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Moods Like Tides

by PyroFalkon 9/20/2015

written by PyroFalkon

After stating nearly a month ago that I wanted to participate in this community more, I’ve been silent. Part of it, I’m only slightly ashamed to admit, is damage to my ego: for some odd reason, I thought people would care more. That’s not supposed to an accusation against you, please understand: it’s just me overestimating my value. Overestimating myself has happened more often than I’d like.

Regardless, the majority reason I didn’t follow through on coming around here more is that my mood rebounded. September 2015 has gone really well for me: pretty much everything has broken my way, starting with getting closure on a […]

9/20/2015 1 comment

my story

by brunette648 9/18/2015

written by brunette648

in honour of World Suicide Prevention day last week, I just wanted to share a success story; my story.
1 year ago on June 15, 2014; this was me.
and 461 days later I am still here ??

the bravest thing I’ve done thus far in my life was choosing to stay. to stay, and to keep fighting! life is messy, and it is damn hard, but you know what I also found out a rather hard way? it is REALLY worth it. […]

9/18/2015 7 comments

Pointless

by BluDude976 9/18/2015

written by BluDude976

I really do wish that I’d never been born. It hasn’t been worth it. My life is like a super depressing foreign film that has no happy ending. Everyone I’m related to has a go nowhere life. I don’t know why they bother breeding they just add more pointless miserable people to the world. Genetically inferior stupid people shouldn’t be allowed to breed. I can’t believe anyone ever agreed to breed with my biological father, he’s hideous. I hate resembling him in any way. I hate being half Mexican, the men are always so ugly and short. My white relatives are all white trash. I […]

9/18/2015 8 comments

I hate this feeling

by BlondeWig 9/16/2015

written by BlondeWig

I recently ended up moving in with my dad who hasn’t been in my life for 7 years because my mother kicked me out after I attempted suicide in July. She likes to believe that my entire depression that I’ve had for 3 years has been fake. Being with my dad is definitely better than being with my mother… except I feel like I’ve screwed up his life now. He isn’t used to living with his kids and isn’t used to spending money on anyone but himself so I get in a lot of crap for being expensive. I think about trying again everyday. But […]

9/16/2015 8 comments

I want to go now

by Katki 9/13/2015

written by Katki

The tears just wont stop coming
Every day now – I cry
I ask God to take me – to give me some relief from this hell I live in
For a very short time, I thought there was hope
But just like everyone else, he left me alone
I was stupid to even believe in a glimmer of happiness
It never comes
I don’t want to be here anymore
2 nights ago I dreamed I was torn apart by a mountain lion – and that peace, that you only find in death – I felt that in the dream.
And then I woke up […]

9/13/2015 1 comment

Something to help

by disgusting 9/13/2015

written by disgusting

This is going to sound insane, like I’ve lost my mind, or like I’m a real idiot or someone who hasn’t been honest here, but I have been.

So I found a place to live for the next 7 months, provided my work keeps up and I can pay for it. I don’t have a bed though, so I’m on the couch. I’d like to be able to have a bed in my own room though.

Anyway, I’ve been through some real hell with the guy I like blowing up at me when I try to talk about how I feel, which is that the terminology he […]

9/13/2015 4 comments

Alone.

by Shattered Night 9/10/2015

written by Shattered Night

i feel insanely lonely and just un wanted and not special at all. its hard to believe that some people actually care for me i just dont feel like people do

9/10/2015 4 comments

When Is Suicide The Rational Choice?

by thehusk 9/6/2015

written by thehusk

I think most people have some idea of a ‘worthwhile life’. Maybe it involves being in love. Raising a family. Or close friends. Fulfilling work. Expressing yourself creatively. Or just enjoying yourself – sex, drugs, rock & roll (or whatever else floats your boat.)

But for some of us, those meaningful things seem out of reach, or we’re prevented from enjoying them by obstacles. Perhaps we believe ourselves incapable (or undeserving) of love or friendship. Unable to connect with others. Or we’re crippled by extreme social anxiety, and unable to function. Weighed down by feelings of loss or loneliness. Maybe we suffer from chronic pain and […]

9/6/2015 12 comments

Mr. Brightside’s the name, Stealing song names is the game

by thelost 9/5/2015

written by thelost

Hell, it’s corny as all fuck but I don’t care. Lately my personal situation has left me with more of a relation to Mr. Brightside than most songs. Well, that and a need to have one goddamn drink. Being alone sucks, but to know who you’d like to be spending time with is ignoring you, and is with their boyfriend just makes it that much worse. Experiencing one of the big depression symptoms which is… Any guesses? You Sir, You madam! You guessed it, lethargy. The girl’s out there doing God knows what for God knows what reason, and I’m sitting here talking about a […]

9/5/2015 1 comment

I don’t think I can die

by Matel 9/2/2015

written by Matel

This is one of the strange feelings I have about suicide. I easily believe that if I die by natural means or accident, I’ll simply perish forever. But if I try suicide I cannot imagine that I’ll be dead, I feel like I’ll survive somehow and end up in a worse situation. Even if I make sure that I do everything right, I cannot imagine that I’ll be able to kill myself. I feel like there is 0% chance of success. I feel immortal somehow.

