I dont cry. I really dont. I didnt cry when my cousin spread rumors about me, when the girls would push me down stairs and the boys would slam me against lockers, when someone who i thought was a friend back stabbed me, when someone who used to be my friend literally spit in my face, when nobody cared. I only cry for 2 things: the death of a loved one and romantic/sad movies(yeah i know dumb reason to cry but hey im human). I used to cry myself to sleep every night when i was younger but i promised myself never again. I refused […]
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3 Years
I posted something the other day, but it really didn’t explain my ‘history’ as people are calling it.
Hey. I’m Adrienne. People call me Addie. I’m almost 18. I have a great family (except my dad). I put a shitload of pressure on myself. I have been cutting myself for about 6 years. It got pretty hard-core during the last 3 years. I don’t do it to feel alive, per se; I do it to punish myself for anything I can think of, or if I just feel depressed. I have attempted suicide twice, both times failing (obviously). I have been seriously considering doing it again, […]
I’ve just tried to commit suicide 4 times in 2 and a half weeks, I’ve manged to put this off for a year and a half now but also i self harm i have for 3 years, my boyfriend knows and has made me promise that i wont do it again but i feel so dead inside i want too, I need to tell someone about this but i feel my family wont support me and my boyfriend has to much to deal with at the moment, i don’t feel i can tell my other friends as another one has wanted to, she also self harmed so […]
Nothing left to live for… once chance at giving them a nice life…
by codeslinger
written by codeslinger
I have been addicted to drugs for half of my 30 years on this earth…. I thought if I got married and had some children that it would fill the hole in my heart.  I was able to stop using for a little while, but the desire to get high never goes away. I started using again and eventually my wife took my kids and filled a PFA to keep me away from them. I have never hurt her or the kids, but now I am looked at like a wife-beat. I despise those people who hit women, and that’s what hurts the most…
I do not want my kids to look at their junkie dad […]
I can’t do this anymore. I just…..can’t.
I met the love of my life close to 5 years ago. Huge age difference….she just turned 18. At first I knew it wouldn’t work, but then out of nowhere I got her pregnant. So…we both decided that it was best to go forward and see how things went. I moved her up here from Florida and we settled in. Our daughter was born just over a year after we had gotten together. Things were……terrific. We were told by so many people that we were the perfect couple. We couldn’t get over each other. We had to be around […]
i found this website today and made an account and so here i am telling you my story not quite sure why im doing this?
im 15 years old and have depression for around 2 years now
my parents got divorced when i was 3 years old,i have no contact with my dad he sees me twice a year and never shows up for christmas or my birthday and always leaves me crying after he says he will!
my mum tries her hardest with me but never understand,she never shown any interest in my life or how im doing,never has my dad or mum said […]
So I’ve been suffering from depression for a little over 3 years now. My Girlfriend of two years broke up with me well over a year ago. Sob story blah blah. When that happened I threatened suicide, cops, recovery ward for a week. A couple months later, police again, suicide ward. That was over a year ago. Today, and I am not shitting you I decided my life was finally just about turned around. This of course was a slow moving process. Very… Slow. Guess what happens a few hours ago? She texts me! I’m finally about over this and she texts me! After a […]
For those who might care.I’m finaly done installing myself into what is gonna be my new home for at least 3 years(unless I off myself).I am now all alone in the city of Sudbury in Ontario.The isolation is crushing.I wandered this new house for about an hour because I had no idea how I should pass my time.This week of bliss where I was to busy to think is done and I’m struggling to occupy my mind.
In about a week my college studies are gonna start.I wonder if everyone is gonna be shit like where I lived or if I’m actualy going to meet some […]
I’ve been a heroin addict for about 3 years, I’ve OD’d twice and lost my job, partner, family and non-using friends in the process. I’m a gay man, which I guess doubles my risk of AIDS. I’m 29, and I can’t start over now. My life is done, death is in the fucking post. I’m so sick of people staring at my needle tracks like I’m some fucking lepper. My boyfriend of 7 years kicked me out, and I don’t blame him. Before heroin, I was a serious alcoholic. Like 3 litres of vodka a day. I’d be drinking at 9am, and it wouldn’t be […]
I am going to die- something I always think about yet never do. There’s no one to talk to, no one to rant to, no one that truly understands me… Not that anyone needs to- if you’re going to care, don’t leave me. a majority of people I told eventually left me- why? Was i too crazy for you? Didn’t you understand me? You didn’t want to associate with a suicidal, depressed, freak? Is that it? It is absolutely the worst feeling in the world. i can’t connect with many people- you can’t just TRY to relate something to me -or even LYING – just […]
Im that girl thats not perfect..
