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Why I hate the USA

by aspie 3/22/2016

written by aspie

Hate is a powerful word

People often think that I know nothing about history when I say anything (anything) negative or cynical about America.

My ancestors came over on a casket ship during the Irish potato famine and lived in America for many generations.

Many members of my family served/serving honorably in service there’s officers and purple hearts in my bloodline and if they saw me typing this they will beat me and clam it was in self defense and the judge will believe them because they work for government and I’m “special” and the only […]

3/22/2016 6 comments

Here’s my story.

by Sui the Bunny 3/22/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

My story starts from the age of 4 where I was physically abused by one my caregivers right until they left. The age of 5 I was sent to a horrible school bullied from day 1 not only was I bullied from the students I was bullied by some of the teachers. Being name called, pushed, punched, objects thrown at me wasn’t exactly a fun time. I ended up only going to that school for a year. I was transferred to another school with a horrible principal, some horrible teachers, kids with a lot of problems/issue (some of those kids taking out their problems on […]

3/22/2016 3 comments

What do you believe ?

by Drowning 3/18/2016

written by Drowning

I want to know what everyone’s beliefs are I think it’s a good topic and will keep us busy for a wile

I’m not here to push anything on anyone and I want us all to agree to disagree

do you believe in God or the Big Bang started it all ?

What do u think happens when we die ?

do u think we get reincarnated ?

Why are we here ?

3/18/2016 38 comments

I can never win

by Hampshire_Girl 3/15/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

I never stood a chance. I think of his depression as ‘the other woman’. She had the prior claim and has the stronger hold over him. She makes him ignore me and treat me like shit. I no longer know how to reach him. He said he loved me once, now I’m lucky if he can even bear to look at me. I am rejected and broken. It’s been this way for nearly two years. I thought I was winning, I thought he was mine.

He’s not mine, he never was. She got there first and will never go away. I hate her. But I’ll […]

3/15/2016 6 comments

It’s All Real

by JiminyCrispies 3/11/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

The Early Intervention team called my therapist to say they’re not bothering with me again. She said they told her I’m not psychotic. I could’ve told her that.

If it were psychosis then this wouldn’t be real. The voices wouldn’t be real, the Angels wouldn’t be real, the others wouldn’t be real, the demons and shadow people wouldn’t be real. But they are real.

They said it might just be down to my depression and anxiety. Okay. They can say that, but it’s not. They’re just real, and that’s not down to anything.

I see my therapist next Friday now, so I’ll tell her it was a waste […]

3/11/2016 4 comments

here we go..

by Alan Ominous 3/9/2016

written by Alan Ominous

WARNING: THIS IS A VENT / RANT. NOT TRYING TO OFFEND ANYONE, JUST AIRING OUT.

Why are people so fucking pushy? Like their ideals are the only fucking way. Here’s my list of shit…

Homosexual. Hybridsexual, Antisexual, overly-sexual… I do not give 1 single iota of a fuck how, who, or where you bump uglies. Here’s an idea, keep it to yourself. Why does everyone make an issue about how it’s not an issue?

Religion. Anti-religion. Quasi-religion. Again, I don’t fucking care what you do or don’t believe in. Jesus gives your life meaning? Awesome. On a mission for Cthulhu, more power to you. If, I find it […]

3/9/2016 14 comments

Accusations

by JiminyCrispies 2/23/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

My mum is accusing me of making everything up. This isn’t the first time. She used to say this about my depression. Then my anxiety. Then when I first started hearing and seeing things. And now again. I told her weeks ago when she found out about the Angels that I haven’t told anyone because not only do I not know if they’re Others, but I was scared no one would believe me. And now she says this. Apparently it’s too much for her to handle and she wants to walk out on me. It’s getting to the point where I’m starting to almost hate […]

2/23/2016 4 comments

Am i?

by iwant2_die 2/21/2016

written by iwant2_die

Today i realized something. Most people i know think i’m a heartless person. Of course they think this because they do not know what my stepfather did to me. they don’t know what it was to know that you had to give everything up in order to save your brothers and mother. you know what really sucks of that? that those brothers i tried to protect don’t know who i am. They don’t even remember who their big sister is. They just know i’m the girl that “betrayed” their mother. that what mom’s made them believe. And that hurts. But can you really blame me […]

2/21/2016 5 comments

Everyone’s A Bastard:

by GTSuicide_6 2/20/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

– “I’ll kill myself. I’ll kill myself i’ll kill myself i’ll kill mmyself and soon.”
-“I’ll call the police on you
Dont even think about trying.”

———-

Last night I had written to a friend (a used-to-be-friend.), saying I’d kill myself and soon.

Today, I had received the response above:“I’ll call the police on you.”

…Thanks, I appreciate the scare I received that rose up as I had read it.

—

Why did I admit it? It was because of a spark; an anxiety attack that led me fearful and alone to the point of solely being capable of admitting it. It was because I needed someone then. It was at the […]

2/20/2016 11 comments

OMG

by Kaylee_Bush 2/19/2016

written by Kaylee_Bush

Dear Lord in Heaven,*Not that i believe in thee….heheh*

Why am I still up at this hour??????????????????????????? Going on 99 hours awake now, god this does suck.

