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Even somethings are to private to post on here .I hope everyone has a good day.
I’m so sorry for being a terrible person.
I will never be a doctor.
I would make an awful husband and father.
I regent putting everyone though hell.
Thank you Mom for always being there for me, please forgive me.
I’m sorry Katie for all the harassment I inflicted upon you and your friends.
I’m a coward for doing this.
I deserve nothing more then to be Satin’s *****
God let my condemnation provide justice for all my victims
I’m having a really good day.Today is my birthday and for the first time in forever, I feel a lot of love for myself. I’m not anxious today and I just feel content and pleased. But I was thinking about you guys here and I just wanted to let everyone know that I care about you guys and I love you guys. I write here when I’m the most sad, the most depressed, the most vulnerable. But I also want to write here when I’m happy. Thanks everyone for still being here – and for all the support here. <3
I never thought I’d feel sick to my stomach with anger and dread, not wanting to go in to work. This has been the first full year that I’ve worked through a job, so I’ve never experienced anything like this before. And it’s the same thing I’ve heard my mom complain about why she absolutely loathes working. It’s because there’s always got to be some insufferable ***** there who makes everyone miserable!
So here’s what happened. The boss has been gone over a month now because she’s moving to another state. She’s supposed to be back at some point to tie up loose ends before she’s […]
I hope everybody has safe and good night. And I hope to see you here towmorrow. 🙂
And Im happy to meet everyone on here .
Today was scary Realised there is acutely people on here that might not be here tomorrow.that is scary and I don’t know I din’t understand that earlier. To wiskered-fish I was terrified that she might be gone today so young and so tortured and lost along with everybody in this world SP including myslef.
before loging on to Sp today I been feel extremely low and suicidal the most I have years . yesterday I honstly thought I should have cut deeper and left scars showed them all how fucked up I am I should have tried to kill myslef months ago. I should have cut so […]
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I want to know what everyone’s beliefs are I think it’s a good topic and will keep us busy for a wile
I’m not here to push anything on anyone and I want us all to agree to disagree
do you believe in God or the Big Bang started it all ?
What do u think happens when we die ?
do u think we get reincarnated ?
Why are we here ?
Much sometimes. I have had such a crazy few weeks. I’ve been sick with a cold/flu/maybe viral pneumonia for two weeks now. All this coughing is a blast, I have had people get on my case about going to the doctor and my reply was, they can’t do anything this is the stuff EVERYONE else has and it’s viral. They can’t do shit to help me. I’m not wasting any money for them to tell me to take it easy and keep up on my fluids. Part of me wants it to kill me. If I don’t get better it’s going to turn into a […]
I need to try and sleep. I will return tomorrow evening. I look forward to messaging everyone again, new faces and old.
I hope everyone has a better night/morning than their last.
How can anyone identify their gender? I’ve actually asked a few people, but each answer seems so ridiculous.
“I’m a boy, because I have a dick,” completely disregards all transsexuals.
(My least favourite>) “I’m attracted to boys, so I’m a girl,” As a pansexual, that would mean I am all genders. It would disprove homosexuality, and just seems stupid in itself.
“I just relate more to girls. I can just tell,” Is only based off stereotypes. Girls relate to more typically feminine things, but if we switch it around, where makeup and shopping and dresses were all seen as masculine stereotypes, we would just switch […]
I am okay. I mean, I may want to die, but I am okay with that. I don’t care about much anymore. It’s hard because everyone wants to help, kind of. They don’t want you to kill yourself. So they tell you how you have so much to live for, how they would feel if you left, how nothing lasts forever. I know nothing lasts forever. I just don’t see a reason to keep going, but I do keep going because I don’t really have a choice. What I wish they would see is that there is pain even when I do keep going.
It really is kind of hard to look at everyone around you and wonder what your purpose in life is. It’s difficult when the people around you think that they are so flawed, but in reality, they are the very idea of literal perfection.
My friends think that they are ugly and unattractive, but they don’t even know how it feels like to be me. My friends think that they are dumb or stupid, but they haven’t even begun to see my half-dead brain cells. My friends think that they have no special qualities, the only thing my brain can even think about is freaking self-pity.
Well, it’s now Monday morning in the UK. Alarm is set to go off at 5am, and here I am typing this just after midnight. I’ll leave you with a couple of tunes which just about fit my mood at the moment…..
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/03/B001N8AFE4_disc_1_31_-_Worse_Things_Happen_At_Sea_Truck_Sessio.mp3
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/03/B001IQURW6_disc_1_08_-_Ghosts.mp3
Let’s see if I manage to get some sleep. Nighty night to everyone in SP land.
K
I don’t know if I’ve ever been quite this serious about it before. I’ve known I wanted to die since I can remember, even as a child. I’ve been toying with methods since I was twelve. I’ve come close out of anger and extreme sadness, apathy. But I don’t know if I’ve ever been this practical about it. It’s surreal. Like, okay, this is really it. You will cease to exist now. Everyone will still be there and you won’t be. You won’t know how everyone will get on.
It’s kind of like Andy Warhol said. He would rather watch every party he’s invited to on […]
isit just me I feel like I have no purpose being here on earth I feel alienated I’m just floating though life like a leaf in the wind no real goals just making a mess of things no real meaning to be a live I no life is what u make it but I really haven’t got the energy to keep fighting we all end up in the same place anyways rich poor Healthly etc isit because I’m depressed anxious and suicidal and il been researching it sounds like iv got depersonalisation is that why I’m floating not connected to my body or isit just […]
Today I sat in my room in silence staring at the floor realizing I have nothing , no one. I realized i don’t have anyone there for me when i need them, that my parents don’t realize how depressed i am, that no one asks how i am, no one checks on my mental health, that in the end everyone has their own person, my mom has my dad, aaron has eric, you have your ducklings and dad, danielle has her boyfriend and sister, everyone has someone but me, because in the end im the second chose like always. Yesterday i cried because i finally […]
Hi, everyone.
I’m feeling better than yesterday.
Migraine is gone, at least for now.
I can sit up without getting dizzy, and I can open my eyes without feeling like I’m going to throw up a small continent.
In fact, today I felt well enough to get out and actually DO a few things.
Yay for things.
How are the rest of you doing?
Ever just think really hard about suicide? Just to the point where you know exactly how you will do it down to ever little detail and imagine how it will play out afterwards. How everyone will react, how your funeral will go? Because I do.