For any metal lovers out there. Makes me feel there’s a kind of strength to be found in facing the hopelessness you feel.
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I feel like I don’t really feel anything anymore .
i used to be sad a lot and cry but now I feel nothing .
i don’t really feel excitement, happiness, sadness.
nothing.
i kind of do not care anymore .
I feel worthless and pointless.
I don’t understand why I’m always alone and why I always feel alone at least normal people can pretend
I just turned on my social media, and saw all the stuff about Paris, and the tragic attacks that are still being resolved.
It really makes me wonder sometimes, why does life always take the life of those who want to live. I mean, I really do feel sorry for the victims and their families, but I can’t help but wonder why when this kind of stuff happens, why does it not seem to affect those who are already suffering and wallowing in death. It just seems that it would save everyone some pain. People like us from having to take the blame and the final […]
Sitting alone
In this empty room
Crying tears from the pit of,my doom
I promised before that I would stop
But the pain of my heart just ignores that stop.
Holding that razor in my hand,
Is the only way I can feel safe
In this land.
Heartless
Worthless
Mantra I say in my head,
no one will love you,
She says.
Blood streams down
down my leg
weight is lifted.from.my head
Just cut,
Deeper and deeper until
Yes I can feel no more pain.
My eyes close and
there is no more room for me to stay
Anyone ever feel the urge to just walk into the mountains and see how far you can go until you collapse?
I was 21 years old when I visited a local Doctor who was well known as the guy to see if you wanted anabolic steroids. I explained to him how I had been training and trying to change my body as I had no confidence in the way I looked. I explained how I was not confident enough to ever have a relationship or go on a date. He asked lots of questions and I admitted to having panic attacks when I would go out to clubs with friends on a Friday or Saturday night. I felt […]
I’m almost 17 now. Yay for me, I guess. The only thing I can possibly feel proud about is the fact that I’ve made it this far, because honestly I didn’t think I would reach 17. Or maybe I did, but I didn’t want to; I’m too coward to let go off everything.
Hooray for another year in which I accomplished absolutely nothing worthy.
Hooray for another year of constant failures and hollow feelings.
Hooray for another year in which I lost more people whom I loved.
Hooray for me…
I’ve been working for 6 hours . And my feet are killing me. But I feel like work is the only thing that occupies my mind .
I don’t think about anything else when I’m working . But I feel like I work so much, I don’t enjoy life . It’s a one one situation. Either work and hate life and not have any enjoyment, or don’t work and sit at home in my bed and sulk . They both kind of suck. I also feel a lot sympathy for people who work for a shitty ass amount of money and try to live off […]
I really need some help, i know i posted last night, i dont feel any better, is anyone there?
I have school today, and I really don’t want to go. I feel like complete shit this morning. It’s taking all of my energy to move, I’m forcing myself to type this out. I just feel… empty. I’ve always been terrified of death, saying that I’d never kill myself because I don’t want to die, but lately the thought of killing myself and writing out suicide notes has popped up frequently. I’d still never do it, too scared and like I said, terrified of death, but it’s affecting how I act and think. I was doing fine, getting better, but a few months ago I […]
I always feel like there is something missing .
Ive felt like this since I was like 11.
One day my dad told me my mom had a miscarriage with another child .. My twin. I survived though .
My twin was supposed to be identical. I feel like her being gone is why I feel like a part of me is missing. I don’t know what to do about this .
Shell never be back. So I feel like there isn’t a solution to not feeling this emptiness inside me .
Even when I find someone I really care about or love , they even do not fill up […]
…but this song makes me feel so… clean-sad. i can just relate. so yeah.
“it takes getting everything you ever wanted, and then losing it, to know what true freedom is…”
“they have no idea what it’s like to seek safety in other people…”
and i don’t even care if that sounds dumb. i can’t lie about how i feel, life was just better when i was a kid. i didn’t have the best childhood, but i wasn’t abused and at least i wasn’t depressed. i still had a capacity for fun and adventure, whereas now it takes a herculean amount of strength to face each day, and i feel ‘blah’ about everything. nothing is fun anymore. the years 2002-2007 stand out for me, i was young enough to still have a rosy view of the world. things went south after 08, 2009-10 was kind of the point of […]
I feel like I do better without my pills. So, I’m probably just gonna not take them. I don’t know how to feel about things. I feel happy and irritated at the same time. I think I’m just tired of things being so complicated
This is a little rant, and a bit of a description of how i imagine my mind to be. Sorry if it makes no sense, but it brings me some odd little comfort to see these thoughts exist somewhere outside my own head.
The world drifts by, just outside of my grasp. The soft floating bubbles of nothingness and confusion occlude my vision. I float in the dense waters of death, guided by the far away light of hope and life. Yet as I reach for it and feel it’s warmth, I shrink within myself. Withdraw in fear and uncertainty. Feel the cold tendrils of death tighten […]
I just need to know… Is it just me who likes running my fingers over my cutting scars? Good Lord I sound morbid, but I just gotta know if any of you out there feel the same way.
It’s weird now- I read through some of the self harm comments and I (sometimes) just want to jump up and go to town with my exacto knife. Other times, I’m totally cool with it…
It’s not normal to be sadistically happy about cutting into your own flesh… of course it’s not normal- If i was normal, I wouldn’t be here with all of my lovelies 🙂
Sorry about this […]
I don’t know if I love you anymore. I mean, I do love you, but I don’t know if I love you like I used to. After four years together, maybe we’re just in a rut or routine. I enjoy doing things with you–going places, playing games, conversing, but I don’t feel romantically drawn to you anymore. I also don’t feel drawn to anyone else though either. I still love you as a person, but not as a lover most of the time. I don’t know if you’re holding back romantically to let me deal with my issues, or because you’re feeling the same. I just […]
My husband of four year hates me..
He has lost all of his patient.. He’s very short and snappy with his words..
Little things about me that used to not bother him make him go off
We can never have non-casual conversations anymore..
He raises his voice more often than ever..
His kiss on a cheek or him saying love you is just a daily routine but not out of his heart..
Now he only cuddles, hugs, puts his arm around me, kisses, or is sweet when he wants sex…
I feel like being stuck at a bottom of a pool but don’t know how to swim…
I know our marriage is ending, […]