After Thanksgiving and Black Friday, I could not have been more pissed off at all the wasted nuclear garbage I am seeing from my family, social media, ect. Before I go on, this is just me giving my honest thoughts on this whole thing I speak on no one else’s behalf. First I’ll talk about Thanksgiving and how we should all be thankful. I was with my family for Thanksgiving, quite a few people and we all talked about what we were thankful for. I could not give an appropriate response, I just said in a weary voice “I’m just thankful for the delicious food […]
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I live in a shitty town in an even shittier country. Every person my age (Im 22) either has a baby or 2 or 3…, heavy drug users (some street made drug called Whoonga), school dropout, etc etc.
I powered through my depression and finished high school the best student in my school and enrolled in medical school. Next year will be my final year. It has been tough. I have worked hard, powered through so many suicidal thoughts and had so many family problems.
People standing on the outside looking in think it has all been easy.
An entire family of supposed Christians started […]
Today i woke up from a horrible dream. To stay up to cry about the baby i lost. And now 3 years later i look over to the one that saved me from ending it all with her relentless love and dedication but as fast as it came it left. It kills me when you give up your life to move across state to make their family yours its depressing when your treated like shit by the person your even here for in the first place. Its fucked up how people lie and deceive you over and over like have you any remorse?? I dont […]
There isn’t a day that passes that I don’t think of ending my life. I continue to live for my family, although latley that reason doesn’t hold as much weight as it used to. I feel like all I am is a burden for them. I’ve tried my whole life to succeed and be a positive person in this world but it just seems I can’t catch a break. I’m on my 4th hip surgery and I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I’m in such a dark place and have been here before. I’m tired of the fight. […]
Barely could sleep last night, if anythig other than water enters my stomach it will come out right after, i’ve been hiding from my family as i don’t want them to see my teary eyes, it’s 10:30 pm it seems to get worst at night, the only place i feel safe is the living room i can’t even go to bed.
I am 18 and got kicked out by my mum the other day so I am staying at my dad’s.
I am the joke of the family, I have no job, left college and just want it all to end. The day I got kicked out I went back to cutting and can’t stop and emptied my pills.
I couldn’t do it but I wanted to so downed a dozen pills, I’m still here.
I think I am depressed and definitely have some issues and have felt this way for some time and just want my pathetic life to end.
Dreams better than reality? Why Dream is better than reality? Why is Dreams better than reality?
by niki
written by niki
Why Dreams is better than reality?
Why is Dream better than reality?
Why is dreams better than reality? Why dream is better than reality?
What puzzles me the most is human’s mind / human’s brains and imagination better than reality / human’s fantasy is better than reality.
for example:
just look at the movies, novels, comics, games, books, , animations (anime / manga), science fiction (sci-fi / sci fi), fantasy , like Star Wars, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Swords Art Online, MMORPG , Interstellar , The Matrix , Avengers , X-Men , etc etc, they are much more interesting, full […]
Well, it’s simple and maybe stupid but today’s my birthday. I’m 22. My friends and family forgot about it, like every year. My best friend and my (now ex) boyfriend totally forgot it too. I have been sad since September, 2014. Recently I have been even sadder. I have been considering suicide but I don’t want to make people feel sad, but I can’t do this anymore, I’m always crying. I’m scared of myself. There’s too much going on. I really want to die. Thanks for reading.
PS: I know this is stupid, but it’s not the main problem, I’m just too sensitive right now.
I. Am 22year old lady.i am so depressed that I dont want to live anymore.before I wanted to die soon but by natural death and was a no to suicide always but now I have no choice left.i am 5 6 tall 38kg..u can guess how thin I must be..and its irritating when always people tell how thin u are
ver and over again..and they keep on telling you will never get a guy if u don get healthy..and whatever I do I don’t put on weight.next thing is I am very silent I have seen many other silent people but I am tooooo silent than […]
It had been a really weird but happy (?) kind of day for me today.
I was actually planning to kill myself this evening. And today was supposed to be my last day on Earth. But then, idk maybe God is showing me signs to live.
I woke up this morning feeling really anxious. I had planned out what to do for today, finish suicide note, delete all social media accts., clean my room (finally!) and all those stuff to prepare for my departure.
I heard my mom and my cousin downstairs talking about some serious matters, a problem with my other cousin and her husband, our financial […]
What Do I Say Now? PART I
I don’t really know how to go about saying what I need to say to all of the people that I need to say something to. Honestly, how do you say that your sorry for killing yourself to all of those that you love and care about; when it was a truly selfish and self-centered thing to do, but it really was what you wanted at that moment and that you are still somewhat bitter about the fact that it was fucked with and you failed at because someone decided they knew what was in your best interest better […]
Death in glorious combat nothing in my mind can surpass the greatness of that so I’m one step closer everyday my future is a box or urn having a family and living paycheck to paycheck is overrated from what I’ve seen anyways
Before I found The SP page, I would write all my thoughts down in my “journal”. I use the term lightly because really it was a death diary. I wrote all my reasons I cut that day or why I was feeling really down that day and since I found this website, I haven’t been writing in it. So I was going through my journal today and I read this one message I wrote a few months back and I would like to post it on here. So here it goes.
“It is summer time and my mom wanted to take a family vacation. So on […]
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I’ve only attempted once, but no one knew. What happens when you attempted to end your suffering? Everything from how did you feel to know you weren’t successful, your hospital stay and mental health evaluation? And how your friends, family, co-workers and employer responded and acted in the days, weeks and months after. And your thoughts based on how everyone treated or continues to treat you from a suicide attempt. And did things get better or worse after? Thanks!
If you want to tell details (means of exit etc) you can, but not necessary.
I am here today to get some helpful info. First off let me say I’m not here for being talked outta anything. I’ve made my own decisions and don’t need judgment or to b talked outta doing it. Also no religion please. I’m an atheist and would not like to hear about what a fictional character says about what I wanna do. I’m severely bipolar with extreme ptsd and have lost literally everything that mattered to me. I could make a list but I won’t. I have very little family anymore and only a few possessions to my name. My decision is my own and […]
Hello everyone!!! I am really depressed. I have been thinking about killing myself for about a week now. Really it’s been going on for months, but lately I can’t help but think (why am I still here). Loft a week I wake up in deep emotional pain and physical pain and think “Why?!” Why am I trying to hold onto another horrible day.
I’m divorced, sad, lonley, and depressed. I don’t like it here anymore and I don’t see the point of living. I don’t have any family and so it really wouldn’t matter. Plus now that I’m divorced and alone, I’m not sure if I […]
i’m going to be so focking lonely on my bday, i already know it.
i don’t have any friends. i don’t have a bf. i’m not even close with a lot of my family. the family i am close with live in different states and can’t make it here. my parents will be getting drunk, like always.
it’s this saturday, two days away.
and she just opened a beer, so we’re not going shopping today, i guess.
why do ppl always flake out on me like that??
i kinda didn’t even want to celebrate, at first. i was feeling pressured to celebrate though. but now that i do want to […]
We can survive pain and lost, but how to survive injustice? What to do when all what you one day believed is pulverized in front of your eyes? What to do when you are being punish without a reason and you feel lost? Where to find that little thing, that miraculous thing that will make you wake up and try again?
One day after many years of fail intends and hardship you arrive to the place you want to live, then you are happy as you was not before in your whole life. You have a life, is not a perfect life, you have problems […]
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