I can’t trust anyone….

Yesterday I got into a very suicidal mood which is totally isn’t me, or so I thought. I laid in bed all day and would have rather been dead than have done anything else. I’ve been depressed for the past few months after my mom cheated on my dad and they’re now going through a nasty divorce. I don’t talk to my mom anymore even though we still live in the same house. I feel really alone and like no one understands. I’m 14, I have a whole life ahead of me and I already want to die? It just doesn’t seem right. I want to be happy but I can’t. My mind isn’t allowing me. It screams that “I’m worthless, no one cares about me, your better off dead then wasting space on this earth.”
I told my boyfriend I want to overdose because nothing is getting better like everyone said. He told his mom whose a psychologist and she talked to me on the phone. Then she talked to my dad and thats when I felt stupid and really wanted to die. I know they were both trying to help but all they did was hurt me. I’m smarter now at hiding my feelings because I don’t want anyone to know. I don’t want to be that freak whose suicidal. Most people wouldn’t believe me anyways because I’m good at acting happy when deep down, I want to throw myself off a cliff. I learned to trust no one and now I’m gonna say “I’m fine” when I know I’m not. They’ll believe me, until I’m dead.