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When I’m Alone

by TheStranger17 8/5/2014

written by TheStranger17

Being alone for me, can be good or bad. It’s never really either, there is peace in being alone sometimes, but other times… I’d do anything for someone to be near me.

It’s weird, craving company, for me anyway. I never really was a social kid – I’ve said before I found it difficult to fit in and I was never really bothered about going out too much. But I don’t know, something changed in secondary school; I found myself wanting to be… accepted? Wanted? Included?

I changed my habits I guess – I stopped reading and writing so much fanfiction, stopped holing myself in my room […]

8/5/2014 2 comments

uh

by diplomatic 8/4/2014

written by diplomatic

i dont know how to start this off but i dont know anymore, it feels like my life is falling apart and i cant do anything about it, even though its only summer, im happy about school because im gonna really try super hard this time, in grade 9 i passed most of my classes with 51s

fuck

and i didnt even pass math in summer school but thats not whats making me feel bad, its about the fact that i have no friends anymore and we used to be really close and im sure all of my internet friends hate me too

they shut me out, do you […]

8/4/2014 2 comments

I’m here

by emmafan6656 8/4/2014

written by emmafan6656

I’ve spent the last 5 years dealing with depression. My mom never tried to help me and it seemed like the only person who cared was my older brother. He was the one who always drove me to therapy and he was the one who took me to the hospital after I tried to kill myself. After I moved away from him to live with my grandmother I couldn’t find anyone who cared. In the last 2 years since I’ve moved I have tried to kill myself 3 times. I realized by the third time there was some reason I was failing and I figured […]

8/4/2014 1 comment

Just a story that doesn’t matter

by TheStranger17 8/4/2014

written by TheStranger17

You know, I haven’t had a bad life. Really, in perspective, retrospect, looking back… other people have worse problems than me. What I’m going through.. It’s bearable. You know, you bear it because you have to? But at the same time, it feels like you are going down an endless road of shite and it just keeps going and going like a frikken Duracell battery.

I have a pretty decent set of parents, I love them and I wouldn’t change them for the world – well, besides the fact that they are overweight and I don’t want to lose them before I have children, or even […]

8/4/2014 3 comments

holding on by a thread

by helpmelive90 8/4/2014

written by helpmelive90

I’m not sure where to begin, other than to say my life has completely spiraled out of control. And I am beginning to feel too weak to bear this on my own. I have a child and I am trying to keep it together for her, but when u have feelings of despair it is so so hard. Right now I am in therapy and will be seeing my doctor soon to possibly prescribe me for anti depressants. I am taking steps in all the right directions to try and get better. I just don’t know if this is even working. My daughters father, whom […]

8/4/2014 3 comments

Help Me

by rich51bruhh 8/3/2014

written by rich51bruhh

I have prevented my self from preparing for my death many times but today it feels stronger. I feel like getting up at this very moment and getting what i plan on using to end myself. I feel sad that this night (or shall I say early morning) could be the moment I final do it. Each time I have these thoughts of preparation I always look online for a place to talk to someone just to know someone is there. I have lost so many friends and just want someone to know what I have been feeling and what I plan to do just […]

8/3/2014 1 comment

Who believes in God?

by Infectious208 8/1/2014

written by Infectious208

I feel like I’m being tested. A situation that anyone else would feel as normal. That in any other case in my life would be normal now feels like its a test from God. I don’t know if I even believe in God. I don’t know if Karma or any of that exist yet im so lost in with everything right now that I cant get the thought out of my head. I have a road in front of me that if it is a test, I will fail and lose any and all hope of reconciliation, yet I don’t even know if that reconciliation […]

8/1/2014 82 comments

Why wont you listen?

by hmnwth 8/1/2014

written by hmnwth

You don’t have to read if you’re not interested. I’m just ranting. I have a friend that I cherish and care for. She has been supporting me and helping me through. I have a lot of problems in life although I’m just 15, it’s a long story so maybe I’ll write more about it soon. But recently I had a fight with her. I relied on her so much that I didn’t realize how much she was hurting. I tried to be nice, I tried to help. But it feels like she wouldn’t let me. She never tell me her problems and I […]

8/1/2014 4 comments

In a corner

by depressednihilist95 7/31/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I have no creative outlet or any way to express myself because nobody wants to hear my doom and gloom, so I just bottle everything up and become more jaded each day. There’s nothing to look forward to but all that is dead and lifeless, like video games or computers. I’m not looking forward to college because I’m already tired of living a life that is all about money, and I don’t want a relationship because all of my experiences have been weak and disappointing, and I’m not too fond of human nature anyways. It feels like I will have to choose suicide as an […]

7/31/2014 4 comments

I want to disappear.

by strawberryshampoo 7/31/2014

written by strawberryshampoo

I feel so selfish for even feeling this way. My life isn’t even bad, but I feel so utterly lost and confused about everything. I feel like no matter how hard I try the people around me aren’t happy with me. I feel like I’m not allowed to think or feel or act how I want, that my parents and uncle and boyfriend want to control those things for me.

