Today sucks, I completely freaked out today and I was very angry. Angry on myself, on the world, on my sister, on my parents, on the stupid weather, on everything. But mostly on myself. Directly after or actually during my angerexplosion I went to my room, jumped into my bed and started to hit myself. On my wrists, my chest and my shin. After that I still were angry, so I decided I needed more pain. Grabbed my knife and started cutting. After a while I had stopped and my mother walked into my room. She asked some things and I had to cry… After […]
He called my name
I walked away
Now im wishing i would have stayed
We walk around
Both looking at the ground
Scared to catch the other staring
But we both move on with out a sound
Remember the first night we kissed
I hope im not the only one who misses it..
I’m stupid for still loving you
My hopes are childish like i am
1 year younger, worlds apart
Here i sit with a broken heart
You said you wanted to ask me somthing..
Now im wondering what
But i lost my chance to hear it
By my own stubborness
Forgive me
For loving you
More then you could ever love […]
This is me and my x boyfriend. I met him at a party he was the first guy i was truely happy with. I love him so much i was willing to give up everything.. even my virginity. but we never made it that far. When he got a job he started to like another girl. Weeks past and i noticed he was distancing himself from me, one day i asked him ” what time do you get off tonight” and he snapped saying “why do you […]
I’ve had enough suffering with depression for a while. Now my best friend is going through alot of problems, and i mean ALOT. i need to stay with her and help her through it all, but it kills me. I’m always flashing back to when i was were she is now.. alone, anorexic, crying, cutting, all of it. Now i have to sit here and watch her deal with all of this, and i have to try and help her get better. Shes really stubborn as it is, but shes in denial, she doesnt see whats really going on, and she doesnt see where everyone […]
Today I was so depressed I just didn’t have control over me. I was a friend to someone and let them slap me, because they were feeling down. I’m not a masochist but I don’t feel pain to a certain degree and It didn’t phase me. But after she struck me, something inside me clicked. I ran to the bathroom and I just tried to lighten myself up. I wasn’t in the situation where I could walk around the room upset and in tears. But I cried, and cried. We had call, and I had to go into the Green Room (I’m in a play […]
We might be getting back together…I don’t know why I’m still crying…..
I don’t get it. I’m not beautiful, pretty or smart but I do know I’m ugly, fat, useless, unwanted, weird, dumb everything bad. I don’t know why God put me on earth I know that everyone has a reason to be on earth and most people are trying to figure out their reason. I’m nothing why was I put on earth.
i’ve literally been crying none stop. i feel so unneeded. it’s like just one something good happens to me it’s gone in a flash, or like if something good has been going on i’m just waiting for something bad to come. i’m so paranoid. like i can’t be happy, cause if i am something bad is bound to happen. plus my bestfriend of 5 years isn’t even there for me. all i do is need someone to talk to, to get this all out…everytime we make plans and i go to tell her she bails on me. not to mention i’ve been a cutter for […]
My name is Elizabeth. I am 14 years old, and I’ve wished for death for a couple of years, and I’m certain it is the only thing I’ll be able to succeed in this life; I’ve tried not to think about it, but it always comes back. In moments when I’m lonely and when it’s silent, I’ll think of death and how to achieve it. I wish I was normal, that I didn’t have these thoughts. I wish I could have changed the way my mind works, and how it always tells me to ruin things. I’ve lied to everyone I’ve talked to, I’ve insulted […]
I hate being alone..I always sit and wonder if its just me. I don’t like being alone, because sometimes, I’m just afraid of myself. I’m afraid that I’ll hurt myself, or cut. I’m very lucky to have a wonderful boyfriend who understands, and stays with me so I’m not alone, but even then, he needs to go home sometimes, and he needs to see his friends. But every time he leaves, I get mad. I get mad because I don’t want him to leave. I don’t want him to leave me alone with this demon that I have become. When he leaves, and goes out […]
Okay so the thing is that my best friend is upset because the person she’s in a relationship with screwed her over and I see how badly upset she is. So the next day I text her and I get no response so I keep texting and calling because I was worried and I care a lot. So later in the day the person my friends dating texts me saying to stop flipping shit and that its not my job to care and blah blah blah. And that really hurt. They have no right to tell me who I can or can’t care about. Like […]
Just like I always say, things will only get worse for me. I just got screamed at by my mother for not going to mass because I was too busy doing my homework. Then she told me to go to bed because “she said so.” I turned off the lights and slammed my head against the floor 3 times pretty damn hard and then I cried. And cried. And cried some more. Now I think I may have a concussion. Then she came back to yell at me some more. When she left, I whispered saying”God…..please kill me.” Then I cried some more. Then she […]
I feel like SHIT today. I could berely get out of bed. And today is supposed to be ”family day”. Great! I don’t wana go anywhere or do anything or see anyone. I just want to be aloneee. The cuts that I did a few weeks back are now scars. But I cut pretty bad so the scars are very noticable, even with my newer cuts. But I like them. They remind me. And in some way, make me feel a bit better. But they also make me wana cut more, and make more just like that. I make sure I pick the scabs so […]
I feel like a fail at everything. Like I’m never good enough. I try and try, but it just never works out for me. I just can’t take living anymore. I have no future. So it’s not worth living anymore. I feel so alone. I’ve cried so much I have no more tears left in me to cry.
just something ive been thinking about. i want to love and be loved back. i want to have friends. i want to get married. i want a girlfriend. i want to not be lonely anymore. i know i will never have any of these things. so i made a new list. i want to finally get the courage to cut my wrists, the real way. i want to be alone forever. i want to walk aimlessly around in the pouring rain by myself as long as possible. i want to cry every day, whether its crying myself to sleep and waking up with tears still in […]
people people pls
hear my tears ive cried
Im 14 and living with my mom brother and dog
i have a scar on my arm im contemplatin to cut open again ive cut my wrist 3times took 8 advils and choked my self with a belt twice
life for me is hell im scared to die but im ready
i hope someone here  i dnt care how old what gender suicidal or not I NEED HELP
Someone hear my heart i cry in my sleep i lost my great grandmother been heartbroken three times twice  by the same guy i cry alot
smile less im so ugly im scared to look decent […]
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