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Better Person

i cant handel this any longer.

by @deadlife 6/16/2013

written by @deadlife

Im not a very important person. I don’t tell people about my problems. I have many.Â They drive me insane. I wish I was better person. I cant tell anyone abut this side of me except my only friend cole. he is the only one who will ever understand me. ever.

this is a list 0f my problems

1.im different

2.i cut

3.i am bulimic and anorexic

4.suicidal

5.family death

6.commitment issues

7.my mother has been dating a married man I hate for 6 years

8.my family thinks there’s something wrong with me

9.bullied

10.no friends

11.awkward

12.shy

13.anger issues

14.migranes

15.lack of sleep

16.i hear voices

17.cant focus

18.sexualy abused by half sister [longstory]

and last of all

19.i cant stand myself

please help, my family or […]

6/16/2013 4 comments

My Love

by Jlup@ 6/10/2013

written by Jlup@

Im New So I was Thinking Of Killing My Self But I Did Not Cuz Of My Girlfriend That Starts With The S She Was Going to Brake Up With Me cuz Im Jelly All time cuz of what Happen To Me on My Other Relation Ship I was Being Cheat On And So I thought i Might Get Cheat On Agen And I dont Want That So My Girlfriend Gave Me One Last Chance So I Must Not Make A Error On This Cuz i might Lose Her She Means A Lot to me Cuz We Did Some Stuff and She Made me a […]

6/10/2013 1 comment

iNSTEAD oF mE

by 4L1C3 6/9/2013

written by 4L1C3

I lost my sibling a long time ago

I didn’t even know them

But I feel like they’d be a better person than I am

And that they’d make more out of life than I have

I shouldn’t even be alive

They should

It’s not fair

It never was

6/9/2013 0 comment

..Speechless..

by lonelyinside 4/18/2013

written by lonelyinside

How my life has changed these past months. I have officially stopped cutting for awhile now. I feel weird sometimes because i know that people can see all my scars and they immediately judge me, but dont say anything and i feel like maybe i shouldnt make other people uncomfortable like that..

Ive had my ex, the one from before, ask me back out and i couldnt do it, i had a really good friend ask me out too and it was awkward because i couldnt bring myself to tell him no to his face, i never answered him, I feel really guilty now. Im currently […]

4/18/2013 0 comment

Choices – doing nothing and gets nothing done

by Dawg 2/2/2013

written by Dawg

User muspelhemÂ posted this in a comment earlier today – it’s a good read and worth the few minutes it takes to read and ponder objectively –

http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-harsh-truths-that-will-make-you-better-person/

For the record – I’m an atheist – but that doesn’t change theÂ relevanceÂ of the following parable:

Crosses To Bear

A young man was at the end of his rope, seeing no way out, dropped his knees in prayer. “Lord, I can’t go on,” he said. “I have too heavy of a cross to bear.”

The Lord replied, “My son, if […]

2/2/2013 3 comments

I’m Sorry… (This Is Not A Goodbye/Suicide Note)

by kMd 11/23/2012

written by kMd

I’ve been a member of this site for 2 days. When i posted my story of getting better, i thought it was a basic read kinda site. I didn’t know this was an ongoing support system. I’m so glad it is, i feel like i’ve stumbled upon a place where i’m not so alone. I’m 17, soon to be 18. I want to be a psychologist, so i can help others in pain. When i see posts on here of those feeling hopeless, all i wanna do is help, find a way to save their life. I still get suicidal thoughts myself. I’ve struggled […]

11/23/2012 1 comment

Surviving… why?

by AndreDA 10/31/2012

written by AndreDA

It looks like I survived the most powerful suicidal thoughts attack in my life that I had for the last week and a half. I’m not sure if that’s good. I’m just too weak, to do it I had to delete all the pictures of the girl I love from my computer, delete all traces of her so nobody would bother her after I’m gone. I couldn’t do it, I just can’t. I can’t let her go.

I’m back to escaping from everything into my head, fantasy worlds. I don’t really want it anymore because the thought that one day I will wake up and instead […]

10/31/2012 1 comment

Beautiful

by The Knight of Flowers 10/9/2012

written by The Knight of Flowers

Hey. I’m the Knight of Flowers. I’m Hungarian, 23 years old and have a great job which comes with superb salary. My problem is I can’t stop thinking about who I was: a f’in poor guy who worked for anybody just to earn the money to pay the rent, buy some food. Now I’m rich but I don’t want to be successful because there are people starving or get killed for no reason. Wait, there is a reason: human’s cruelty. We live in a world where most people are evil, only act when their action results in benefits. You can be lucky, have a great […]

10/9/2012 1 comment

Don’t give in

by Nolentwohundred 9/4/2012

written by Nolentwohundred

Riley,

Our journey continues in my mind.Â We converse, we laugh, we dance, we engage in battle with zombies, we awaken the Harbinger in the ones who are lost and suffering.Â I know you’re suffering right now and it’s torture for me.Â If there’s anything I can do, let me know.Â I begin school in the spring (I hope) to obtain an associate’s degree in Physical Education.Â The Vampire Order grows and it seems as if my friends with Anonymous have the same intentions.Â I have discussed joining Anonymous with the Order.Â We feel at this time, we will remain separate, as we draw inspiration through […]

