I’ve been depressed for years and I@m starting to realise that it’s because i never felt loved growing up. My brohter bullied me by beating me and puttin gme down and making me feel like a loser all the time. He raped me when I was 9 years old. The problem is so complicated though because I never felt like I could go to my parents because they never seemed to give a sh*t about me… I loved them and my brother so much but they just treated me like dirt. When my parents split up, my dad just moved out and didn’t even think […]
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I don’t really know what i expect to happen from doing this. I guess i just needed to find somewhere to let my thoughts be known before they just became to much to stand. I want to die, sometimes i think i know why other times i don’t. I’m not even sure how it started up, i guess at first i kept having dreams and fantasies of me being killed in an accident and it started to slowly get closer and closer to where i am now. I never want to hang out with friends, i can never live up to either my genius brother […]
I live in a world where i am always unhappy. my grades are slipping and my parents yell all the time now or ignore me. My brother is their favorite they would give him the world if they could. But to them im just that other kid who was raised by baby sitters until the age of 10. I get bullied at school. I try to hide my depresion so i fit in. Iguess i’m pretty good at hiding it too. For a while nobody knew the dark cloud that surrounded my mind. i first thought about suicide when i was about 8 years old. […]
Hi
The reason im posting this is because i want to get this off my chest.
I’m 15 and have being suicidal for nearly 2 years now. Before the last few months i was’nt serious about suicide but now i am and need to do this.
I’ve lost alot of friends over the last following months basically pushed them away. 11 months ago a girl local commited suicide,it did’nt no her that well but she had tons of friends, she was good looking, i guess she was just depressed like me.I don’t have uch friends, i have a couple who are friends but not close, […]
Dear Gloria,
It’s your favorite niece writing. I’ve been thinking, and this summer I would really like to come visit you. I’m so sick of this fucking family with their fucking up tight opinions and suburb attitudes. Every single one of them just pisses me off. I’m serious, just looking at one of them makes me want to take a bullet to the head. Today your little sister and I got in a fight….again. I figured as much would happen, it always does when schoolwork becomes a requirement. Apparently “we don’t communicate like we used to” well how the fuck am I supposed to “communicate” when […]
my life is gotten to the point where i can’t even be loved by my own family or friends…my family is makin me into someone i don’t want to be …they wont even accept me for who i want to be, they think i’m not good enough for their family, i’ve tried my best to stay strong and be someone i don’t like…i go out everynight walking around this small town that ruined me…before i moved here i had friends that i could tell anything to and my mom was happy with me, sister and my brother we stayed out of trouble but now i […]
When you go, Would you even turn to say “I don’t love you, like i did yesterday”?….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
I have a very violent brother, and what’s the worst part? a tiny piece of me really wants him to take out all of his fury on me. To properly hurt me, like i can’t. My razorblade just doesn’t do the trick anymore, i think it’s blunt, only leaves a scratch that doesn’t bleed much. It’s killing me. i need pain, deliberately holding my hand under hot water just the feel the burn…. i don’t think i can do this for much longer.
Life is becoming darker and darker…. i can’t see the light. Afterall? We were just born to die.
I think i’m starting to love […]
I’m new to the site (obviously) Been lurking around here for quite a while though. I don’t know why, Guess knowing I’m not the only one feeling fucking miserable is comforting for me.
I’ve been suicidal for as long as I can really remember. I guess the only reason why I haven’t killed myself already is that I don’t know how my family would react. Don’t really want them to feel bad… Then again, They might be glad I’m gone. I don’t really care anymore honestly. They don’t pay any attention to me anymore…
I plan on killing myself tomorrow…But looking back, I’ve said that so many […]
Hello, well if you haven’t read my other post my name is bree, I’m 16 yrs old & I lost my dad & a brother to suicide within 2 year after their deaths I droppes outta school & didn’t do anything but sleep up to 20 hours a day i gave up on life.