I act happy and smile,and help people with their problems..but not with my own.I use to tell others how I felt..everyone knew what was on my mind..If i was sad everyone would know,if i was happy as well.And everyone knew what was going on with me and my family..I use to be like that when I moved to my new school.Everyone was kind and I had problems..I didnt do it for attention..I did it for help..
Nowadays I keep it stored inside.If someone asks me how im doing ill say okay,or fine.But thats far from the truth..
Ive tried to kill myself […]
My cousin did it. When he was eighteen, about a week before my fifteenth birthday. Eighteen years old. He had almost graduated high school. He was the greatest person in the entire world to me–my hero, my idol, my best friend. When he took himself away from us, I could not get it through my head. Why would he do this to us? Why would he deprive the world of his existence and leave the rest of us here to pick up the pieces? I simply could not understand.
Now that I am eighteen, I understand perfectly. He viewed the world the exact same way I […]
Hi i’m Dylan,I’ve been cutting and buring myself for 3 years and my family beatsme. I came on this site to find people who have the same problems and talk….. I’m not always on here but if they let me you guys that want to talk to me if you have a phone text me at 1-760-508-4060….
As someone who’s survived 3 serious attempts I wish to say that I have no intention of making it through number four. I’ve finally arrived at the conclusion that I’m statistically supposed to be dead by now and it’s not something which makes me feel better. I’ve seen so much pain on my short tour here on Earth. Humanity does little to stoke my optimism, in fact it does the opposite. I’m a vet, I’m mentally unstable, I’m single, I’m unemployed for the fourth year running and I’m almost homeless (I already was for 3 years.) A close friend who I met while being homeless committed suicide via alcohol and prescription […]
I thought I’d never have to come back here. I thought I was doing fine. I used to severely scratch my skin (around my shoulders and chest so no one could see) to take some extremely negative thoughts out on myself. I had stopped for about 4 days now. Then… today happened.
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Here’s a little back-story;
About 3 years ago, my ex cheated on her boyfriend of 2 years with her friend, they obviously broke up. Then me and her dated for about 2 weeks last year, but she left me to get back together with her ex, but he didn’t want her. She then […]
Before I tell my story I’d like to say a few things. I am not looking for pity or attention. I deserve neither of those. I don’t need anyone to tell me that what I say about myself isn’t true and I’m being to hard on myself. I only wish to get my story out here so that anyone who feels the same way will know that they are not alone.
I’m going to start off with a little background about my family and myself. My mother’s mother was a bi-polar depressive and an alcoholic. Her parents divorced and re-married several times when she was […]
What the hell is wrong with me? Am I an unlikable person? *sigh* I try you know I try to be friendly but why is it that in whatever I do Im just ignored. Im currently in art school and I try. try hard and I am decent at what I do yet I get no attention in any thing its like Im invisible and it just makes me hate everyone at school.school I HATE that too I enjoy the learning yes BUT I HATE THE PEOPLE THERE …I just hate people in general ? I didnt use to be like this I wasnt so […]
Its been almost 2 months since my dad agreed to stay out of our lives. Ive hated every minute of it, Ive sent him messages, texts, basically anything to get him to contact. After our last arguement a few weeks ago, he said fine..I mean he didnt even fight to see me..He spent ten years away, in prison. Now its been almost 3 years since hes been out..Ive only seen him almost 2 years out of that. My mom keeps saying instead of being so rude to him, which I will admit im doing now because he wont respond at all, try asking if he`ll […]
Life was always hard on me, from the day I was born.. with an alcohlic father who had abandoned me and my mother when I was 2 and a mother who’s hobby is to blame me for everything and yell at me.. Really no one to care for me at this age. I was always alone and I tried my best to always get out of the house as much as I could because why would I stay there..
When I got older and there had been more yelling towards me, neglect, and beatings.. I even remember one time when i was in grade 2 and […]
Idk what to do… 3 years back, i met a guy and started dating him… he changed.. totally.. he misbehaves wid me soo much.. i am sick.. my grades are falling. ma dreams r breking plss help me find a effective and painless way to die