonexistent pieces.  i need this feeling to continue on…u […]

Right now, I’m about 40%…yea 40% certain that I want to just end it all. Not be apart of the world that drove me to cry because I’m not good enough, that turned close friends against me, that made my parents constantly push me to be the best, that drove me to strive to be this person that doesn’t exist in which I have to constantly put work and school before my boyfriend and friends, wait never mind the friends part… I don’t have any. I guess even if I did do something as stupid as to end my life I can honestly tell you […]

It’s too late for help. I’ve had too many years of hatred and self-loathing. I always have and I always will feel dirty.
They’ve finally decided to recognize sibling sexual abuse. Well, I hope it will help someone else because it’s too late for me. He was four years older than me, but I will always feel like I’m to blame. I’ll always feel like I did something.
I must be the one to blame because he is a well-respected doctor in Baltimore, and I am nothing. His life has been a life of charm and mine has been one of struggle.
I don’t understand […]

What interests me is that certain people will try to disuade people from choosing their human right in whatever circumstance to self-deliver. This is their own personal right and choice. The people from exit international or final exit are only giving legal and legitimate information to help people carry this out. They should not be condemned for this. The other point is that someone can attempt self-deliverance, as we know most people fail initially because they have nnot got the correct information and can cause severe damage in a failed attempt. Surely better information would only help this problem. Suicide is a long established method […]

I’m new at this… And this is my first post, so I don’t really know if I’m doing all this right, but I’ll tell my story anyway.

I’m a middle child, with 2 siblings on either end. I don’t get that much attention, and I feel like no one understands me. No one knows this side of me, it’s a completely different side than how I act in public.

I guess that most of my suicidal thoughts and feelings came from my 3rd relationship. I was in love with him, and he raped me the second day that we were dating. I was 13 and he was […]