Nobody needs me. Sure my parents might love me. Atleast thats how its supposed to be. My mom and i used to be bestfriends. Now she makes fun of me. How i look or even things i do. Yeah, i laugh along with her but thats how good i am about hiding things. Its too much now. Ive told her that it hurts my feelings. You know what her reaction was? She laughed. I had a serious face. And she didn’t give a shit. I’ve done nothing to deserve this. I’m No bully. I’m that girl that if you hit her or annoy me. I […]
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My mother’s been out of the house for 2 years. She use to drink every second of her life. She’d be passed out 99.9% of the time i saw her. My brother was just cleaning her old room and found 3 of her empty vodka bottles. You have no idea how much i want to find her and punch her. She ruined my life. I have no feelings towards her.
I know I keep posting…basically I guess I am trying to get my thoughts,feelings out before I die. I dont want to be saved,Im too far gone at this point. I think as I draw closer to the end I just need to purge this poison as much as possible….so bear with me. Or dont,I guess no one needs to read this. Dont necessarily need a reply.
Had another huge fight with BF on phone last night..still refuses to come back home,now trying to say he wants to talk to my therapist first. he keeps threatening to stay down there and never come back. His goddamn […]
Whoever is reading this im grateful you found this, im here for you, ears, eyes, typing etc… Whatever you need help with.
http://expressyourthoughtslove.blogspot.co.uk/
I new here but I’d love to help anyone out there, if anyone needs an ear, I’ve create a blog on blogger, if people want to speak about anything from their favourite song or a new love to the love of food. I wanted to create a place for people to express what they want said.
Love, family, school, work, exams, stress, life, emotions, yourself, feelings, issues … i know it all, im here if you need anything,
I struggle myself. I fall. I try my utter hardest survive, because […]
Every night I hope that the next day will be better, that the girls who think they are popular will back off and leave me alone, that they will except me for who I am. But no, they keep coming back with meaner responses, and meaner comments. They tell me to go kill myself, they tell me that I will never be loved. One of them acted like she was my friend, she found out who I had feelings for and told everyone and anyone. They are on my soccer team, I recently got into a fight with one of them, I won, but […]
have you already chosen a date ?
april 15th or 16th for me ..
my mom (04/06) and cousin (04/11) birthdays are coming up and I don’t want to fuck it up for them .. after the 11th, I’ll have ran out of concern for people feelings .. they’re grown enough to grasp I cannot contribute to their well-being when I’m dead inside and have become very negative .. it’s funny because if I had a child, I’m not sure I’d have considered suicide as an option till (s)he’s at least 20 .. anyway: death, life, politics, religion, fuck all of it
give me death or […]
Hi. This is my first time ever posting to this site or anything like this site. I found this site doing research for my suicide, but I’ve come back multiple times just to read the posts because it seems that there are people here I can identify with.
So I suppose that I should tell my suicide story? I will try, but it’s not much of a story. It’s nothing compared to some of the things I read here, or see and hear at school. I know I have no right to feel the way I do, but that knowledge doesn’t change what I feel, it […]
Daily I think about suicide, but I don’t act on it. It’s just that, combined with school, discovering my sexuality, my appearance and family problems, I don’t know what else to do. Every time I think about this, I think I’m being irrational, but I still can’t help the urge to do it. One thing that really led me to this was discovering I was sexually attracted to girls. Being a girl myself, I find this very hard to understand, due to the fact that I’ve had crushes on guys in the past.
When I think back on it now, sometimes I wonder whether this was […]
You cheated on me for another guy, when I thought we were always happy.
You look at me with your cold eyes, and tell me i’m just a friend
2 years long our relationship, it means nothing to you.
You tell me it was because I didn’t treat you right, that’s why you left me.
Can’t you just take the blame? Can’t you see how much I’m hurting?
Can’t you tell me that you’re not a good girl? So my image of you can finally shatter?
I’m holding onto our good memories, you made me so happy
You were so beautiful and so cute, I considered myself lucky
Finally, I said someone to […]
Why is it so hard for me to be happy?
Why is it so hard for my family to understand me?
Why do guys just want to use me?
Why do i always feel so alone?
