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Loser-dom

by anthropophobia 5/25/2016

written by anthropophobia

I am an addict, and I’ve attempted suicide several times. I haven’t been dependent on my parents in years, but because of my rather dramatic and reckless lifestyle they have made gracious gestures to assist me in getting better. This assistance comes with a heavy price, and as a result really leaves me in a state of inner turmoil with anger directed at people who believe they have my best interest in mind.

I have been on an annual cycle for the past few years, and it seems like understandably enough everyone is getting sick of it. Seems like my family doesn’t know what to […]

5/25/2016 1 comment

My Story

by jaynecobb 2/9/2016

written by jaynecobb

I was first diagnosed with depression over 20 years ago. Life has been up and down since then. I’ve had some fun, but I’ve often felt isolated and alone. I’ve had social anxiety that has made making friends difficult. After college I married the first the first person who showed an interest, which was a bad idea. She turned out to be abusive and had her own mental health issues. Eventually she moved out and we divorced.

After that relationship, I eventually met someone else who is kind, but unable to hold down a job. My life has been going down hill since the relationship began […]

2/9/2016 22 comments

I am a screw up and trying makes it worse

by Lost1111 1/13/2016

written by Lost1111

This is my first post and I am in a horrible place. I tapered off all of my psych medications in 2014-2015 and am still in Post Acute Withdrawal. On top of that, I’m just a messed up person and I have been all of my life. I just need to vent, if that’s okay.

I am clueless at how to function in any aspect of life. My taxes are messed up, which is a huge trigger for me right now. I inadvertently have messed up my taxes in different ways for years now. One year I forgot income because my financial advisor switched companies and […]

1/13/2016 9 comments

Deadline

by Salesman 12/15/2015

written by Salesman

Last day to get obamacare. I’m uninsured right now and not sure if I should get it. I want to get diagnosed and maybe treated but it costs me 395 a month. I think my family’s financial welfare is more important than my mental welfare. What do you guys think? Thats a lot of money a month. Might cost me less just to pay the doctor cash.

12/15/2015 3 comments

whomp whomp

by jasal 12/14/2015

written by jasal

Apparently I post on this site every 6 or so months when my suicidal ideation hits an all-time high. Funny how that coincides with the schedule for final exams. Today I actually wrote down a step-by-step checklist for everything I need to do in order to kill myself, including all of the necessary preparations regarding my belongings and funeral arrangements. The list is remarkably coherent and logical despite the fact that I wrote it during an intensely hysteric episode.

I already tried to stop myself from ideating and plotting. I read those “X Reasons Not To Kill Yourself” lists and the like, but I found it […]

12/14/2015 1 comment

Strange medical condition – Social outcast

by witheringdaisies 11/13/2015

written by witheringdaisies

Hello. I’m 19 years old. Female. College student. Living with my mom. I just turned 19 last month. People always tell me that I’m young and I have a whole life ahead of me, and I have so much more to achieve. Well, that’s true, but how could I continue living with this weird sickness that causes everyone to avoid me?

It’s not the physical pain that kills me, it’s the emotional pain brought by it. To be honest, I’m embarrassed to even talk about it to my closest friends. I’ve been on this medical forum and realize there are others like me, and […]

11/13/2015 5 comments

My best friend

by tjsII1988 8/23/2015

written by tjsII1988

I am nearing my point in which I will be ready to end it. Long story short I am a miserable dissapointment and life would be better for all that I loved if I were gone. I have made my arrangements and have financial taken care of (almost) for my children and girlfriend/fiance. No one knows that I am on my way out,and I would like to keep it that way. My question is,would it be selfish of me to make it so my best friend is the one who discovers my body? I would have documentation for him to read following his discovery,an I […]

8/23/2015 3 comments

What’s the point.

by Chelseamx 8/4/2015

written by Chelseamx

Well, I finally got it. I received financial aid and I can go to school now. I felt happy for a few hours, but then I started thinking again. Thinking about what I actually want to do with my life and the truth is I don’t want to do anything with my life. So why go to school? I actually love school because I can learn new things and not think about my pathetic life, but what’s the point. I don’t want to be here anymore. Why should I go to school and pay thousands of dollars to get a big paying job when all […]

8/4/2015 2 comments

Advice on becoming financially independent?

by teana 8/2/2015

written by teana

I’m 23 years old and I have one year of college left. I am getting a double major in two major arts fields that probably won’t get me a job. I have absolutely no money and am completely dependent on my parents; living at home right now while I take classes. I can’t stand being dependent on them and constantly feeling like I “owe” them. They still try to control me in many ways. It didn’t bother me until this summer but now it’s really getting on me…I feel like I am suffocating. I am already depressed and the fact that I don’t even own […]

8/2/2015 2 comments

Take my life cause I’m poor

by ogaihT 6/20/2015

written by ogaihT

I was born in a undeveloped country in South America called Brasil. When I was a child my family faced lots of difficulties but my mom said that I could win in life if I was a great student. I have studied a lot and I could enter in a prestigious public university in Brasil. In 2013, I earned an exchange course in Australia sponsored by the Brazilian government, and there in Australia I met the love of my life. A wonderful Chinese girl that gave me happiness and we truly love each other until today.

