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I’m axious about life in general. Not in a bad way so much as, I never in a million years thought I would live this long! I grew up thinking I’d be dead by 20. I had a kid that I gave up in a private adoption at that point. Tomorrow is her 17th burthday. One more year and it’s legal to have contact, that is, if we find each other. I never thought I’d be alive when she turns 18. Which means I have to survive another year. I can’t believe I’m still alive on this day to see her 17th birthday arrive. She […]
im really hurting today. i know my health issue doesnt have to be permanent, and that when i save up money, or get the right doctor, i can be fixed. except im poor and live in a small city. i am very educated, but work in a poor job. im 30. im tired.
last blood moon till 2033.
It should end in the next 30 minutes. Enjoy!
I hate myself I can’t take being alone it’s sad…really! I work out but I can’t get abs I’m nice to people but they treat me like shit I treat the women I’m with like gold but they treat me like dirt I can’t talk to women I buy affection from strippers in the form of $30 topless dances. I have bad social anxiety I say stupid shit that’s meant to be funny and when nobody laughs I double down and run my mouth… […]
Im a couple months away from being 30 and i have felt like dying every single day since I was 12 years old. I remember the exact day i realized i didnt want to live. I have friends, i date, i have things im passionate about, a good job. Nothing traumatic happened to me in my youth. I just dont have whatever biological imperative that makes people want to live. My closest friends and mother know about it. My mom is the reason i havent, ive begged her to let me go. I dont want to transfer my pain to her, i want her to […]
Its been a while since i posted. Im still around but i hardly feel as though i am. It wasnt really an attempt to kill myself but for a moment to feel as though i disappeared..and i took a 30 day supply of sereoquel. It was an odd sensation. Body becoming heavy breathing slowing down mind in a different plane, a different high for sure.
Ive been prescribed a higher dosage this time round like 100x the strength actually. With only a week or two’s dent in a month’s supply. Im wondering what kind of high it would give me now. If I’d find […]
I was wondering if anyone else here is older like me. I am well over 50. Seems everyone is 30 and under here. Just curious.
I’m so frustrated with how tired I get. I want to sleep all day, every day.
And I’m so annoyed that when I FINALLY get up the urge to clean my room, do my work, etc. my parents give me so much crap.
It’s like them giving me crap about my room isn’t enough. They have to give me crap about when and how I clean it.
It makes me soo angry!!
And then when I tell them how annoyed I am. They’re just like, “Well it only takes 5 minutes to clean up your room. I don’t see […]
The age before life starts to get worse, you leave your prime and descent begins. Cavemans only lived to their 30’s, this was the most natural and primitive human lifestyle back when every human was robust and healthy, nobody had suicidal thoughts or modern problems. In contrast, really weak but advanced people like Romantic poets (john keats) died in their 20’s-30’s. The only time people lived to 60+ was when they were healthy but lived in farms or villages. Only recently EVERYONE even unhealthy/mentally ill/pessimistic people can expect to live to 80’s-90’s and It’s because of the medicines we discovered. Life today is more artificial, […]
This feel like giving up I am in my late 30’s no wife or kid’s no career . I gave up on love then I fond the girl of my dreams every thing I always wanted . It was like finding a female me . Tells me she never going anywhere and were going to have a life together then she dumps me because of a mistake form past and a dream that I would hurt her. Tells me she had to many issues to be in a relationship . Then only to find out she started dating a buddy . That put me in […]
I came across this site and when I tried to register it said I was already registered. I didn’t realize I had posted here almost 3 years ago. I decided to try and live. But today, I still feel precisely the same as I did then. There have been massive, positive changes in my life and my lifestyle, but none of it has even made a chip in the depression I’ve felt since I was a child.
Now I’m 3 years closer to that expiration date I’d given myself: if things don’t improve by the time I’m 30, I’ll know that I’ve run my course. I […]
new to site I thought I’d tell my story. I first took psch meds at age 16 after becoming depressed for no reason. within an hour of being put on one med I felt something tear in my head. for the next 30 years I dealt with these sensations progressively getting worse but I tried to have a life anyway and used alcohol to numb the sensations and cope with the anxiety it caused. basically I became a highly functional alcoholic and had a good career, a wife and kids. four years ago the brain tearing apart sensations got much worse and I have pretty […]
I just got out of the hospital about a day ago and I find myself here at about 2:15 am sitting in the living room in a some what odd position in quite a significant amount of pain. 6 days ago, after having a rather unproductive and uneventful day, I ended up getting into an argument with my 17 and a half year old son over the fact that I hI have been sober for 3 years and about 5 months or so however back in February when I was tired of being accused of drinking when I wasn’t and being accused of being […]
28 days left
I found someone one a dating site last night who had many similar interests. We talked all night and then some today. I felt happy for the first time in a while. She started flirting with me and I honestly couldn’t believe it. We agreed to meet up next week to go hiking. Of course my fucked up mind instantly fell in love which never ends well. Turns out she likes some other person. Not sure why she’s on a dating site if she isn’t looking for someone. Maybe she just lied about liking someone after seeing my picture. Can’t blame her, I’m […]
I’m 31 years old, no kids, been engaged twice which failed. I’ve been cheated on, lied to, and the last girl I dated decided she rather go back to being a lesbian. So usually I just hide behind Apathy and drugs. I only have a high school education, because I lack effort to do anything more. I’ve always been more of a workhorse.
Anyway…
It’s pretty awesome starting off your week after Memorial Day by losing your car. Apparently the car place felt as if they couldn’t wait till this Friday to let me make a payment, and didn’t tell me they would wait.. so they towed […]
She don’t even remember yo birthday!!That person that used to be crying In the restroom cutting himself 30+ cuts,thats the old you.That person that tried to kill himself two times Is the old you.Now,now she don’t even remember yo birthday.People come & go but success stays with you as long as your willing to do your part.Work hard so that no one & I mean no one can take that away from you!!Its only the beginning of your young life & were all happy that you stuck around to experience It.
I’ve been struggling with depression, anxiety and dermatillomania ever since I was a little girl. I’ve been taking zoloft for a couple of weeks and I wish that I could take all 30 of them. I doubt it’ll do anything to me though.
I am 30 female. I having hypertension because of too much stress… always want to cry I need love from my husband but he is changed now before marriage he is totally different he care for me never wants to me to cry but he is the reason for my stress. he didnt like my parents I am living in Australia. he wants that his parents live with us I have no problem but nowdays I need my mother I have small baby but he said that he never wants to my mother come there what should I doand he never wants that I goto […]
Today has been… well, a day, I guess for lack of a better word. Still struggling to get things figured out.
I’ve made two attempts this year, life is just getting to be too much for me.
It seems like an endless cycle, bouncing from shit job to shit job, never progressing anywhere in life. I’m pushing 30 and I’ve never been in anything resembling a stable relationships, just a long list of failed attempts and missed opportunities. Plenty of people that “Just want to be friends” though. Friends who never call or ask how I am, and who probably wouldn’t notice if I offed myself. Or […]