I constantly think about how I wish I could crawl under a giant rock and just disappear. Because I’m too cowardly for suicide, and anyway I don’t have access to the things I want to use […]

7/31/2014 5 comments

Haunting Nightmares

by Halfmoon 7/31/2014

written by Halfmoon

I woke up at 3:30 am jolted out of a sleep. All I could see was my boyfriend stabbing himself in the arms, blood splatter, tears rolling down his face. All of this because he loves me . A bad fight because I don’t trust him– a recovering drug addict who promised rehab but bailed and never went. I feel guilty, helpless. Was told to practice tough love and to cut the codependent role. The codependent in me feels responsible for what he did. The tough-love person feels manipulated. Regardless of those two opposing forces, he entirely blames me for driving him to kill […]

7/31/2014 3 comments

Pointless

by itstilltoday 7/31/2014

written by itstilltoday

maybe it’s just me, it seems like more and more I’m thinking of how I could kill myself, each passing hour is another hour of pain. sometimes I don’t even know what exactly depressed about, I just know I am. I found this site by mistake by searching ‘how to commit suicide painlessly,’ but apparently that’s impossible. I’ve thought about shooting myself but the odds of actually dyeing are slim; and I just cant bring myself to it. I have also thought about cutting it’s supposed to help. right? I just don’t know what to do anymore, it feels like I’m literally living just for […]

7/31/2014 1 comment

Am I the only one?

by RagingPeace 7/31/2014

written by RagingPeace

Is anyone out there in the same boat as me?

26 years old

I’m unemployed now for about 1.5 years

I can’t afford the repayments on my unit

I’m fat

I’m ugly

I’ve not a cent to my name

Oh, yes, and I don’t have a drivers licence

I’d just like to know if there is anyone going through the same thing. I guess it feels good to know you are not alone. I don’t know.

7/31/2014 2 comments

I Was Robbed at Gunpoint Last Night

by MoreThanMyThoughts 7/30/2014

written by MoreThanMyThoughts

I just need someone to talk to… I’m clinically depressed / recovering suicidal, and everything feels terrible now.

More info in the comments.

7/30/2014 13 comments

Just a bland rant

by maggiemac 7/30/2014

written by maggiemac

I’m a basic white girl who cuts herself. Or rather, I did. Ever since I got put on zoloft in January after my parents found out I sh’d, my life has steadily improved and I have strengthened my relationships with friends and even my family. I no longer wallow in my own sadness or make suicide plans.

I miss it. I miss being depressed so much. I don’t know why; I never got any special attention while I was down in the dumps and I barely had any friends. I consider myself happiest when I’m unhappy. It’s stupid and ridiculous and feels selfish. But I just […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

Just a thought

by Jaye 7/29/2014

written by Jaye

I haven’t posted on here in a while so thought I’d just give an update in the hopes it will maybe help others.

If you’ve read any of my other posts, you’ll know I was in a pretty bad way. I stopped sleeping and eating. I was in constant physical pain, had lost control of my bodily functions, was having hour-long panic attacks and constantly crying. I couldn’t go outside, couldn’t make phonecalls, could barely get out of bed. I would have meltdowns in public, screaming; had to have midnight trips to several hospitals. I was permanently shaking and on a massive cocktail of drugs […]

7/29/2014 0 comment

by Adderallslits 7/29/2014

written by Adderallslits

So I haven’t slept anything tonight either. It seems it has become somewhat an habit of mine, not sleeping that is. My brain’s a gooey mess, and I find myself at the edge of sanity yet again.

I don’t know what’s worse, living in this blurry world of mine in a zombie like state, wasting time, almost not existing… Feeling this emptyness… It’s funny… No Mather how shit everything feels, if you take away one of the human essentials it actually gets worse. I just miss seeing things clearly, ya know? Sleeplessness is fogging up my fucked up mind and I feel so powerless.

but as I […]

7/29/2014 9 comments

I hate who I am and don’t see a way out

by LilyBeth 7/29/2014

written by LilyBeth

There’s no easier way to sum it up than just simply: I hate who I am and what I’ve made of my life.
At 24 I am a nothing. I didn’t used to be this way.

A [usually in denial] alcoholic, I’ve become alienated from many close friends who I just feel ashamed to be around. I do nothing but ruin nights out and become a burden on everyone. I’ve tried so hard to stop, but it always comes undone. I’ve hit rock bottom so many times, you’d think I’d learn by now, but it still feels like every time will turn out differently and I’ll be better.

An […]

7/29/2014 4 comments

Catch 22

by Disenchanted7 7/28/2014

written by Disenchanted7

I have discovered that I don’t want to die, I want to live but just can’t bear the reality I’m faced with (having no redeeming qualities and having no place in this world). I didn’t understand what it actually meant to die and that scares the living shit out of me. To think how close I came to jumping from a skyscraper and being sucked into a vacuum to never feel or experience anything ever again… it’s hard to believe it’s what I wanted. It was only in coming to close to death that saved my life. But my life is still shattered and I […]

7/28/2014 1 comment

Waking Up

by AarinaDaae 7/27/2014

written by AarinaDaae

So, my mother posted an image on my facebook wall that went along the lines of, “We need to teach our daughters the difference between a man that controls you, and a man that looks out for her best interests, etc. etc.” It went on for several lines of teaching daughters the difference between this and that. Aside from the multitude of social issues the image presents, my response to the image was, “How about I just focus on my career and not put my self-worth into another human being. How about I measure my life and worth in accomplishments? Problem solved.”

She retorted with how […]

7/27/2014 12 comments

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