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19 things I learned by 19

by dead 7/13/2015

written by dead

1. You should not have to rip yourself into pieces in order to keep others whole; don’t set yourself on fire to keep others warm

2. Even the smallest violin plays a sweeter sound than the worlds loudest explosion

3. Everything happens for a reason/everything is happening just as it should

4. Friends can break your heart too

5. Believe in yourself. You can achieve anything you set your mind to

6. Only you can decide your worth, not others ***** Don’t compromise yourself in order to impress someone else

7. Never say no to adventure or you’ll lead a very dull life

8. Remember who’s been there for you from the […]

7/13/2015 5 comments

what makes one worthy?

by stormfall 7/12/2015

written by stormfall

What is it that makes some people worth loving or caring for or forgiving and others not? What makes some people entitled to happiness peace joy love and others not? Why do some good people find only pain and others less good find contentment? Is there no logic in this world? Is logic the answer? Is there justice? Where is the line between justice and vengence? Without such a line there can be no redemption. Is there redemption? Do people change? Is hope a real thing or just a way of framing denial of ones fate. Sorry to ramble but as i wrestle with my […]

7/12/2015 2 comments

The Perks Of Being Elizabeth.

by ThePerksOfBeingMe 7/12/2015

written by ThePerksOfBeingMe

Hey Suicide Project!

I’m new to the site and I’m kind of hoping that keeping a blog will be a good outlet for me. I’m Elizabeth and I suffer from a mental disorder known as Dissociative Identity Disorder or (DID). What does this mean? Well formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder or (MPD); DID is a mental disorder on the dissociative spectrum characterized by at least two distinct and relatively enduring identities or dissociated personality states that alternately control a person’s behavior. But, what does this mean for me? This means that I “host” several other alternate personalities. I refer to myself as the host because […]

7/12/2015 7 comments

Something Beautiful

by paranoid 7/12/2015

written by paranoid

Hello:)

This will be a rather quick synopsis of my suicidal attempts and what led up to them and how I managed past them but the story should come across anyways.

First Attempt:

I was about 14 at this time, and had started cutting. it wasn’t “severe” as it was mostly little scratches. I would only “cut” when I was super overwhelmed with my situation, or emotions. I had been seeing a guy for about a year, and was infatuated with him. One day, he decided to tell me that he had been cheating on me with his ex, but that I shouldn’t be worried because he can […]

7/12/2015 3 comments

Shadowy Realm

by gunnervin 7/11/2015

written by gunnervin

When they fought, I chose not to fight.
When they cried, I thought there is respite.
Amidst the squibbles and squabbles of life,
My kindly nature kept me rife.
But then came doubt I did my self.
I did my nature, I did my health.
I doubted everything I felt,
And on I went to change my self.
I tried to turn the course of the stream.
Not knowing I was only killing a dream,
Of little joys and a profound realm,
On I went on a broken whelm,
For other dreams were going to be at helm.
I had walked too far still mind […]

7/11/2015 1 comment

Don’t waste your time reading this.

by daitya 7/11/2015

written by daitya

Hun… 🙂

Here I am. Finally writing.

It’s been 3 or 4 years.

I don’t remember.

This is the good part. These days I don’t remember anything.

Everytime some feel something inside me. I can’t put this in words.

Emptiness. (Maybe)

As I said I can’t put this into words.

Please don’t pity on me. I am very bad person. I did some awful things in life. Which I regret very much. I feel guit everyday every moment.

Yes I do want to die.

But I can’t.

I have a girlfriend. She is the reason I can’t die.

Mother, sister…. are also the reason.

I have faced alot. I know. I know everything. Then why I am so […]

7/11/2015 1 comment

Is love in our reach

by cant.fixme 7/9/2015

written by cant.fixme

Do you believe in love?

This is a good question.
I believe in wanting someone so badly that it makes it hard for you to live without even thinking about him or her. I believe in feeling good just by having her or him next to you. I believe in being in love more then i believed in myself and that’s probably what keeps me going.

But then again what is love, do we even know love or is it just the idea of love. Could we even recognize love if it wasn’t from what we’ve heard read saw, if it wasn’t for other’s ways […]

7/9/2015 8 comments

Maybe it’s time.

by dailystruggle 7/7/2015

written by dailystruggle

After years of depression, suicidal thoughts and a failed attempt I think it’s finally time.

First attempt was drug OD. I remember doing tons of research and planning. Dressing up and feeling happy on that day. I’ve never felt more happy than that for a long long time. I was found and therefore still alive.

It was never a rash decision. Every night I go to sleep hoping I’ll never wake up again. Every morning is just another disappointment. Then I had to make a choice or staying alive or ending my life. And I regret my choice of staying alive every single day.

I can’t even explain […]

7/7/2015 8 comments

Back again…

by KH 7/6/2015

written by KH

I doubt I posted often enough previously for anyone to have taken notice that I haven’t posted anything for some time now… The simple explanation is that I did not feel the need to. Every negative feeling for some reason subsided for a while, I was happy-ish. My boyfriend and I were getting along well, I finally managed to fit in amongst decent people.. Then I got admitted to hospital.

