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please explain…

by disposablegrl 2/9/2015

written by disposablegrl

so many of you still believe… how?

if ‘God’ doesn’t make mistakes than i was meant for all this? God meant for my father to abandon me, left with a woman incapable of showing love, a torment and whirlwind of insanity my mother was, molested at 4, to which my mother ignored and allowed it to continue… the bullshit goes on and on throughout childhood…. BUT – it gets better… so, its not enough that all this shit happened, right? now thrust into adulthood i continue this abusive fucking cycle? once wasn’t enough for me? i can only choose to love those that cannot love back- […]

2/9/2015 10 comments

Mabye its best this way…

by falling_soup 2/5/2015

written by falling_soup

I can not keep doing this anymore and I know that I have tried and tried to keep fighting, yet when I do fight it’s never enough. I hate being shit on by teachers and by my own mother. The one who “loves you the most” doesn’t and well.. If people continue to do this to me (the making me feel terrible and the shit on) I am and WILL give up. I am going to cut and try to soothe the pain. The fact is, I do not know how to cope anymore.. I am done thinking that I can keep doing this because […]

2/5/2015 2 comments

I don’t feel

by somegirlhere123 2/1/2015

written by somegirlhere123

I’m not sure of anything. I don’t feel anything anymore. I really just want to disappear. I don’t want to die I just don’t want to live either. My life is just nothing and has no worth. Yet, I still don’t want to die completely. I don’t want it all to just go black but I also just don’t want this life to continue this way.

It’s hard to put into words how I feel so bear with me.

I feel nothing. I never feel anything anymore. When anything happens I feel numb. Numb to the pain, sadness, joy, and fun. I don’t know if I can […]

2/1/2015 3 comments

incapable of coexisting

by 12ccht 1/28/2015

written by 12ccht

This is my final year if highschool. I have no will to continue going to school, it makes me miserable. I have no will to continue working. I am payed well for my age, $14hr is great money for a highschooler, but I haven’t been able to enjoy it. I feel myself spiriling into another bout. This happens every month. My job is physical, fast paced and stressful. At times, I feel my body and mind trying to shut down on me. I’ve wanted to just give up, lay on the floor and cry at work many times. I should be happy to […]

1/28/2015 0 comment

Nothing ends…

by LoveLost55 1/27/2015

written by LoveLost55

I feel nothing for anyone around me. Those that say they care, are more easily consumed by their own interests. I hate my life. I hate waking in the morning, the façade of a life I present to others, the happiness I show people daily, and, more so, not being able to sleep with my own thoughts at night. Why do I continue? Why keep up this farce of a life? Am I that weak? Can I not end this charade? I guess nothing ends….

I gather courage from pain. Each day, I put my uniform on, knowing I am hated. My only hope is to cross paths with a person that hates me […]

1/27/2015 9 comments

The world in what we live in now…

by Deleted.from.society 1/22/2015

written by Deleted.from.society

The world? Getting angrier. Society? Getting shittier. People taking their own lives? Is occurring more and more. And the bullies? They never stop. They continue to bring someone down to their death. Everyone asks me what I want in life… I just simply want to be happy and I want world peace. But the happiness? Can happen. But world peace…. never is going to happen.

1/22/2015 2 comments

I’ll Never Understand…

by Lsari 1/8/2015

written by Lsari

I will never comprehend how most people are able to continue on with their existence without an overwhelming feeling of despair. It truly baffles me how anyone can be happy, yet I so dramatically opposite.

I wish I could free myself of my existence but it’s so hard, it’s not as if I have any attachments to this world. It’s just so hard to stay motivated for anything, hell even my suicidal depression lacks any real conviction to see my dream through.

I hope a plane crashes on top of me, I’ll even settle for a flying cow…

1/8/2015 2 comments

When to finish

by IamDoneWithMyself 1/5/2015

written by IamDoneWithMyself

Thanks for your comments; as usual I decided to postpone my decision for a night. But I know it can not work. I am 23 but I really I feel that the future does not need me and I don’t need it. The worst thing is I lost all my believes even in God. I am in middle of nowhere. I am studying in a foreign country, even I cannot see my close friends and family. Nothing good is not happening around me. I think the time is coming but not to heal my wound but to create a worsen one……………………………………………………………………

Thanks for your reading.. I […]

1/5/2015 10 comments

Why do I let you do this??

by unbrokenangel 1/2/2015

written by unbrokenangel

Why do I deal with him?? Like am I really that stupid to continue to talk to someone who only wants me to talk sexual to him and when I don’t he flips out or confesses his feelings for me to try to get me to give in. Or he just randomly flips out on my because I like a guy and comes up with this horrible flaw about them when he is really describing himself. He makes me feel like complete shit 99.9% of the time. Why do I allow myself to go through that?? And why can’t I say this to […]

1/2/2015 1 comment

I Just Don’t Know

by kissofdeath10 12/14/2014

written by kissofdeath10

I don’t feel much anymore. It’s like I’m floating just below the water, aware that my lungs are burning, but I’m unconcerned. I see so much and nothing at all. I see that I am likely to end up alone. I see that I cannot have children. I see that I am about to graduate college with a useless degree and a fuck load of debt. I see fires and wars and disaster and hatred and guns and knives and cars accidents and pain in the world. I see that I should do something. There I begin to see nothing. There is nothing to do. You […]

12/14/2014 2 comments

My thoughts

by alex 12/12/2014

written by alex

Why cant i go a day without thinking of killing myself? Its like a constant struggle to continue to live in this world. Everything is just so meaningless to me now. Is there even a real point to continue living and moving forward or are we just fooling oursleves when we say “it will get better”.

