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I stand Alone

by Scarlett Dawn 8/24/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

I stand alone
A group of laughing people to my right
I stand alone
The rushing cars passing me to my left
I stand alone
The cold chill of the winter breeze blowing through my hair
I stand alone
In visioning myself some place else
I stand alone
As the dark clouds begin to loom lower
I stand alone
As the moon begins to rise in the night sky
I stand alone
Until it’s time to go back home

I sleep alone
Dreading the next day of which I’ll once again stand alone
A cycle that will never end

8/24/2014 12 comments

Robbed blind. I’m so stupid.

by cagedtiger 8/24/2014

written by cagedtiger

A scamming thief conned me out of $28000 in loans which have never been paid back and now I’m so broke, I can’t even pay for utilities or food. Then last week he even went and robbed my house of every single item of value, plus many, many items that are so sentimental and irreplaceable. This on top of the fact that I was barely surviving to begin with. He took away whatever fight that I had left to live. I’m done. I’m so stupid. He played on my sense of empathy and compassion and used, lied and scammed me until there was nothing left […]

8/24/2014 12 comments

I’m going to get straight to the point here. I’m 15 years old and used to live with my dad up until april when he took his own life. I feel absolutely lost and feel I have no purpose in life anymore. I’d do anything to have my dad back. I miss him so much! :(

by char99 8/24/2014

written by char99

8/24/2014 9 comments

not even sure

by Namelessqueer 8/24/2014

written by Namelessqueer

today was a mix of things. I am a little drunk. I had a bunch of mimosas with a coworker. delicious. Today was meant to be a busy but powerful and productive day.

I went to my old apartment where I paid my rent till the end of the month to discover that my ex roommates went into my room and “cleaned up.” They threw away different pieces of cardboard and plastic bags that I had left there. I went back to clean up and pick up some things I’d left today. I was shocked especially because some of the materials I left there, I left […]

8/24/2014 1 comment

Away…

by coconut-scent 8/23/2014

written by coconut-scent

The past few months have been really hard, with the experiences of my past and the relationships I have with my family now, I feel like I can’t go on with all of this rubbish.

I see a therapist to help me try to get back on track with my life and I take anti-depressants, but I feel like my reactions and emotions with what has happened is permanently seared into my heart and soul. Whenever I wake up and I get that painful stab in my chest, you the feeling of your heart literally breaking. I cry almost everyday, longest I have gone without crying […]

8/23/2014 1 comment

Golden Gate Bridge

by Pdog 8/22/2014

written by Pdog

Yesterday I was arrested on the GG bridge for a suicide attempt. I was there. I had it. The motivation was there. My leg started to climb up over the railing. Then I saw the police coming. Now this was REALLY it. I could either just use my other leg and take the leap, or go back the other way and let the cops take me into custody. Unfortunately, I’m still here which means I succumbed to the arms of two policeman.

To those who haven’t seen it, the view is incredible. Such a serene feeling knowing that you could take your life right then and […]

8/22/2014 8 comments

Awfully supportive!

by downinflames 8/22/2014

written by downinflames

Yesterday I made a post with an honest question asking your opinion about a method I’ve concocted (or so I believe) and comparing it with another method more… classic, lets say. No answer in my mail. So I come back today to the site and find that my post has been deleted. No explanation, no comment. Just puff, vanished. Hey pals, thanks! What a wonderful community. You gave a me a new reason to put in the bag full of them I already have!

8/22/2014 5 comments

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by nosound 8/22/2014

written by nosound

I started cutting a little bit back in March. I had never done it before then. I was panicking, crying and really upset and angry with my family. I didn’t know how to calm myself down and then i just picked up a pin and started poking at my wrists. Eventually I bled a little bit and it freaked me out. I did this twice in the spring. Then I was doing better but tonight I got really upset again and jealous of my younger sister. I got really mad and felt really helpless. I didn’t know how to handle myself again and grabbed the […]

8/22/2014 1 comment

Please forgive me, I’m in a mood…

by nozmoking 8/21/2014

written by nozmoking

A guy died and went to Hell. After his “intake” was over, he was escorted down a long, hot corridor and lead into a huge cavern. What he saw astonished him – thousands of people standing waist deep in warm, steaming human waste. Many of them strangely were enjoying a cup of coffee or other refreshments.

“Is this it?” he questioned.

“Yep, this is it.” replied the escort. “Your place is over at the end of the third row.”

Wading through the muck after a brief stop at a Coke machine that didn’t require money he took his place, opened his soft drink and quipped to a woman […]

8/21/2014 4 comments

by Kallian 8/21/2014

written by Kallian

Well, I’m back

8/21/2014 6 comments

is superhero real exist ? are superheroes real exist ? is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ? fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

by niki 8/21/2014

written by niki

is superhero real exist ?
are superheroes real exist ?
is superpower or magic real exist ? (like in those cool movies, games, comics, novels, books, anime / manga, etc) ?
you know, like in those ‘cool’ superhero movies : X-Men (X Men), Superman, Thor, Spiderman, Iron man, Captain America, or in those ‘cool’ fantasy / sci-fi (sci fi, science fiction) movies : Harry Potter, Narnia, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, TRON, or games like Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, etc etc ..

otherwise, fuck this boring reality / real world / real life !!

