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Plan for Dying

by Greenz
written by Greenz

So. Here is my plan. I’d prefer to not be inundated with “we can help!” because nobody can.

I cannot put this into effect until January, unfortunately. But I have done some research, and apparently Kirkland is a good sleeping pill. You can buy them in 96 tablets. I figured that probably isn’t enough, so what you could probably do is, buy a few. Maybe over time, so nobody gets suspicious. Assuming these are water-soluble, make a solution with water and these things. Get into a bathtub. Go under.

And never come up.

Thoughts? Ideas? Criticism? […]

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Hiding scars

by curlylion720
written by curlylion720

I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times […]

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Attempted Suicide

by leftforthedead
written by leftforthedead

Today was the day that I was supposed to die, but I have failed once again. All week I have been getting my affairs in order, and I was finally ready to depart from this world. I woke up, went to my one and only class, and left class feeling completely and utterly at ease, and at peace with what I was about to do. My letter was written, I had said my goodbyes, I was ready. I drove home from class, and started tearing up a little bit in the car, but that quickly subsided when I realized that everything […]

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25 May 1987

by Nusu Nusu
written by Nusu Nusu

She Is….

Stumbling through the corridors,
Banging on the walls,
Everything’s so big
‘Why am I so small?’

Curled in the corners,
Rolling ‘cross the floor
‘Where are the lights?’
Learning to crawl.

She’s rocking on the landing,
Dancing not to bore,
Smiling at the ceiling,
Hiding behind the door.

Fighting in the darkness,
Drowning in the scorn,
Laughing at the lampshades,
Dying as she’s born.

Lurking in the cupboard,
Screaming in the hall,
Listening to the echos,
Company for us all.

Choking in the silence,
Shadows on the wall,
Spitting at the owners,
Smiling at their calls.

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Dying to escape death

by poisontongue
written by poisontongue

Does that even make sense?

My life has been fraught with death.  Now it’s all around me, like a heavy curse

And it’s only going to keep happening.  It’s only going to get worse.  How can this be tolerable?

I was thinking that it’s one more reason to get out of here.  By dying, you beat the others to the punch.  You don’t have to watch a presumably healthy person vanish before your eyes.

I don’t really think I’m equipped to deal with it, considering.  Just like I’m not equipped to deal with life in general.

Why sit around and watch the horrible parts of life happen?  Especially when that’s […]

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Dying

by Nobody_Cares
written by Nobody_Cares

I’m seriously thinking about suicide too often now. When I’m walking to school from the bus stop, its dark and I think about running in front of a car. And when I get in the school, I think about jumping off the side of the stairs. When I’m home, I plan on overdosing or hanging myself from the hook on my bedroom roof…

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Happying About Dying

by ArtNHeaven
written by ArtNHeaven

Time is ticking away on my deadline because I’m going damn near insane. Yet I make every excuse to stick around and to hope for things to get better. What a fucking waste. I’m at a point where I satisfied with dying. I still don’t feel like I don’t have much to live for and I’m wasting away (it feels like it). I can sense the slight frustration my mom is having with my unemployment (it’s been a ***** to find a job). Two degrees + debt = biggest waste and regret of my fucking life. I understand her in everyway. I turned and looked […]

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i did want to die back then

by passionfruit3
written by passionfruit3

its funny how as an adolescent i had many different reasons i wanted to die and they made sense to me.Now im not really sure if dying is the goal as of late.Acually im not sure what the goal is.
I find myself getting depressed over little things such as my aunt wasting away and me not speaking with her.also things like transpportation issues.Money issues despite never having had to pay a bill my whole life.I worry about not having a significant other.i worry about being alone homeless and helpless.Suprisinginly i worry about my own health since ive tried to take my own life so […]

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Hi my name is Brooke, I’m 15 with cancer.

by BrooklynBoxx
written by BrooklynBoxx

Abandoned by my mother
Raped by my grandpa
When i told abandoned by my grandmother
Raped by my brother
Abandoned by everyone in my family but my dad
Went to court
Diagnosed with Pseudo seizures
Struggling with depression, anxiety, ptsd, insomnia, cutting  and other mental illness’s

 

You would thing my life wouldn’t get any worse.

About 3 month ago, I noticed a lump in my upper left abdomen, it hurt but i ignored it.

1 month ago the pain moved to my lower right abdomen.

In my right abdomen I had an ovarian cyst. Nothing bad right?

I told them about pain on my left side. They did a CT scan. And found a mass.

For the last […]

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I’m not fighting this any longer

by happilymarried
written by happilymarried

This is it, I’ve decided.  No more crying, nor more worrying, no more pain.  No more torturing myself with “what if I just gave it a bit more time.”

Yesterday I made my final decision.  I’ve made this decision many times before, but never could it be this final.  `This is because I am officially at my breaking point, and I told myself I’d at least wait until this came to go through with my suicide.  Now that I know what my breaking point feels like, I know better than to let anything stop me.