For physical reasons only was I admitted for three weeks, which took its toll I suppose. I was discharged a few days ago and honestly I’ve never felt worse. My boyfriend has decided once again to […]

7/6/2015 2 comments

I miss myself …

by theawkwardone123 7/6/2015

written by theawkwardone123

This is my first time doing this and thanks to those who read it. I dont really share my feelings but i thought i should give it a try. I don’t know why someone at age 20 feels the way that I do. Ever since my dad passed away when i was 11 I have felt empty. I was my bestfriend and my role model. He suffered from drug abuse and was clean for a year, then went to a hotel off the parkway, overdosed, and killed himself. Every time I think about it I blame myself(& I know many people say that there is […]

7/6/2015 1 comment

When is it enough?

by Out of Phase 7/6/2015

written by Out of Phase

I am 39 years old today. I always hoped and prayed i would never get this far, that something would happen or I would have the courage to end it. I never did. With each passing year more and more hope just dissipated that i would find someone and i am pretty sure that i am empty of what little hope there was. That really sucks because i still dont have the courage to end it.

So here i am, a shell of a human being, trying to fake being a person. There is just nothing left of me but genuine dispair. That is getting to […]

7/6/2015 3 comments

Thank You

by Black_Heart2001 7/5/2015

written by Black_Heart2001

You were good for nothing parents, and you made me want to kill myself countless times. You crushed whatever I built for myself just so you could feel superior. But I have to thank you for one thing. You have showed me how to not raise a child. I will never do to my children what you did to me.

7/5/2015 1 comment

A beautiful life

by life_reset 7/4/2015

written by life_reset

The most beautiful thing happened when i logged in to write here. The check-mark on the login page said, ‘remember me’. What a wonderful thought indeed, made me smile. I don’t know why i chose to write here, why go through the process of registering and then confirming, checking email for new password and writing now. But anyways am here, let’s make the most of it..

Today is one of my darkest days. Three months back if anyone would have spoken of ending their lives I would have dissuaded them fervently. But bearing the same suicidal thought tonight, I somehow feel at ease with myself. Life […]

7/4/2015 3 comments

This is most likely my goodbye

by mosha 7/4/2015

written by mosha

In this year I had 2 good days only nothing is going as planed my life is getting screwed up every day too ugly to get a girlfriend too stupid to pass a test too dumb to find a job. Iam really getting sick of this

7/4/2015 3 comments

I always make sure

by Rotted_Flesh 7/3/2015

written by Rotted_Flesh

I go running everyday, lift weights, and try and eat healthy because from what I’ve experienced nobody likes a fat fuck. Healthy body healthy mind I suppose. Effexor day 1 so good so far, noticed a slight increase in motivation and energy, could be a placebo effect I’m not sure but I definitely feel more content. The next few days are gonna suck balls thought ’cause no boooooooze :(. Glad I got benzos to help me get to sleep from this fucking stupid ass withdrawal.

7/3/2015 1 comment

………..

by lonelyguy91 6/30/2015

written by lonelyguy91

I want to die really. I turn to people around me and tell me I should work. how can I have ambition if everything in my life sucks. Im ugly , I’m going to die alone, why continue? im tired. I hate being me and I want to get out of here. I really do.. im trying to see the few good things I have but its hard. I want to hang myself its the only way I could do it

6/30/2015 1 comment

Anger inside me

by GloomySteel 6/30/2015

written by GloomySteel

Usually I’m just smokeing a cigarette on a balcony, just me and a little red flame slowly running out… Reading some of the life storries here on the forum, but today I decided to blow off my mind here.

Right now I’m feeling like the whole univers is picking on me. Every time something “good” happens in my misarable life it soon backfires.

I was never some angry guy, I’m usually just depressed especialy in the morning (I’m really having problems getting out of bed) I’m always thinking of all the fails in my life, but once I get out of bed it gets better, usually at […]

6/30/2015 2 comments

My mind.

by cocoki 6/30/2015

written by cocoki

I’m not sure it I’m convinced that

nothing good will ever happen to

me or maybe I don’t deserve

what ever I do have I feel like I

can’t even do nothing without

being punished and I don’t know

y I wish I had the balls 2 do what

I think about almost every night.

I’m not going to proof read this bcoz I don’t like reading my thoughts.

6/30/2015 2 comments

by Nihilism000 6/29/2015

written by Nihilism000

This morning, early of course, I don’t get much sleep anymore, at least I thought, left me in the dust. I told her about my depression and how sometimes I feel suicidal..I thought it would help opening up to someone. But it completely blew up in my face. I’m not sad about it, it’s expected isn’t it. She said that I was crazy and needed help..perhaps I do. I wasn’t asking for her pity, I don’t need pity, just her understanding and support you know. I see it as if she acted like that when I tried to open up to her, she was obviously […]

6/29/2015 6 comments

1st time opening my feelings

by ff.tale 6/29/2015

written by ff.tale

I’m so very tired of things going wrong on my life. It feels like whatever I start to do results for a few moments like I’m reaching my goals and then all of a sudden everything’s wrecked, ruined, destroyed with no possibility of keeping anything good from the journey, because most of all the objects of my passion breaks and only the bad things last. And I don’t want to say goodbye to anything anymore, I am the kind of people that love intensily and keep attached to feelings, like a drug addict I want to live strong feelings, to feell alive, to forget the […]

6/29/2015 1 comment

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