i constantly find my self hating everyone around me. i pick everything apart until there is no body i like, and i turn myself into a very bitter person. but do i just hate them because they have somthing i dont have? do i just have such a gelous personality that if someone is better/more liked/prettier than me i hate them to pieces. i am a monster. oh my god!

at the moment 2 f my best friends barely talk to me because there so pre-occupied with this other girl they’ve both decided they love all of a sudden… she had no friends last year, and […]

Im just going to make it quick, i’ve been going through so much stuff for so long now, i do want to kill myself and all that i know how everyone feels so guess what im here! Theres so much of 9 years of stuff in my life that i’ve been through and it hasn’t stopped and till this very hour still hasn’t!

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This might take a while, but it’s a lot I have to deal with (though I know it’s not as much as some people).

I’m a sophomore in high school, wondering if I should kill myself. I’ve tried before, but every time I failed, sometimes because I couldn’t do it fast enough before someone came in and stopped me.

I know I have so much going for me, but all of it is also the reason I want to die sometimes. I’m on the swim team, one of three things that I truly love. But sometimes everything else makes it too hard for me to even function […]

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ’til the moment I’m gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be. But you’re on to me and all over me.

You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.

I liked the idea the boy in the UK had. Doing it with someone else. I am in the USA. Someone email me if you are intrested! davidkdesigns@live.com

Bad people don’t deserve to live. People who hurt others with no thought to the consequences don’t deserve to be happy. People who selfishly use others for their own personal gain are monsters. Hence my downward spiral into depression. But I’m too big of a ***** to ever really kill myself. Fucking pathetic.

 

I have decided after a lot of thought that my time on this Earth is over, I am not in trouble or a manic depressive just someone who has made this decision through conscious thought. I know people will find this hard to understand and it will hurt a lot of my family and friends, but i am my own man and know what is best for me. I dont think of life or future or past no more, My decision to die was not agonising it was more comforting than a lot of people could understand i just want to go to sleep. I have heard […]

Don’t even deny it. You could fear the pain, if it fails and you have more pain then before. Maybe you fear the afterlife? No afterlife? It’s a reason most people keep going. Everyday I think about an escape from school, from grades, from drugs, from my family. But then, I still feel that i’d miss so much. I’m 15, and I don’t feel like I can wait until i’m 18 to get out of this. It’s so confusing. I’ve tried to kill myself before and dealt with self injury since I was 12. I never realized how much of an affect it had on […]

Everyday is different for me, one day I’m okay, the next I can’t imagine living another day. I’ve thought about this for quite some time, years now actually and found that what I lack is hope. I crave some sort of love and intimacy in my life, at times I have it and sometimes, like recently, I get my heart stepped on.

I didn’t understand how worthless I must be to deserve it, or be subjected to this ‘situation’  by her I guess. I didn’t see a way to recover from the pain, or even a another prospective girl to take her place. Without hope, my […]

I was staring into the old mirror, the one that was hidden under dust and cobwebs in our attic, when the hallucination happened.

I used to go up into that attic every single day to play with all the old stuff up there my parents kept, and I loved watching myself in that mirror.

The little girl seemed to appear out of thin air in the mirror but for some reason I didn’t panic. I didn’t even gasp, I just kept staring into the mirror like nothing had change.

“You can’t keep lying to yourself, Violet”.

I almost cracked a smile, “Me, lie to myself, never”.

The little girl mimicked me, “since when did you […]

ONLY READ THE FOLLOWING IF YOU ARE OPEN MINDED, FUCK OFF RELIGIOUS SCUM.

It doesn’t matter anymore, nothing in this world matters, I see what this world for what it really is, in which it utterly disgusts me to the highest degree, everyone in this planet are sheep, they follow the norm and do what they are told, and none of you will realize it, and the majority of you will oppose what I say because it doesn’t suit your pathetic lives, believe me when I say this. This World is shit, this Universe is shit, I’m fucking tired of how everything is controlled, how everything […]

Hello,

I’m not sure if anybody rembers me or not becouse I only posted a few posts and I don’t log on varry often.

Regardless of the fact,I know that this world is better off with out me but,before my time comes I want to tell me story.I know that their might be people on this site who won’t read my life’s story but to me that dosen’t matter just as long as I have sombody to respond.It could be a “hello” or a “hi” I just want to have at least one friend in this world and I’m sick of always being alone.The outher day I […]

Hello my name is hannah. I had a bf and we dated for 2 in half months. Idk what to do. 3 weeks ago he broke up with me. I had no idea why. I sat in bed wondering WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG. That night i tried to die. But no i did not. I took a razor to my wrist more then i ever have before. And then to make it worst i found out he cheated on me with my best friend. And they made out while i was in the same house 🙁 then while right next to me […]

About a month ago I lost my scholarship. With it I lost my future career as well and the respect of my family. All my friends have moved off and barely talk to me anymore. Each day i can barely drag myself out of bed and try not to think of all the possible ways to off myself. I know it would hurt my family and everyone who cares about me. But I just can’t take the looks of disdain anymore. Or knowing that I’ve failed them. I just don’t see anymore hope for me. Not when I’m going to be kicked out in less than a […]

I have access to over 4000 units of insulin. I’ve heard horror stories of people ODing on it and then being revived and brain damaged. I don’t want to be a vegetable, drooling and incontinent, a burden on my family.

I just want to be gone.

Can anyone tell me whether they’ve known anyone that has successfully killed themselves by ODing on insulin?

The pleasures derived from our five senses (eye, ear, mouth, nose, and touch) are apparently known.
But 2 senses are always co-related and found culprited with.

Sex and Food.

The lacking in one’s certain expectations may drive one to emphasize attention on food or sex.
That’s the most tempting desires one would focus on.
One may eat nothing at all or consume a lot.
Or disgusted of sex or thinking uncontrollably full of lust.

As human, being material, these two undeniable material desires are contributing great influence to the body and to also the soul.
Of these animal characteristics that we can’t live without, are in order for […]

Hi all,

I do have to say it is really helpful to see the other entries on this site, thanks everyone. I guess we need to remember that many people are struggling with their lives and have their own challenges.

I have a variety of problems which contribute to my feelings of anxiety and depression.

My big problem at the moment is my job. Its causing me a great amount of anxiety. I have been working as a litigation lawyer for 3 years since graduating and I am finding it really high pressure. I work 60 hours a week, and my workload just keeps growing, […]

Life, my God is it difficult. People always bash down my religion, and though I try to stick with what I believe, it’s getting harder by the day. My Confirmation is in mid-March, I need to believe in the Catholic faith for me to feel like I really deserve Him in my life. I don’t believe that I will ever think or feel that. Not with the way that things are going.

Someone told me that I can blame God for everything bad that happens in my life. But why would I do that, how could I do that, knowing that the only one who causes […]

Three days of binge drinking behind me and a six hour car journey ahead. I had that feeling in my stomach. The one that became so familiar to me during my months of partying hard on a nightly basis in Australia. The pains would cripple me for days. As we set off on the six hour journey I tried hard to suppress the acidy feeling and succeeded to a degree, but then another feeling returned like an old nemesis. I soon felt like the mains to my brain had been cut. There was no fresh thought going in and I knew there’d be very little […]