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Change

by niki
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“Each day as people make new choices we create the possible futures, so nothing right now is fixed.”

“‘Nothing we can do can change the past, but everything we do changes the future.” – Ashleigh Brilliant

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” – Maria Robinson

“Those who have changed the universe have never done it by changing officials, but always by inspiring the people”
– Napoleon Boneparte

“It is always the minorities that hold the key of progess; it is always through those who are unafraid to be different that advance comes to human […]

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It seems that the happiest people in this world is those who LOVE money,..isn’t it?

by niki
written by niki

I just got back from dinner with my family.
And I’ve witnessed & observed an ‘event’, that might seem just ordinary perhaps to many people there, and even to my family members,..but certainly NOT to me:

We just got back from quite a ‘cozy’ new restaurant/semi-lounge that my brother’s friend just opened up.
And there I saw many people, mostly young, around my age or so (I’m 28 btw),..and lo & behold, they’re all seem so happy, socializing with their friends, tucked in their office uniforms, with beers at hand, and I’ve catched the conversations mostly are revolving around jobs, making money, how to make more […]

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to steve_c (in reply to your thread “Niki”), and also everyone else who’s interested

by niki
written by niki

I swear I fuckin’ hate this whole “awaiting moderation” thing, I’ve typed such a long reply to you & your excellent post, steve_c, but then it comes again this “awaiting moderation” thing. Luckily I have copied what I’ve wrote, and I’ll paste/write it again here:

thank you everybody for your posts, and also kyle, for your caring of me (english is also not my first language, so I really appreciate you’re taking some time to write out & translate your thoughts into english. it’s not easy).
Believe me that I very much appreciate it. and thank you very much Steve, for actually braving yourself to […]

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is Humanity too dumb, or in simpler words, are most people just too dumb to realize the most essential things for better world?

by niki
written by niki

Every time I come to see a new post about someone sharing his/her pain in life, my heart can’t help but feeling much pain too (even if I never know that person in real life). And there are so much, so many people that seems to believe that DEATH is ultimately the ‘Answer’, that of what would be the true resting place, the true door, or even the true world/dimension of ultimate pureness to live, unlike this “damn corrupt & sickening” earthly life caused/polluted mostly by ‘stupid, clueless, dumb, egoistical’ humans, so they said.

Every all wise gurus of this world (be it Buddha, Jesus, etc) […]

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Dear everybody, my fellow human beings, I think I’ve just got a sudden ‘revelation’ that I need to share about why we are so fucked up (please read!!)

by niki
written by niki

Dear everybody,
my friends, a.k.a my fellow worthy and beloved human beings…

I want all of you here to please bare with me again for just about 5-10 minutes reading what I’ve found to be a sudden ‘eureka/revelation’ moment, thanks to actually vbenja’s thread that asks and ponder about “life” here http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/life-9/   (it’s amazing of how ‘connected’ we can be, if we *choose* to, isn’t it?…)

And without getting too long, I will start right-away of what I’ve found,
hopefully what I’m going to share here will also ‘connect’ with all your hearts, your innermost souls…..that truly makes us what “humans“.

Here it goes :

Have you (we […]

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Splinter’s case: is humanity and mankind hopeless?…

by niki
written by niki

Some of the thoughts & responses have really reshaped my perspective on life, humanity, truth, and pain.
But unfortunately, I got so depressed again at how humanity & mankind in REALITY are progressing.
I just looked at the latest update regarding Splinter’s story, and my chest suddenly feels so heavy, that I can’t explain it by mere words. Even I have such a very HARD time to sit in front of computer, and write another reply/comment,..and especially fueled with some unfortunate ‘flame wars’ here showed me of how differing each person’s perspective is,..and it makes me eventually ponder, think, and ask this ultimate question, that […]

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My Hard Choice…

by Shelly
written by Shelly

I wrote my first blog here earlier last year: A Wasted Life… and hopefully my last is going to be posted sometime next year. This one was quite unplanned and most unexpected but after thinking about it for a little while, I just had to go ahead and write it… okay, so here goes. I live with two people who I greatly care for but one of them’s like seriously terminally ill and he isn’t really capable of taking care of himself anymore, he’s also extremely isolated now since he’s pretty well housebound most of the time. I’ve been living with him for years, trust me […]

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Someone help me

by TJ
written by TJ

Okay, so I’m starting a new thread because I was hijacking someone elses with my problems and that’s not fair at all, I feel really bad about doing that. I’m sorry.

I basically wrote my story in a comment so I’ll just paste it here and explain a little more.

Such a long story.. I was so desperate last night. I still am and I don’t know what to do. I’m 20 years old, still living at home and I don’t have a job. My biological dad killed himself as did my uncle, we were very close. My mom, who has been married to another man for […]

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Numerous Attempts

by imissjess12707
written by imissjess12707

To start off, i’ve had a history of mental disorders and depression issues for countless years of my life, but never thought of committing suicide. My grandmother committed suicide before i was born, and i saw how it effected my mother, and my grandfather, and never ever wanted to do that to someone else. No matter how bad it got, i stuck in there.

