How come no one has ever told me how to deal with stress?
all i want to do is stare into the wall all day… and thats exactly what i do. i cant get anything done.
i want to get things done i just cant get an overview and that leads to me panicking about it and then i dont get it done. i hate it. every minute of it.
i get more and more depressed for each day passing.. nothing seems to cheer me up anymore. i cry over the littlest things. i cant hold myself together. my life is chaos right now…. i […]
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I am still here.
It seems as if it is just one disappointment after another. I have everything I need to “punch in my ticket,” yet instill I hesitate. My friend said something is keeping me here, keeping me from committing the final deed. I don’t know what it is but I want to find it. I am tired of the monotony of life and just want to be okay again. I have been seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist on and off for about three years now and it doesn’t seem like it is working. I don’t feel intense emotions anymore and all I do is sleep […]
So guys Everyday it’s just a bad day I finally told my friend about my depression and I know she cares but today what she said hurt me so bad she told me you need to calm down and stop being so sad to me it’s like she saying stop being depressed I can’t just wake up the next day and be happy I’m so done I’m thinking of running away from home and I want to kill myself I tried to a day ago I took a bunch of pills and the next morning I felt so sick my stomach hurt so bad and […]
Red for my rage black for my depression I believe if red wins others will have great harm done to them if the black wins I’ll have great harm to me I noticed many have very harsh opinions of the red route maybe you can’t understand
( c+c dont worry tho)
This will be a long one seeing how this is the first time (and hopefully last) that I have done something like this. I suppose I shall start at the beginning, I have always been a loner even from birth it would seem, my mother used to tell me that even at a young age I would hardly play with my peers. Even into my adult years to this day I prefer to be alone, only getting enough human interaction to keep me sane. My father went into the military around the time that I was five and with being in the military comes the […]
Im so excited! I only have a week left untill I’m out! till I’m done with life. Friday will be my death day, one day after my birthday. I could stick around and go through all the work of getting better, but I don’t want to. I know it’s selfish and I accept that. I know people will hurt, that’s why I’ve written each one a letter. I just gotta clean up some stuff, pick out the tree and I’ll be gone on Friday for sure 🙂
my birthdays coming up, and I think I’ll kill myself. Or maybe I’ll wait till the day after, for Friday. That way no one will be expecting me somewhere. i work for two hours each weekday morning. So if I wait till Friday my week is done. I think Friday is the way to go. but I’ll wait and see what I feel Thursday
I dont know when will this end, I have the feeling of emptiness, i dont talk, interact, think, i usually sit infront of the computer and just do nothing (because ive done every thing that could be done on a computer) i hate people, i hate my self, i hate society, even when i do drugs i have bad experiences (the high doesnt make me happy i just think of how bad my life turned to be), i am a 24 year old, i have an architecture degree ( though i hate engineering), and im living in a country where i have to join the army obligatory, […]
I am too depressed to do anything, I can’t get any homework done because im too depressed, I just look at dead girls on the internet and masturbate, then I suffocate myself and masturbate, then I cry and punch the walls, then I go to sleep. And at school Im too depressed to focus on my work, No one understands how I feel, I already trusted someone before and now even if people know about my depression it just makes things worse
I’m almost done with this life.. Everywhere I look, disappointment, frustrations, crap. Everywhere. Even from the people who I thought cared the most. A little bit more and I’m done. I tried to be hopeful. I tried being positive. Nothing came. Only disappointments. I just want the pain to go away. Permanently.
This is the first time I’ve done anything like this but I’m going to tell my story as best I can. I guess I’ll start by describing where I am now, physically and emotionally. I’m turned 21 this year and study engineering, of which I have completed 3 of the 8 semesters. Based on my academic record I’m a good student (or so they say) but the political situation in my country makes it difficult to acquire scholarships for one of my ethnicity (not that I need it as my family is quite well to do). Haven’t had a relationship in one year+, don’t have […]
10 months ago my girlfriend of 9 years left me. We kept in contact the entire time. There was hope. Sometimes a lot of it… Sometimes little… But the hope to get back together was always there. As of yesterday though, that hope is gone. She’s far away… with someone else… and wont be coming back now. She was my first and i was hers… I was 25 and she was 18. Aside from some problems here and there, i thought it would last forever.
I was never interested in a relationship until i met her. Never looked for one. Never slept around. I had a […]
Sometimes I feel as though I’ve done all I can do; other times I feel as though I haven’t done anything at all.
In late October/early November of 2014, I became extremely ill and had to be taken to the clinic. There, I was seen by a doctor, and while she was talking, I suddenly because very light headed. Then I had tunnel vision, and everything went black.
I woke up to find myself surrounded by people, all leaning over me, and laying down on the cold, harsh tile floor. I felt a pounding headache, where I had evidently hit my head when I fell of the […]
My biggest regret is that I didn’t kill myself the first time I thought about  it. I was 12, and I looked forward. I saw exactly what I have become: a useless, anxiety-plagued lump. Right then I knew I should kill myself because there was nothing for me in the future. I was right. It’s been 20 years and not even a week can pass without me regretting my decision to live. It would have been so much easier, so much better when I was a child, before people expect you to be reasonable and thoughtful. I should have done it then, or I should […]
My friends found out I was depressed but haven’t done anything about it and barely even acknowledge it. I absolutely can not stand when they used the word depressed or bipolar to describe how they are feeling when they will never feel what it’s like to have a mental illness as horrible as depression. Here I am they’re best friend suffering in silence and they just laugh at the word I can’t stand it
So I met with my counsellor/psychologist today with my sister, the second time my sister went with me. No different than before my counsellor confirmed that our family of origin (the family in which we were raised) is high on the dysfunctional scale, confirming too the cult-like nature of it coupled with isolation and other forms of emotional abuse.
For the first time ever I think my sister realises how close I am to dying. I wanted her to attend partly for her to be able to prepare. My sister and I were close growing up and while it hurts to let her know and hurts […]
I don’t think I can continue like this. im in so much pain all the time. I want it to stop. I want to die but I don’t want to hurt anyone. maybe I could just get in a horrible accident and god will let me die
thats it. im done!!!! i fucked up. im a fuck up. the voices wont be quiet. ive completly lost my mind. i appreciate everyone on here who was supportive and freindly to me. i just cant do it anymoere.
As the title states. Within the week I’ll be dead. I just need to make sure I get last minute things taken care of before I go. I have a few attempts in the past. Wrist cutting never did the trick no matter how deep I went. I’ll hang myself this time. I have the rope already set up at a perfect length for a drop hanging. And I know where I’m going to do it. I have hopes and dreams like most people. I unfortunately will not have them fulfilled. I am ex military, married but separated and had 2 girls with my wife. […]
Im sure theres nobody online riht now to read this so you will probably be readingthis when im done. Ive been waiting for years for the right help and it just seems im too hard to help. Im having a good drink and will be walkiing into the path of a lorry wen im numb enough. Dont think there will be too many unhappy faces. Goodluck to the resdt of you. My life was pointledss. Peace out