9/4/2012 1 comment

why am i even alive…

by nonabani 8/12/2012

written by nonabani

ive been through alot since childhood, ive seen my mom being hit and bleed, ive gone to school scared of coming back home and not finding her alive because dad killed her, ive seen my baby sister die infront of my eyes and i dont remember telling her i loved her, i remember the days dad dint come home cuz he was SOME WHERE ELSE , i remember when he went to sleep like he dint give a shit while my mom had aÂ miscarriage, i remember every word he said to her that made her cry ….i remember dad repenting after my baby sister died […]

8/12/2012 2 comments

sorry, im a horrible best friend.

by fakingit 7/16/2012

written by fakingit

i am, its true. you are ALWAYS here for me, when im to fucked, to even think. promise after promise i make to u saying i will not attempt suicide, i will quit cutting, and in a week i will stop taking pills for the hell of it. honestly, im sorry, idk why i make promises i cant keep. i try but my mind out rules me. everytime. im terrified, i dont deserve a friend as AMAZING as u, im scared u will finally understand that, and leave. im still ALWAYS and FOREVER will be here for u. u can tell me ANYTHING. but again […]

7/16/2012 3 comments

The Thing I Can’t Decide

by Aberration 7/12/2012

written by Aberration

Lately, I’ve been trying to determine if I was born broken or if my life made me this way.

I mean, I can go down the list of my life experiences and lay out a path of the things that seem to have lead up to the way I am now. But, might not a better person, with better DNA or a better soul or whatever you believe to be at the core of us, have reacted differently to the same kind of life. Maybe I’m just not meant to be well, or worthy or happy.

I can’t sleep much at all anymore. My mind just races […]

7/12/2012 11 comments

You say it’s selfish

by breakingdown 7/2/2012

written by breakingdown

You say suicide is selfish , but your the one who caused me mental and physical pain. You say you want me to be happy… but then you call me a whore and a worthless piece of shit.. and you expect me to just forget about that. You say your not calling me names your just saying how it is, saying i’m an immature freshman, and that killing myself is ridiculous and i shouldn’t joke about it and you feel bad for me. But you think i’m joking , i’m not the immature one you are , i’m not saying i want to commit suicide […]

7/2/2012 9 comments

i was only being nice

by Whateverbell 5/16/2012

written by Whateverbell

Yesterday…I told myself, im going to be nice, im going to be a better person, and not mean. Well im not really mean. I just want to be a better person. I tried it today. i tried to better myself. But it didnt work. i tried to be nicer to everyone…but, once again, i’ve been hurt. Once again someone called me a man; well not nessarily. he called me a boy really, and everyone who heard laughed. Once again, i’ve been told i have a deep voice and sound like man. it’s like 10th grade all over again. i dont know how long i can […]

5/16/2012 1 comment

How did I get here?

by Senescence 5/11/2012

written by Senescence

I’ve lost someone to suicide. It’s the most enraging experience I’ve been through. There is always that little part of you that can never grieve or get over it, because they chose to end their life. It’s one of the most selfish acts I’ve ever know.

So then, how did I end up thinking about it? First objectively – I don’t want to die, don’t be stupid. I can just understand why some people feel it’s their only way out.

Then, less objectively – I still don’t want to die, per se. I just want to be someone else. I have no idea how I managed to […]

5/11/2012 5 comments

distracting

by fallen2far 5/11/2012

written by fallen2far

I feel this way, on again, off again.Â I’m sure other people feel it.Â I hope no one else does, but at the same time, I hope I’m not alone feeling it.Â It’s hard to describe it so I won’t right now but I’ll try to express my thoughts because of these feelings.Â Every time I feel like this, I throw myself into a distraction. Sometimes they’re classes like the piano or learning a new language. Volunteer work.Â Sometimes it’s following a sports team or being interested in a serial like a TV series. It’s shallow, very hollow, but I thought it helped. When the […]

5/11/2012 4 comments

I Tried… {Venting}

by CherryBlossom 2/8/2012

written by CherryBlossom

I tried to become a better person. To stop the things that make me hate myself so much.

I talked about this before but it’s starting to become a big problem again.

Thinking about it makes me want to vomit. I’m so disgusted with myself and the situation.

I just made it to partner 32, yay for the whore!

I was doing so well, three months. No sex. I was so proud of myself. But then they came back. And because I’ve been avoiding instead of dealing with the problem directly I crumbled.

I did say no, I did move his hand when he tried to touch me. I tried […]

2/8/2012 18 comments

tired of faking it

by lost_annie 1/6/2012

written by lost_annie

Im so freaking tired of having to fake my way through life I go to work and have to pretend im fine cuz if anybody there knew the truth ( i hate myself and want to die) they would never trust me again and wouldn’t let em do my job the only thing I have in my life that actually keeps me grounded I fucking hate my life why can’t i be a better person I mean what the hell is wrong with me that when I got frustrated at work today my first thought was to strangle myself and my second was to chop […]

1/6/2012 3 comments