However, my sponsor finished last year and I had to […]

6/20/2015 5 comments

Forgotten Part 2

by rich51bruhh 6/19/2015

written by rich51bruhh

In the 23rd of August, 2013; I made my very first post on this website entitled Forgotten. The post was about how I had been dealing with depression due to relocation, loneliness, a growing anti-social behavior, and the loss of many friends in my hometown. I moved quite far from my home and lost many friends and dealt with depression for the past couple years. Now I have just been given news that I might have to relocate once again… to my hometown. At first I didn’t take my mother serious and said, “I would love to move back! Moving back wouldn’t be a problem!” […]

6/19/2015 0 comment

Feels like I am running out of options and I am

by Kaylynx 6/12/2015

written by Kaylynx

I’ve never posted anything like this before. I have been battling depression for what seems like forever. Feels like I am dragging a boat anchor around everyday all day. I lost a good job, (my only means of financial support), sold my car to make my rent payments etc. Looks like i will be evicted in 2 weeks. Financially I am out if options. Not sure where to go or what to do. I’ve previously sought help and was prescribed med but can no longer afford the therapy. I feel like I am done. Exhausted and wrecked. […]

6/12/2015 1 comment

Time isn’t linear

by kobainkirk 3/17/2015

written by kobainkirk

Of late i’ve felt as if i’m slowing down and time is speeding up. Every day i seem to take longer and longer to complete my daily tasks. Each day i feel as though my energy is diminishing. I’ve lurked on this site for a while, this is my first post here.

My first thoughts of suicide were when i was 14, i’m 24 now. A decade of wanting to die, wishing for it but never really acting on it. I’d keep coming up with plans and then never execute them. Will i ever do it? I don’t know. I feel like i’ve been here a […]

3/17/2015 4 comments

Older man self destructing towards suicide

by dave22 2/2/2015

written by dave22

3 years ago some bad financial advice resulted in me losing $200k, and subsequent events increased this to virtually $1.5m. I am now 60 years old and was heading for a comfortable retirement, but these events have decimated my plans and left me an anxious wreck unable to work and increasingly depressed. I look back on my life as a doctor with self loathing and with the bitter taste of guilt I have seen myself steadily deteriorate over the past 2 years. Although previously a workaholic national level triathlete, I have now become a lonely slob, sitting around all day on the computer or ruminating […]

2/2/2015 13 comments

I am done

by lostfather 1/14/2015

written by lostfather

I have two ex-wives that I am current with all my child support and medical support. I try to have visitation with my children and would be declined and never got any help from the courts. They have made false allegations numerous times that has cost me to have financial problems at $25,000 a pop it quickly drained everything I had. I can’t see my kids false allegations have me in court and if I lose I go to prison. I was told if I get sent to prison I would be raped and murdered within two weeks and my children would get nothing. If […]

1/14/2015 4 comments

Best wishes

by ackerman 12/29/2014

written by ackerman

It’s important to acknowledge that every person’s justification for suicide is valid and should be respected, whether your suicidal tendencies are a product of an abusive environment, deprivation of vital needs (such as social needs, romantic needs or the lack of care and appreciation from others), or financial complications, physical health impediments and decline, or even if your boyfriend/girlfriend/partner has left you or you stubbed your toe and that’s thrown you over the edge, every reason is valid. Suicide is entirely subjective and is construed in a different way by each individual. Humans are innately logical creatures, the only deviation from this is decided by […]

12/29/2014 4 comments

I didn’t know you wanted to be a stewardess

by IllSendForMyThings 9/30/2014

written by IllSendForMyThings

I heard some cockamamy stuff about how we are babies in heaven, and pick our parents. NO WAY! I was born in 1957 of an adulturous union between my 16 yo mother, and my married 26 year old father. She tried to “mold” me into perfection to make up for her mistake. When I was 19 months old she married a man 26 years her seniir, who she discoveredto be a pedophile BEFORE she married him. Fill in the blank. Fortunately, he died when I was 10. When I was 15 she finally married dear old pop. Then over the course of the next 7 […]

9/30/2014 4 comments

my story

by midobarca 8/20/2014

written by midobarca

One day i was thinking to kill myself because i was feeling so bad.

I had a failure love story ,she is engaged now.One day was attending her sister’s wedding then i saw her dancing with her fiance .. i felt so sad 🙁 when i saw them.these days my father was facing problems in his work and his financial situation wasn’t good.I’m a student and i don’t have a job to help him.I felt like a loser in this life i lost my girl and i can’t help my father.I was feeling i’m useless so i had an idea to stop my suffering it was […]

8/20/2014 0 comment

Mother’s words getting more n more anxious by the day…

by iRuiz55 8/4/2014

written by iRuiz55

I mean we’ve never really been financially stable it seems with a father who doesn’t seem to give a shit about how he spends his money then again he was raised on a farm so I’m sure its hard for him to adopt to life here but it sure would help if he at least acted to give a fuck about us at all -_-… anyways yes Money always seems to be a problem n My Mom is always stressing about it she works so hard n we still never have enough she has these talks with Me about what I should do with My […]

8/4/2014 13 comments

My little fuzzy ball of crazy

by KnightKat-369 6/25/2014

written by KnightKat-369

Ok, a few years out of high school I decided that I was ready to die. Things weren’t bad, I had a job that put a little money in my pocket, I had a great car and I was dating a girl who was fun to be with, but still I was just ready to go. Then I meet a new girl that I fell in love with. I figured she wouldn’t stay with me for to long, there was a bit of an age gap between us. So I figured I would ride it out and see how I felt when she finally moved […]

6/25/2014 2 comments

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