Its been 2 months now that I’ve gone back to school & learned how to cope with my depression, all I gave myself was time& now I’ve got a job interview on Monday & I have the opportunity to graduate on time. Life is falling back into place I thought id […]
Hi. My life story? I’m fourteen years old. My parents are divorcing, and I know it’s because of me, I was their mistake. My dad wanted kids at first, but my mom didn’t, now neither of them really want me. I have friends, and I seem like a normal crazy teenager. But hey, a smile can’t hide everything. My uncle committed suicide. I’ve thought about it many times. The only thing holding is my best friend, her brother died a few years ago. She has thoughts of suicide too. My words have always stopped her, I just wish that I could believe them myself. I’m […]
(SORRY THIS IS GUNNA BE REALLY UNorganized, I just keep editing it, and adding info..Hi I’m a physically healthy (not so much mentally) 18 y/o girl, with many issues including: Severe anxiety (social), I have been depressed before, suicidal, I’ve been recently diagnosed with ADD. I think I might have avoidant personality disorder, mild ocd? mild sexual abuse and I think I had selective mutism as a child up until gr.11 when I dropped out of highschool, because I cracked . and alienated/avoided virtually all my friends(due to depression, humiliation and I didn’t want to have anything to do with my school.) I spend most […]
Well, I’ve been sick all my life, asthma, allergies, skin diseases, mental issues, social issues. I was always a quiet kid and didn’t have many friends. My dad use to spoil me as a kid because I was youngest and always sick, I believe, until I started noticing that my sister wasn’t getting the fair attention, so I asked to stop. And he did. In school I was made fun of as a kid, then later I just became awkward to talk too. I was never considered one of the pretty girls. Boys only talked to be to get with my friends or my sister. […]
Dear Josh,
I miss you. I cant believe we’ve gone this long without talking and you live around the corner from me and we both go to the same college. Why did things have to end up so badly? We were supposed to grow up and go to college together and live together remember? You were my best friend for three years when you lived across the street from me. You couldnt say Rain without Josh and you couldnt say Josh without Rain. Always came to my boxing matches..even watched me spar. Went to highschool together. You were even my first kiss… You told me […]
I feel like my life has been a blur..a blur I didnt want to acknowledge until I realized its eating me inside and im basically dead already. I am ashamed of myself and I cant speak to ANYBODY about this. I dont want to die.. but i dont want to exist either. I dont want to exist because there is not a day im not reminded of the torture and abuse i had to withstand and have never been able to share with anybody. I was sexually abused and molested when i was a kid..for several years. I was confused. I didnt know what was […]
My mother’s been out of the house for 2 years. She use to drink every second of her life. She’d be passed out 99.9% of the time i saw her. My brother was just cleaning her old room and found 3 of her empty vodka bottles. You have no idea how much i want to find her and punch her. She ruined my life. I have no feelings towards her.
its may become memoriable day for me…………my birth was on 13th may 1995 ,4.45 am…………do u know till now i lived 6161 days…………i wanna make my life different from others…yes ill do…………i have exam on 27…ill try hard from now ………..coz it can take me to that world ,4 wat i am willing…………there r so many people who will tell you u cant i want 2 say them just WATCH ME ……………:)…………….now i am going to take a long bath then ill start my journey towards my success ………..”i want to fly,
up there in the sky
nd my dreams are my wings..”‘…..all my […]
I’ve been suicidal for so many years, I’m pretty much not even hiding it, yet nobody fucking care, I can tell you that. When I first decided I wanted to end with life, I was like “ok I’m done with life, maybe I can just have fun before I do”, that resumed playing video games day and night, and staying locked up in my bedroom at least I was having fun. Only getting out at night to eat when I know my parents are asleep. This dragged on and on always like “let’s do that one more day”. I live on the day by day […]
My counselor told me to write a journal. Then give someone I trust to read it. The thing is, I didn’t say I trust no one. There is someone I do kinda trust. I know he wouldn’t have the time to read it though. He’s a cop, and married with kids. He can’t carry it home. He can’t read it at work. So when then.
I’m worried that he might judge, or be over sympathetic after first being horrified that children actually go through shit, and people still walk around after pain.
I was molested by my brother. He was abused everyday by a schizophrenic mother. I […]
My name is Jessica. I am 13 years old and I’m a very sad person. I’ve hurt loved ones, been hurt, and been abandon by the only people I’ve trusted.
When I was 6, my parents split up. It was a very hard time for my brother and I. He was only 8. I don’t really remember much, just one day I came home from school and my father told me that if he and my mom got into one more fight, he was leaving us. The following day, he kept his word. They worked out custody and all that, and I lived with my mom […]
my boyfriend’s friends and brother laughed at me for not being the way i looked and not hot??
and he laughed along with it.
We’ve been together 2 years and i thought he understood what i went through when i hear those things after my long depression
and low self esteem. I thought he’d understand because he’s been called ugly most of his life…
and i told him he didnt thats why i fell in love with him, he’s handsome and great.
And ouch* to laugh along with them about how i looked really brought me down.
You would think someone you cared for and loved would treat you good and […]