Kaylee Dee

Is it me or does this whole thing kind of rhyme????

2/19/2016 5 comments

I like drawing.

by iwant2_die 2/19/2016

written by iwant2_die

I know a girl

She draws on

her skin

with blades instead

of pens

It all began when

she was eight.

She wondered why?

Why would he look at her like that?

Why would she let him?

She often thought:

“She loves me”

But deep down

She knew

It was

A lie

She’s never loved her

And never will

The only one that

Truly loves her

Is Mr. Sharp.

He makes her happy.

He helps her forget about THEM.

When her skin

Rips open

And her demons

Come out…

Oh there’s no better

Feeling than that.

But the feeling goes away!

“NO! come back!” she yells.

But not even

Pain wants her.

And that hurts like hell.

People always believe

The “I’ll kill you” stare

And the “go away “routine.

Because nobody

really cares to

see what’s

left inside

To look into her eyes

And see her […]

2/19/2016 3 comments

Meaning

by TheValiant 2/15/2016

written by TheValiant

Funny how it happens. Things happen, new sights, new people, new interactions glimpsed, and something changes and find something new in your own insights or how you viewed something. I want to believe that’s hopeful. Well…Thanks

I can keep pretending we’re one.

2/15/2016 2 comments

Revelations

by TheRoadSoFar 2/12/2016

written by TheRoadSoFar

It’s true that for some people having a dream is wonderful. Pursuing that dream is the “vital support” that gives them the will to continue on, that gives them the strength to keep getting better and better, and with each day that goes on, they get closer to fulfilling it.

But what if you’re just not meant to fulfill that dream?… What if for whatever reason you simply don’t have the motivation to go on? What if something out of nowhere just holds you from fulfilling it?

Call it whatever you want to call it. Luck. Fate. I don’t believe in any of those things, […]

2/12/2016 3 comments

Protected: Update on the hospital situation.

by whiskered-fish 2/5/2016

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

2/5/2016 10 comments

Angel Wanting To Go Home

by Suicidal Angel 2/2/2016

written by Suicidal Angel

“SUICIDAL PEOPLE ARE JUST ANGELS WANTING TO GO HOME”

Can you relate to this?

Are you one of God’s Angels, that has done good all your life

and now you are done and just want to go home.

Life on earth is not our real home. It’s just a temporary place we get sent to

for whatever meaningless & pointless reason.

Our home is in spirit. With God if you believe that, or just in the universal energy that we originated from.

Whatever your belief is about where we come from,

Do you have this strong pull and desire to go back there?

I’m not talking about being suicidal in a way to escape […]

2/2/2016 4 comments

are they real

by mlr18 2/1/2016

written by mlr18

HEAVEN and HELL. Are they real? Does GOD exist? I was raised a Christian so all of this should be real to me with no doubt. I do believe in God. I do believe in heaven and hell. And maybe that’s why I’m so afraid? So afraid to like what I like, do what I want to do, dress how I want to dress, and be who I want to be. So much so that I’m ready to just end it all. However, being Church of Christ, if someone commits suicide the consequence is eternity in hell. So what is my way out? I have none. Other than to pretend that I like to […]

2/1/2016 18 comments

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by jasal 1/26/2016

written by jasal

i’m scared of going to hell. it’s honestly one of the reasons i haven’t killed myself yet. it probably sounds really silly to anyone who doesn’t believe in it…but i’m going to ask that you don’t mock me for this fear…

although sometimes i think i deserve to burn forever. and to be honest, i’m probably going to hell anyway, whether that be in 60 years when i die a natural death or right this very moment.

1/26/2016 12 comments

I don’t believe in happiness

by Nelisaurus 1/25/2016

written by Nelisaurus

I hate when people tell me it’s going to be ok… That life gets better. I get that, I do. But honestly if I lived an alliterative life with all the money in the world I still wouldn’t be happy. I know too much and seen too much to be happy. Why can’t people accept that?

1/25/2016 9 comments

The Fear Part of The Cycle

by thehusk 1/25/2016

written by thehusk

Why am I back here? I suppose I’m afraid. Afraid that it’s all just empty. All the crap I fill my mind with to keep me going. It’s all just illusory. Most of it’s fantasy, and what isn’t is hollow.

And maybe sensing this makes me afraid. Because maybe humans need to believe in goals to survive and thrive. Maybe we need to believe that this one thing we’re focusing on will make everything worthwhile. Because if we lose that belief, then why do anything? Why not just lay down and die?

Apathy is a threat to survival. Maybe that is why I’m afraid.

1/25/2016 1 comment

My faith

by teresa45 1/25/2016

written by teresa45

I tried to kill myself last Tuesday. I don’t remember anything except waking up in the hospital. This was my third attempt. How do I keep surviving? I pray so much that my prayers are me actually begging God to help me. Still no answers. Am I here to be punished? People speak of a hell after we die. Does it really exist or is this really hell and there is nothing after this. I want to believe so bad there is something good after this hell i’m in on this earth.

1/25/2016 12 comments

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