Don’t say I’m better off dead, cause heaven’s full and hell won’t have me.                                  Can you help me to stop sinking?                                                     […]
Not all of us will escape suicide.
It doesn’t always get better.
There isn’t always a light at the end of the tunnel.
Life isn’t always worth fighting for.
Some of us are mistakes.
Some of us are, in fact, better off dead.
Not all of us matter.
3000 people will commit suicide in the world today.
I will be one of them.
If a tree falls in the forest and nobody hears it, it does make a sound. But no one cares.
Well..I am 27 years old. I feel cold inside, like I have no emotions or tears left. My heart feels like it has a large hole in it. I seriously have no friends or no one to talk to. All I ever do is work & stay home. I live in a country side of Alabama & nothing makes me happy anymore. I have thought about killing myself a few times but I know if I do then I will go straight to hell. But on the other hand, It feels like this life on earth is hell. I play guitar & drums for almost […]
Hey, I been writing a book about aboy who tried to shoot up his school but stopped becuase an teacher attacked him and locked him in his trunk.(<—– that's the main part of chapter one)
I have hand writed the frist 3 chapters before realizing I should write a chapter by chapter main objective and details to keep the book going along……..I did this for the first book
I also realized that after I typed it I became far smaller than I expected it to be (way shorter)
So I rewrote the first 4/40 pages handwritten (<—- the amount of pages I aming for per chapter….but […]
all my life , I’ve been that fat girl, the ugly girl. The girl noone wants to be around. Okay . I’ve had my fights and stuff but I just still don’t get why nooone has ever liked me. I’ve had ftoends and boufroends but I always find out what they really think of me.. its always my personality .. Im numb.. all I do sometimes is cry. My dad used to be an alcoholic now my mom is an abusive alcoholic.. my first love is now gay.. Im 17 years old.. I weigh 200 pounds. I have acne all over my face and body […]
Being near 17 kick from high school …….. my parents cant even afford food with my expenses…im better off dead right now ….just me the lying lesbo whore why would anyone want me around
I’ve found the holy grail of suicide methods, as it is apparently called. Painless, quick, easy. Only hard part is of course that you can’t get hold of it anywhere in the developed world. But now I know where to get it and I’m going there in a month. I just don’t know if I can go through with it. I imagine how devastated my mother would be and it makes it extremely difficult.
I’ve thought about what I would leave in a message to her and I think it would be like this: She always said she wanted the best for me and the truth, […]
The only place i really feel safe anymore is church, my friend andrew begged me for MONTHS to go with him and i caved in having given up on religion a long time ago.
Where was god when i got raped? Where was he when i asked for forgivness? To get past these feelings, to fight depression?
So i started going and i’ve started talking to a lady named candice, shes nice and is one of the youth counsulurs there. She knows a bit about my past, but i havent said much.. i’m scared their all gonna abandon me still. My trust, its so hard to earn.. […]
You can go, you can start all over again, you can try to find a way to make another day go by. Â You can hide, hold all your feelings inside. Â You can try and carry on when all you want to do is cry. and maybe someday we’ll figure all this out, try to find a way to make things better now. We’ll be better off.
We’ll be better off dead
Yesterday I got into a very suicidal mood which is totally isn’t me, or so I thought. I laid in bed all day and would have rather been dead than have done anything else. I’ve been depressed for the past few months after my mom cheated on my dad and they’re now going through a nasty divorce. I don’t talk to my mom anymore even though we still live in the same house. I feel really alone and like no one understands. I’m 14, I have a whole life ahead of me and I already want to die? It just doesn’t seem right. I want […]
 Hi My Name Is Ellen,I’m 17.I suffer from Severe Depression, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, And Graves Disease (Hyperthyroidism),And i anxiety issues. I’m not going to go into the gory details of what happened to me, what caused my depression (which to be honest, was a million different things). I left school at the start of grade 10 because i was being bullied…really badly, and that just added to my other problems, a few months after i left school i was sent to a Psychiatrist,she diagnosed […]
I sit here wishing that I was someone else. Perhaps a quiet person who didn’t have these tendencies – ruthless, narcisistic, destructive, tenacious thoughts and feelings that make up a large part of my being.. Maybe I would be “better” if I was just able to be myself. The more time that passes always seems to push reality into the forefront, and unfortunately I’m pretty sure that it’s all gray matter. Why do I need to take things so far? Why can’t I control myself? Why Why Why do I have to be this person plauged with an overwhelming sense of manotany and a brain that tells me […]
I did have a different title – which was funny – but I forgot. Oh well.
My name is “kthx” (for privacy reasons). I am a 26 year old Male, plagued with three conditions (that we know of so far) which are Major Depressive Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, and A.D.D. (ADHD minus the hyper component). I was diagnosed with the ADD and depression as a child. I have lived ever since then in a depressed state. I always have a low mood (dysthymia), and things never seem to work out for me.
I have been through so many psychiatrists and psychologists offices throughout my life and not one of […]
I’m dying for her. Literally. I gave everything for her yet she’s gone and is living her life as happy as ever while i’m stuck at home thinking about her and all of the times we shared. She repeatably told me she loved me and I used to believe her.
But now she doesn’t give a fuck that I can be seconds away from landing up in another hospital or in a graveyard. I will die for her I will do anything in the world for her but I know she doesn’t feel the same. She’s my first love and I just can’t get over her as hard […]
Wishing. Hoping. Dreaming. Longing. Living. Breathing. Smiling. Laughing. Hurting. Wanting. Crying. Walking. Waking. Anything and everything. I’m so tired. Emotionally, psychically, mentally, any way possible. I don’t know what to do or who to go to, I don’t know what the meaning of living is anymore. I don’t know what the point it. So many people have it worse than me, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. It doesn’t fix anything. Everything hurts. I’m torn down, broken, sad, no. More than sad. There’s no words for it. I have absolutely no motivation. I’m so emotionally numb to everyone and everything. I don’t know what […]
I keep lying to myself saying everything is okay, but in reality I know it’s not. I cannot go through the day wondering if I will be better off dead. I keep loosing my friends over stupid stuff. I cannot trust a single soul. I keep breaking out even worse because I am so stressed out on life. I wish life could be over as simple as just pressing a button. But, it’s not. I really have no friends I can speak to about my life and why I am so depressed all the time. All I have is Tumblr. I just need someone […]
out of all fucking people, why did i have to fall inlove with my best friend?! we used to have a “thing” she used to like me. but she said she doesnt wanna lose our friendship because im her best friend. everyone i know can just tell im in love with her. and i hate admitting. i told her once when i went out of the city for a week and i told her i said that cos i missed her so much. i always look her in the eyes and say im not in love with her, but in realaty i think she is […]
Drowning in myself
Always asking why
Never feeling settled
Just wanting some peace
The whispers that show
I’m better off dead
Nobody would care
Everybody would be happy
Just needing some queit
Knowing it will never happen
Always screaming, pleading, and begging
Someone notice, someone say something
Cause I never can.
I feel like I have reached a wall where I have done all that I can and I don’t know what else is left….I have not actively pursued death but did almost die; I almost drowned and it was an accident and left me a bit shaken I can’t help wondering if I might have been better off dead.
I had a dog for 12 years and my dad took him away from me and had his friend watch him. They said they would take good care of him…and they did alright…first they claimed he disappeared and the next he was in the river but everything […]
I’m losing my strive and will to live. I can hardly even finish writing a single poem. Writing is all I have to live for, it’s the only thing I actually WANT to live for. Without it, I am nothing, without it, I’m better off dead.
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