On December 7, 2007, My best friend committed suicide. I wasn’t aware of any deep trauma or depression in her, so of course, it came as a total shock. I can still remember where i was, what i was doing, and […]

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time

by emily25
written by emily25

a serge to connect rushes through me
a time bomb with no clock showing
chains holding me down
my lips locked together
my heart trying to jump away from me too
my hand just out of reach for a loaded gun
out of reach like everything else in life
leave me with the waste
it’s the wrong time to be so cruel
i’ll just die here slowly
it’s ok though because i can’t eat anything
too weak to struggling anymore
let me die here slowely like i always thought i would
leave me with more of nothing
please
please
please

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I cant take it anymore

by anonysuicide3
written by anonysuicide3

Im crying while im writing this, i dont value my life anymore, nobody likes me i feel all alone by myself and even if i try i always fail at everything, i’ve heard that im horrible and stupid and all kinds of bad things that you can imagine, i just have one single true friend and a couple more that i just feel that i cant trust, i never had a girlfriend neither i kissed anyone, i feel like im too young for suicide but i just cant take it anymore, i feel like an empty in my heart, that theres a growing pain inside […]

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I failed

by Euca
written by Euca

I met my man bout 9 years ago in an online game,i visited him a few months after and it was love at first sight. We been happy as humanly possible for 8 years,we was 1,never fought never argued,we were so close. Till he told me on aug 6 2008 ,outta da blue, he was gonna go back to UK,alone. Everyone around us were jealous of our relationship it was that good. I begged him to why, took him some days to say anything and he just said i love you but it aint enough. Them last 10 days he was with me i could […]

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First time failure.

by sandysuicide
written by sandysuicide

Ok, so I want to talk about the first (and only) suicide attempt I’ve ever made. It took place about a year ago. It was a pretty fucked up time in my life, as I’d just gotten my 2nd DUI and almost at the same time I was breaking up with my girlfriend. I was so in love with this girl I won’t even bother to elaborate on it, as it would probably make most people sick. That said, I was on my way to work one morning shortly after I’d gotten out of jail, and recieved a call from my ex. As we were […]

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I Hate Myself, I want to Die

by Me and myself alone
written by Me and myself alone

I hate myself, I want to die

No one understands, no one cares

This world would be a better place,

If only I didn’t exist

The pain never stops,

The darkness is closing in

I close my eyes and hope they never open again

I want to scream,

All this rage inside

I wish I had a gun,

To end all this craziness inside in my head

I am so alone,

 So Much emptiness inside

Why can’t anyone here me?

Because nobody cares.

All these tears keep falling,

I wonder how theres any left

My heart is beating so fast,

I feel like it’s slowly breaking

Why can’t it just stop?

To take one last final breath in this world,

Would bring such peace inside

Why is […]

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by CoryJK
written by CoryJK

Dear Suicide Project,

FML.  I want to kill myself, but my fear of eternal damnation in hell keeps me from doing so.  Would someone kindly shove a knife through my heart.

XOXO’s

Cory

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A Poem I wrote to: Life

by Boondockrod
written by Boondockrod

 

To: Life  

 

i wept gently at the sound of her call
i always favored that wide eyed grin
the time they said is now at hand
time for her rest to finally begin
suffering no more, for her at least
letting go all the pain and heartache
i’ll stay with her til the very last moment
for her heart was the claim i did stake
let go i say…please just let her go
theres nothing i can do to change
over and over til i see every color
the memories drowning the pain
can i go on?…do i even dare try
when half of one is […]

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by emily25
written by emily25

I’m 17 to start off with. My parents are divorced and my mom remarried. I am depressed. I don’t really “cut” or anything. Though, I don’t stop from letting an accident happen if it would hurt and make it bleed out. I could most of the time, but I just don’t. I kind of just get really relaxed when something like that happens. It’s proly not good, but oh well. I have ODed once not too long ago and was sick for like four days. I didn’t think of anything though I did feel like shit. It was my fault I did though. I thought […]

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hurts turn into suicide

by master2009
written by master2009

I don’t no how to start but i am going to start by saying all of this pain i have is making it into suicide

~~I’m always home watching my brothers and never have any freedom to do what i want i never see my mom at home spend no day with us no more that hurt because we always used to hange out and have time to share anything with her when we need help or happy or sad or mad but not no more i keep it all to my self deep inside AND never tell no one it hurt to have to fake […]

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Seriously considering this

by dyingj
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When I registerd here I was seriously considering ending my life…I felt that I just could not go on anymore…my heart was broken, as well as my spirit.  I had just finished crying my eyes out, and cursing God, why when he had the chance did he not take me…I had replayed are the hurtful things my husband has said to me over and over in my head…I also had just watch another amature video of him and his girlfriend post on the net…I watched and listened to all the things he said to her…and thats not the only one of them that he has […]

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