These are signs I told myself late yesterday, thank you for this […]

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Grieving

by roojay13
written by roojay13

      Something that I’ve learned recently is that when somebody very close to you passes away, the process of grieving that we human go through never really goes away and it can come back at any moment and smack you down hard.

 

     On July 24th 2008, the day after my 23rd birthday, my dad was diagnosed with ‘Small Cell Lung Cancer’ and it was devastating to my family.  He’d had a pain in his shoulder and when he had  gone to the doctors they suspected pneumonia.  With the confirmation of cancer, he was told they could not cure it but could prolong his […]

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Laying, sleeping, crying and cutting is all I want.

by Engeltje
written by Engeltje

I’m feeling so down. All I want to do is laying in my bed, sleeping, crying and cutting. I know I have to go to therapy every monday till friday from 9 am till 3 pm, but I really don’t want to do ANYTHING right now. I’m getting more scared and paranoid every day. Getting scared that someone is following me, or wants to steal my bag or purse. That kind of stupid things. I want to evade them, so I stay inside as much as possible. But the only thing I really want besides wanting to die, is just laying in my bed, sleeping, […]

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no energy

by youwouldntrealise
written by youwouldntrealise

i don’t eat anymore.

I am killing myself inside- i know, so stop telling me. Maybe this is what i want…
People say they’ve seen i have lost weight, this is what i aim for, so it must be helping.

Im not that stupid that i dont eat ALL DAY & ALL NIGHT, because all of my friends say that it just makes you have a bigger belly. So i have small meals, or starve myself until dinner (which i dont eat much of)…

I have had two cups of tea today to keep me awake because no food = no energy…

Slept in til midday as well because then its […]

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I won’t be missed…

by YetAnotherPunkRocker
written by YetAnotherPunkRocker

I wear a smile well, it’s my best accessory
I do it because I know it’s necessary
Behind the smile it’s revealed I’m dying inside
And it’s amazing the world buys all the lies.

Nobody will ever know
That the pain doesn’t let me go
It will haunt me until the day I die
I don’t want my tears to stain the world outside.

Trapped in a world I’m not good enough for
What am I still doing here?
Only in death will I find some of bliss
I know that I won’t be missed.

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Just waiting

by Nothin2Live4
written by Nothin2Live4

Longing to feel your lips kiss me goodbye
Buring with desire to feel you by my side
Please baby just hold me tight

Don’t let me go
Not till I’m gone
I never wanted to die alone

But here I lie with  you on my mind
Lying here just waiting to die
Needing you by my side

I guess this is goodbye
Farewell, so long
Just know, I’ll never let you go

 

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My story.

by paradiseishardtofind
written by paradiseishardtofind

Okay, well this is my story..

I’m quite young and I’m broken. I’m depressed and suicidal, clearly.. and i selfharm. I put on the fakest smile every single day. I’m miserable, I just want to be dead, to be free, to be happy. I have tried to take my own life many times, I don’t really have a massive story. But my depression has taken over me, my self eestem is horrible, I can’t leave the house without crying, I’m horribly fat and aswell so ugly. I hate leaving the house because I usually don’t have the nicest clothes because i’m not rich, my family struggles […]

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Starving myself to death

by allthesame
written by allthesame

It’s been at the back of my mind for a while. But now I’ve come to realise that it’s more than just suicidal thoughts. I’ve gotten to a point where I just have this really strong feeling that there’s something not right about me being alive. It’s not a result of bullying or any sort of trauma, it’s just a feeling, a really strong one. Over the past few weeks I’ve been putting myself through relatively dangerous “tests” to see whether I belong here or not. So far, I’ve survived them (clearly) but they’re not enough proof for me that I belong anymore. I just […]

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I don’t smoke

by smr1593
written by smr1593

I don’t smoke…I never have smoked…and I never will smoke…and yet today when I couldn’t handle anything anymore I bought a pack of cigarettes and smoked one…I didn’t enjoy it…but I didn’t not enjoy it…I don’t want to be a smoker…my stress made me do something that I don’t want to do…I am breaking more and more each day.

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What’s the Point in Living Anymore???

by painisme
written by painisme

My mom can get cancer again, and my dad left us without a home or money…I have no friends, my family wants me to go die…they all call me a demon…FUCK LIFE! I’m SICK of getting tortured and neglected by people who say they “love” me…WHATS THE MEANING OF LOVE??? LIFE??? I can’t live with this anymore…I”m DONE being the punching bag…I HAVE ATTEMPTED SUICIDE BEFORE…EVERYONE thinks I’m doing it for attention…EVEN MY THERIPIST…They tell me I’m a lying piece of shit…FUCK YOU! I’m only struggling! Why in the HELL would I fake this?! IT’S CALLED PAIN. My STEPDAD don’t give a FUCK about me…he […]

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