I hate reality, I hate life , I hate this very *LIMITED* & […]

8/21/2014 5 comments

Falling from the Nest

by hopeisontheway 8/20/2014

written by hopeisontheway

Do you every feel like a baby bird?

A baby bird is helpless when it first hatches.

They do not know how to fly, and they do not know how to survive without their mothers.

There’s always that one baby bird that gets everything right.

It doesn’t plummet to its death when it tries to fly; it soars, and it is able to go on with its life independently.

And then there’s you.

You’re the one that can’t get up.

You’re the one that gets left behind when the rest of your siblings go out for something useful.

You’re the one left to freeze to death as the rest fly to hibernation.

You can’t […]

8/20/2014 0 comment

Loss

by hogpotter 8/20/2014

written by hogpotter

Today I have a loss again. Someone who I thought I loved and loved me back. Someone who I sacrificed for once upon a time. Someone who I fought for once upon a time. Someone who once upon a time gave me a reason to hold on. Someone who once made me feel warm. Someone for whose sake I picked up the pieces even though I was broken and left dead once.

But I don’t need anyone who doesn’t appreciate me, right? They don’t deserve me. And I myself don’t deserve to keep struggling stupidly for someone who doesn’t appreciate my efforts.

From now onwards I will […]

8/20/2014 2 comments

running away..

by katiebear12 8/20/2014

written by katiebear12

That’s almost what I did today. I barely stopped myself. I was just overwhelmed. My mom yelled at me, my brother treated me badly, I’ve been depressed for weeks now (constantly). I’ve lost almost all my friends. I’m being forced to face my day (by my mother) when I can’t even get up.

And I face the monster in front of me everyday: my past.

Many tell me: what you did meant nothing. It’s the past. My pain meant nothing? The fact I gave away something I can’t get back is nothing? It being in the past doesn’t change anything.

So today I’m running. Away from everything. I’m […]

8/20/2014 1 comment

I can’t wait for the apocalypse

by Engie 8/19/2014

written by Engie

I can’t wait for the apocalypse. Maybe it will be Ebola, or Russia vs. The West or North Korea will finally build its first working ICBM. Maybe all of these will happen at the same time.

Then all I need is enough sertraline to make sure I still feel nothing while I sit back and watch the world burn.

8/19/2014 18 comments

Feel As If I Can’t Do This Anymore

by LostInPain 8/19/2014

written by LostInPain

I am so very lonely..and tired. I lost the love of my life seven years ago….we had been married for nine years. He died suddenly of a heart attack and I was the one who found him dead. I can’t explain how much I loved this man and how him dying at 39 yrs old almost killed me too. I had been disabled a few years before he died, I have spinal and brain tumors, and the surgeries not only disabled me, but caused me so much pain in the aftermath, that I lost my job as a trauma nurse because […]

8/19/2014 4 comments

MY REASON FOR LEAVING

by heliumhood 8/19/2014

written by heliumhood

Ihave been asked by a number of people why I am making my exit.

heres why, and the names have been changed

My partner and I met in Mid 1999 and lived on a small cul de sac in a small northern UK from June 99 to November 2011.
This accusation came to light in June 2013.
We became friends with a family where we used to live. Mum (Angela) Father (Peter) Son (Robert 9 yrs old) along with an older brother (Michael) and younger one (Elliot) in 2006

Damien (my partner) and I have always preferred to keep our own counsel, and whilst we were on […]

8/19/2014 6 comments

practise will make it perfect.

by heliumhood 8/19/2014

written by heliumhood

had my 1st practise with my home made hood today and it worked perfectly. I begin back at work next week as a self employed driver, and my last few weeks will be so that I can leave my partner enough money to clear some last bills, and pay for a cremation, and with the exception of rehoming my 2 dogs, all is fine for my departure. I have decided to make my exit away from the home we share, as I would not like my other half to find me.

the weird thing is I feel perfectly calm, less depressed and a lot less exhausted […]

8/19/2014 3 comments

How much have I changed

by Namelessqueer 8/19/2014

written by Namelessqueer

I was watching a video I made when I was 12 years old. I had similar feelings to the ones I feels now; “if my friend doesn’t want to make time to come to visit me and i’m doing all the work in visiting them, they’re aren’t my friend”

It kinda shocked me because I didn’t realized how deep and how far back these feelings go. Who knew.

Anyway, I moved to a new place recently, and though it lightens the load, I still feel heavy. Hopefully the excitement of change will distract me for a good time before I spiral again.

8/19/2014 3 comments

in december I wont be here

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/19/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

I will kill myself in december when I wont get admission in my favourite college to pursue my passion. I have some months in hand. I will ..be so sad then I might fall back again into depression. I mean right now things are okay so u see im alive still after two attempts. But then people will have a reason to see why I died. If I died now people will call me a fool. Im useless I wont pass the examination so there comes no question of admission. Waiting for that precious day.. when I will rent a hotel and there I will […]

8/19/2014 4 comments

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