Science and my logic says that this cannot be the case. If you make sure that you kill yourself, you’ll be […]

9/2/2015 10 comments

An ended love story..

by trying to survive 8/30/2015

written by trying to survive

yes, unfortunatly my love story ended before it even started.. i feel destroyed, depressed, dead.. in every possible way..i knew that i will end.. i didn’t want it of course but i knew it will happen..cause all my life i never had something so beautiful and amazing, before i met him.. we stayed together almost a year.. full of good things and bad ones, we had dreams like any couple, maybe ours were bigger, but all i know that we had that feeling between us, that feeling that no other word can describe it.. MORE THAN LOVE.. PASSION.. but we used to fight a […]

8/30/2015 0 comment

Don’t belong here

by whereismyescape 8/29/2015

written by whereismyescape

I genuinely believe that some people don’t belong in this world. This atmosphere is just too much for us and we need an escape. I am one of those people that just isn’t meant for this environment. I need a different way and I think heaven would be so great. I know it would be great. I just wish I had the courage and strength to go there.

8/29/2015 8 comments

Random why questions pt 2….the even better one!

by wndozh8er 8/25/2015

written by wndozh8er

Why do Many people think that everything that is said over the Internet is true and buy into scams and rumors without investigating further?

Why did “human rights advocates” get there panties in a wad when a fully veiled Muslim woman had to remove her religious attire in order to get her drivers license? If someone wants to stand up for people who are really getting there rights stomped on – than stand up for people’s rights to get quality health care, a living wage, the right to choose, etc.

Why did “civil rights advocates” get there panties in a wad when American Jihadist Anwar Al Awlaki, who […]

8/25/2015 15 comments

Random Why questions Pt 1.

by wndozh8er 8/25/2015

written by wndozh8er

i don’t understand why most people think the way they do. So let’s ask ourselves some questions…

Why do people find Saturday Night Live funny?
Why do news anchors call babies born without brains “miracles”?
Why is society so hung up on on the gay thing, yet don’t seem to worried about real threats such as pedophiles or rapists?
Why do all people universally stop believing in mythological creatures such as the Easter Bunny, the Tooth Fairy, and Santa, as children, but as adults still believe in God and Jesus?
Why can’t people produce good music anymore?
Why do people still think that a highly advanced alien spacecraft, advanced enough to […]

8/25/2015 8 comments

Goodbye f’d up world.

by Schiz018 8/24/2015

written by Schiz018

So in 3 to 4 weeks I’m ending it just have to do a test run then gain the balls to just end it. I don’t give a fuck or a rats are anymore. Not even sure why I was born the only sucky thing is my family are going to have to bury me with no photo or nothing. I’m over family and parents. They only give a shit about themselves and haven’t once begun to understand mental illness. Funny thing is its going to have to be a burden to bury me or cremate me for my family. Cold heartless family.

Well 3-4weeks then […]

8/24/2015 4 comments

This song makes me believe im already dead

by ifuckedthequeen 8/23/2015

written by ifuckedthequeen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aYX8XMFsXmQ

adagio for strings is the shit.
dj tiesto is duh shiz.
brno philharmonic orchestra is THE shytz.
mix that all together and you get the shitz of all shytakki mushroomz in one elegant masterpiece of fluffy cloud evanescence. <– not entirely sure what that is but the words sound really great together (:

8/23/2015 0 comment

Does life have a point?

by SmokyMemories425 8/22/2015

written by SmokyMemories425

I used to believe in God but I sat down and really thought about it and the concept of heaven and hell just seem too fairy tale-ish to me. But does anyone know the point of life? What is the reason for us being here? It seems like it’s money for a lot of people. And that’s why I want to go. Whether or not God stated it,”The love of money is the root of all evil” is definitely the truth. I see it in on my family’s faces. In the news. On the streets. The desire of money is completely taking the humanity out of […]

8/22/2015 6 comments

One goes away. A new one arrives..

by helenabeat 8/20/2015

written by helenabeat

So.. they told me I’m cancer free, and YES I’m so happy for it, I’m still dealing with my depression and anxiety problems but everything is working well.. I guess.
I met this guy, he’s like me. Depression, anxiety and Schizophrenia is what we have in common. I love him, I’m so in love with him that makes me sad, because he’s giving up and I don’t know what to do. Everything I say or I do is for nothing because he doesn’t care, and he don’t care the fact that it was hard for me too and I’m dealing with it.. and he doesn’t believe, […]

8/20/2015 2 comments

Am I Insane? I used to think not, but now I am not so sure..

by PlagueDoctor 8/20/2015

written by PlagueDoctor

I used to think that everyone else was fucked in the head and that I was the only normal one. I still think that most everyone is below me, but I am also questioning my own sanity, which has me questioning everything I think I know, and believe.

The other night I had the opportunity to do some research. My Psychiatrist told me that I was mentally ill, I told her that the only mentally ill people were those who had brain damage, everything else was simply weakness. She said that there were two kinds of mental illness, the one I was referring to was organic […]

8/20/2015 2 comments

Her Blacks Crackle and Drag….

by Gwenythtotalwaste 8/18/2015

written by Gwenythtotalwaste

I take this title from one of Sylvia Plath’s final poems before her own suicide. The Phrase Crackle and Drag to me implies an afterimage, like when you watch the television screen and shut your eyes. You see phantasmagoria looming in your vision. This is what I hope to accomplish by my death. I want my loved ones to know that there is no malice nor ill-will in this action; I want them to know that I love them with a love that cannot be quantified; an immeasurable love deeper and wider than even I can believe. It Becomes more apparent as the moment approaches. […]

8/18/2015 0 comment

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