When i use to try and ask for help to stop these thoughts people only made it worse by telling me there is something wrong with me and i should go to a therapist but all they would do is put me on pills. I dont wanna go on […]

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12/12/2014 10 comments

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I’ve decided to accept you

by hogpotter 12/11/2014

written by hogpotter

I can’t find a way to let go of the darkness, can’t find a way to stop hating, can’t find a way to forget. I can’t let go of the memories that have placed a mark upon my soul.

I’ve decided to accept you the way you are. Things you have lost, things you don’t have. I’ve decided to accept you, and continue to live on.

I can’t find someone to love.

God,

will I be able to get married?

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12/11/2014 3 comments

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Truth is, i’m a ghost.

by DreamingOfDeath 12/11/2014

written by DreamingOfDeath

There’s something inside of me, I’m considered a dead man. I’m alive now, but i’ll try, again and again, and again. Because I can not stop. I’ve been completely consumed by this. I hate, everything. I’ve learned to hate myself, and now I can’t take that back. I ruined my life, numerous times, and I’ll continue to do so. It’s as if I no longer control my body. I’ll try again. Till I am no more. Considering that, I’m already dead. It hasn’t happened yet, and it’ll happen again.

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12/11/2014 1 comment

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fuck it goodbye

by endofeverything 10/23/2014

written by endofeverything

I am sad to announce that, I am effectively going to end my life soon.
I don’t feel the need like to continue living, I don’t feel the need to continue worrying about anything. I am not going to talk about why I am going to end up my life, but just wanting to make you know is because I just can’t continue having pain.
I am going to leave everything, I don’t know how I am going to do it, but this is the last time i touch a keyboard; this is the last time i touch anything.
I am fucking annoyed of everyone […]

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10/23/2014 2 comments

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by lonerhero 10/8/2014

written by lonerhero

The cops were called today. They want to “help”. I just want to die, continue cutting and not live in this hell hole of a town. One of the three!! I have the perfect place to live in a different city with friends that are more willing to help me out than my own family. Now I don’t think I can go to the place I once called home.

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10/8/2014 0 comment

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If you are so proud of reducing suicide options for the desperate, then offer some help

by A Bridge Too Far 10/4/2014

written by A Bridge Too Far

I am 60+. I am desperate. There is no help to be found, anywhere. Even for my simple problem.

I look for ways to exit. That is my right. But I can not find any sure way that is even semi-humane.

Why? Because every damn drug that could’ve helped me to do it peacefully has been withdrawn from the market.

They proudly announce their success in reducing peaceful suicides. Even though suicide rates continue to rise. Yet they offer no help in return. That is brutal, primitive and being proud of increasing torture. That is being an uncaring monster.

What a sick society we have.

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10/4/2014 31 comments

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The end?

by Stuie 10/4/2014

written by Stuie

I’m hopefully going to end it tonight. I’ve felt unhappy and alone for many years and while I’ve coped for as long as I have its gradually gotten worse and I just can’t deal with it anymore. My only regret is the pain I’ll cause my family and the few friends I have by doing this, I don’t expect them to respect my decision some of them will even think I’m selfish and a coward but if refusing to continue to live in misery to keep them happy is selfish then so be it.

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10/4/2014 9 comments

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I have been replaced…

by kateralia 10/3/2014

written by kateralia

By a dog. Which I will prob have to babysit & continue its training. I am refusing to do this. I already went out to check the yard & removed anything it could choke on & blocked up holes under the fence. If that puppy starts whining at night, because its to be kept outside never allowed inside, I’m gonna do something to it.

Just so you know, I am COMPLETELY against animal cruelty. So I’ll prob unblock one of the holes or something. Or wake everybody up, because it’ll keep me up.

After all the complaining they do about money, & now they have a fricken […]

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10/3/2014 0 comment

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I’m just so fucking done..

by Bloodi 9/23/2014

written by Bloodi

I’m unable to continue this miserable excuse for an existance. No one will wish I hadn’t and I have no will to live. I’m more than slightly sure that I do not deserve to piece myself through this meager existance. Goodnight everyone… See you in Hell….

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9/23/2014 1 comment

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by ogbri 9/14/2014

written by ogbri

I’ve tried cutting burning head banging hair pulling bitting I even used to to try to stop breathing when I was younger , but this has got to be the most fulfillingly agonizing thing I’ve done to myself and I want to continue to do it. You guys should try it, I heard I can even get ulcers in my stomach lol.

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9/14/2014 3 comments

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