Why do I sleep around just to feel wanted?
Why can’t i find true love?
Why am I addicted to cutting?
Why do i still have these suicide thoughts?
I wish I had these amswers. People think I’m happy, when truthfully I’m dying inside.
My life is on track and I’m working, have a wonderful fiance but still feel alone. I have no one to share these feelings with, […]
It’s been two days since my phone has lit up with your name.
It’s been two days since I haven’t talked about my feelings.
It’s been two days since I felt okay.
It’s been two days since I’ve smiled.
It’s been two days since you’ve looked at me.
It’s been two days since I last cut.
It’s been two days since I last cared about paying attention in school.
It’s been two days of endless crying.
It’s been two days since you left me.
It’s been two days that my world has felt out of wack.
It’s been two days too long.
My name is Jessica. I am 13 years old and I’m a very sad person. I’ve hurt loved ones, been hurt, and been abandon by the only people I’ve trusted.
When I was 6, my parents split up. It was a very hard time for my brother and I. He was only 8. I don’t really remember much, just one day I came home from school and my father told me that if he and my mom got into one more fight, he was leaving us. The following day, he kept his word. They worked out custody and all that, and I lived with my mom […]
I love her with all my heart. But I hate her for doing this to me. I love her for being honest about her feelings. But I hate her for not having those feelings. I hate myself for hating her. I hate myself for loving her.
Sometimes I think I’d be better off if I’d never looked at her a second time. It’s funny how that single act of going up to her and starting a conversation, has led me to where I am now. Sometimes I think I’d be better off if we’d never met, but then I wouldn’t have enjoyed the WONDERFUL time we […]
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
The blood flows from my arms
You cry and tell my that I need to stop
You don’t understand.
This is what keeps me alive.
This proves I’m still human deep down.
This shows me I can still bleed, that I can still feel.
The razor is my best friend now.
He never judges.
He’s there when I need him.
He let’s me take my feelings out.
It’s not healthy it’s what makes you right.
This makes me right.
No matter how sick and twisted it sounds, its what keeps me sane.
If the price to pay is a little blood and […]
I am a fifteen year old girl who hates her apperance who would Love to just finally kill herself and get life over with. I am good at hiding my emotions and i am just so so so tired of going on.
i know people lifes are horribly bad but mine is no walk in the park either. My mom sees what she wants my two older sister care but do they care enough? my dad didnt even want me he wanted my second oldest sister. I have been trying to kill myself since 5th grade. this year i was baker acted twice and i […]
In the darkness you see a light
A gun and a single shot is in sight.
Both hands for the table you reach
You smile and think of that day at the beach.
You load the gun and give it a spin
*Click* it seems this time you win.
You on the table your blinking phone
along with that beautiful and subtle tone.
You open the phone and there it reads,
“You are a good friend Zeke, indeed.”
But your feelings for her are infinitely more
Even when you look down the center of this bore.
Your purpose in life seems to be complete
To be a friend to someone that is joyful and sweet.
You give it a […]
I feel so screwed up, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve had a cutting problem for years now, I can’t get a hold of it. I recently started dating someone and I still can’t stop. It just upsets him, I get patronized for it. Whenever I’m in a situation where I have no one to talk to and I have overwhelming emotions, it’s always what I turn to. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like I can’t take it anymore. I feel like a burden talking about my feelings, they must sound so trivial and whiny. If I keep it […]
I am trying to hold on but don’t know why. My mom died when I was 9, my dad has never really been in my life & raised by my grandma & grandpa, they both passed a long time ago. I literally have no family & 4 years ago my life changed forever. It had been 11 years together and was so in love when I found my ex-husband. I was married once before and had one son, but we were too young and I thought thats was love was until I met my ex. He raised my son as his own and really gave […]
I’m not here to preach, I’m not here to tell you everything is going to be the same as it was, I’m not here to persuade you against the decisions you have already made, but maybe just maybe I can make you feel better about things. Even if it is only temporary.
Suicidal thoughts and tendencies are not considered normal in the mental health world, but there’s 7 billion people on this planet and over half will at some point feel the way you do now. I know your eyes are starting to roll into your head and that urge to tell yourself ‘yeah this guy […]