I just noticed something about myself. I twitch my fingers when I’m annoyed/angry. Am I the only one that has such a weird tick? Also, I know I would be an awesome serial killer with a weapon glove. Joking aside, I almost strangled my grandfather today but I managed to hold myself back since there are too many witnesses… My continued existence is also why I’m not religious.
You never forget that smell, no matter how long you go with or without it, it’s always there in your memory banks. Waking up that dark Friday morning in a hotel room just down the road from the Sky Tower, I looked across to see her cuddled up against me — our bare bodies covered only by a single sheet as the heat from the night before kept us snug and warm. But the smell of sweet, sweet love just so happened to pierce my nose, and with it came an epiphany of sorts. Could my future really lie within denouncing the one value I’ve […]
I’ve tried to say more, I’ve WANTED to, but I don’t know what a plastic person can offer that isn’t plastic.
I have a job, a home, health, food, shelter, the necessities. My coworkers like me, my family cares about me, my friends mean the world to me. Somehow it makes me feel even worse about myself, more of an ingrate, more worthless, more hopeless.
–I would make a lousy stalker.
–I can still play french horn reasonably well, even when I have a cold that completely plugs up my ears and sinuses.
–When ears and sinuses are completely blocked, granola bars taste like compressed sawdust.
— Coke Zero feels nice on a sore throat, but only for about 2 minutes.
–Amitryptaline does nothing to make me drowsy, despite that supposedly being one of the major side effects.
–When I have a cold bad enough to make granola bars taste like sawdust, I have an urge to watch old episodes of Rocky & Bullwinkle.
— I feel guilty when I cause other people stress and grief. […]
I read the rules. I know I’m posting too much, or too often. I’ll probably get banned soon. Anyways, I just had an hour long conversation. With myself, using my voice, a Hispanic accent, and a possibly Swedish? Accent. Probably the best conversation I had this month. I’m so fucking lonely.
I know I’m just attention whoring. As my spouse puts it. Because I’m all about me. So there I said it. I care more about myself than I do about anyone else. I hate myself and want to die, so what good can I do anyone else.
Yet another Christmas my family just wants me to stay in my room which normally i don’t mind but seeing everyone so happy with their family or significant other kills me i wonder why can’t i have that why was i born into such a cruel family why so many questions but the good part is this year i have money and its like 70 here for the first time so i can drive the work truck around (it doesn’t have heat so usually I wouldn’t drive it in the winter) I’ll probably just leave to go to the park or something maybe i don’t […]
I hate that I am overweight and that especially lately I comfort eat a hell of a lot. I hate my appearance -the fact I have naturally curly hair is a curse, I wish I had a cuter nose and a generally more feminine looking face, my appearance is top of my list of reasons of why I want to die, I hate the way women are treated in society in general-mainly valued for appearance and that fake beauty is valued more than natural beauty seems a lot of people find a woman’s un made up face unacceptable, I hate how weak I […]
I’ve been depressed since I was 7. I’m tired of always being tired, and sad, and depressed, and feeling shitty about myself, my life, just everything. I’m just a giant black ball of darkness… I’m tired of being tormented, of always being in pain. I wish I was “normal” and had a “normal” life and felt happy good feelings, instead of feeling like I’m dying all the time…
I haven’t posted anything about myself yet.. May be too hopeless, lazy to even type or share!! Hardly any motivation to live..Anyways any suggestions, self help books recommendations which really works??
Because today I felt like self praising myself and I felt really good about myself that I decided to share with you a picture of me.
I’ve asked myself so many times ‘why am I alone’ when I see other men around me in relationships. Well, women know a loser when they see one, and will avoid at all costs, that’s why I remain on my own. I feel I must give off an invisible air of sadness and desperation that repels women as what woman wants a broken and useless man? Try as I might I can’t seem to change how I feel about myself, when anxiety becomes ingrained over time it seems impossible to change it, the dream is over for me, only a lonely future remains and I […]
I’m 21 im a male I can’t get a girlfriend cuz I feel like crap about myself my whole life is sucks and it’s not going to stop I even faked being optimistic to everyone but that just hurts so bad I just want to run away from my life and go somewhere else if what to do
I will get this out of the way now. I have been depressed for about four years now. I have always hated everything about myself, then everything started adding on top of it until my first suicide attempt. I was saved by my boyfriend’s older brother, who called the police when I told him what I had done.
Since then, I have started anti-depressants and started therapy. I still have days that I hate myself and who I am. But I am getting better. It doesn’t help that I am fat, obese, chubby, whatever you want to call it. After a debilitating injury, I gain a […]
Almost to day 3 of no eating. Though I may be shaky and dizzy I’m feeling better and better about myself. I can actually say I’m a little happier
I just want to end it now and don’t know the best way. I want something that would be painless and I’d just fall asleep and never wake up.
Then I think of my daughter. She’s 23 and has a wonderful boyfriend. They are both working on their futures and doing as well as they can. Both working hard towards it.
I don’t want to hurt her more than anyone in my life. But at the same time I just feel worthless and don’t want to be around anymore
I really don’t know what to feel about myself at the moment. I’m not sure how to word this, but I just go ahead anyway. I’ve recently been watching Onision videos since he popped out on my Recommended List.
I checked out his videos on cutting on a whim, and frankly speaking, he’s super blunt. I’m not going to lie, the way he says it all, about how cutting is ‘attention whoring’, and that cutters are ‘stupid, and crazy’ kinda hit me hard. He says that I should be grateful that I have a roof over my head and a good education and all the opportunities […]
That’s a bit of a lie actually, I suppose i can pinpoint where, I just don’t know how…
First off, thank you to those who are reading this craptacular piece of…well crap.
I have read many of the posts on here, and have become completely immersed in other’s stories. Each of you are so important. It’s just a shame I am a spectacular hypocrite. There is no way I could say the same about myself.
I care for others, I seriously do. I care for others so much that I distance myself away. I don’t feel worthy anymore. It is incredibly frustrating and difficult to explain, even in […]
I don’t have any friends.
I don’t have anyone.
I’ve never had a girlfriend.
I’ve never had sex.
I’ve never had a job.
I’ve never kissed.
I never take risks.
I never try doing something.
I hate myself.
I despise myself.
I loathe myself.
Never asked for this.
Never wanted to be brought into this world.
I don’t wanna live.
I don’t wanna suffer.
People can be happy, just not me.
Life is beautiful, just not mine.
Life has a meaning and a purpose, I’ll just never be able to fulfil it.
I care to what people think about me.
I’m an attention whore.
I want to be accepted.
I want to fit in.
I want to be just like everyone else.
I’m a selfish bastard.
I like to compare […]
He was feeling sad today cause of a family problem, I tried my best to make him feel better, I tried to let him know that I was feeling worried about my life too, college and stuff. And I was just starting to tell him, when he started to talk about his problem and I completely forgot about myself, so I can focused on him and try to make him feel better and not sad. And tried and tried my best, and he never let me in, he tells me “I love you” and I take it, but it feels like a lie, why. He […]
Please, please read if you’re considering suicide:
I have bipolar disorder and I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times. Every single one was a nightmare. I’m totally with you and understand you when you say you feel hopeless, lost, worthless or in pain. My depression is with me frequently and I often wish it would end.
The fact of the matter is that it will be with me, in some degree, for the rest of my life. And I’m ok with that. Because despite the difficulty and the occasional emotional torture, I know – I know – that life offers happiness too.
Relief does come, it will come, […]
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