Well she’s still not home still not answering her calls. So I assume she is with that other guy. I wrote out my last words & testaments. I think I’m ready to see GOD now! So here goes nothing! I Father who tho in heaven hallow be thy name thy Kingdom come thy will be done on earth that it is to heaven give us today my daily bread & forgive our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us & lead us not into temptation but delivery us from evil for thy is the kingdom the power & the glory forever & ever […]
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I always feel so alone. I just want someone to hold me and tell me they love me. I want to trust that my friends actually are my friends, and aren’t just nice to me because they feel bad for me. I want them to come to my room (I live at a residential school), instead of me always going to their room. I want them to message me first. I want to know that they love me. They are all that keep me here; if they leave me, I’ll leave the world. I want their faces to light up when they see me, the […]
“True love ~ Broken dreamsâ€
-Hai, my name is Peter Alesana also other’s would like to call me Petii. I’m going to share a story about broken dreams, the human mentally capacity of fighting for your loved one, for your dreams, shattered lost soul, never endless suffering, a story what will encourage you to stand up and keep pushing even if everything seems to be dark and hopeless , when you are on two knees praying, shaking in the unconditional pain, when you cried so much that your tears turn into blood but won’t stop falling regardless how try you hard, when there is no one else there to […]
I’ve never of have known someone that likes me, has had a crush on me, or who has loved me. All of my freinds have had girl/boy freinds, why can’t I. It’s not like I haven’t tried. I just get rejected every time. There is a girl that I love though and since I’m suicidal, she is in luck. I would die, go to hell, and burn for all eternity if I had to to protect her. If she went to hell and I went to heaven, I would not hesitate to switch places. I have told her that I like her, she hasen’t spoken to […]
Tonight I die. This is my 3rd attempt, and I think I finally got my suicide figured out. I am not mentally ill or depressed, right now I am actually quite calm. My story is simple, I had a good life but threw it away because I am a compulsive gambler. My friends and family bailed me out countless times and yet I don’t learn from my mistakes and dig myself back into the same hole again and again. I am a sinner and don’t deserve better. I just wish that before I go… I can give back all the money that I owe to […]
When you look up at me
Can you not see
This love hiding shamefully
Behind my painted face
Emptiness I embrace
I see your heart braking
I try to stop shaking
But you don’t know what you’re taking
From me
These years slowly passing
And I am just guessing
That soon I’ll be watching
This all from above
I won’t yearn for my home
Because I’ve been shown
That death is all I want
I’ll have peace and rest
Nothing to protest
Nothing to deplore
But I’d give it all up
I’d suffer through this dump
Because I’ll miss you more
But I am so broken
You are destined
For […]
Maybe in heaven, there will be understanding.
Understanding of the motives of each and everyone.
Understanding why they feel the way they feel.
Maybe it will be more than understanding, maybe you will get a first person glimpse of what it is like to be someone else.
Connecting of each other to form a peaceful, heavenly bond.
Madness, disappointment, RAGE, hatred, disgust, FEAR, sadness, grief, humiliation, shyness, cowardliness, regret, sorrow, loneliness, Physical pain, emotional pain, stress, turmoil, suffering, HOPELESSNESS, nonsense, will be overcame.
Maybe in heaven, things will all make sense. It will all PUZZLE together.
Why there is pain.
Pain adds character. Pain breeds experience, wisdom, knowledge, meaning, bravery and resilience.
Pain makes […]
What happened to us? What happened to the world? Why is this site filled with  so many of us technically healthy people trying to destroy ourselves?
But do we blame the world? Or do we blame ourselves? Am I depressed thanks to unbalanced serotonin? Am I suicidal because depression’s genetic and mine is confusing? Do we blame science? Do we blame society? Do we blame each other? Is it the fault 0f previous generations? Did our parents feel this way? Is it normal for a teenager to feel tired of living?
So many questions surround this topic, and it seems to me that the core question of […]
Your smile has been on our minds. Your positive attitude and incredible sense of humor is forever embedded in our hearts. Even people who barely knew you are deeply touched by your actions. You lost hope like many of us do. Maybe life kicked you  down one too many times.  Maybe you couldn’t find help in any of your friends. You’re heart was torn and you couldn’t mend it, but there was hope for you. You were a ray of sunshine among us. I hope you finally found peace. I hope our escape mended your heart and you can finally be happy. I […]
This site seems to lack optimism :/
A lot of us need reminders of how special we are.
Take it the way you may, I’m doing this because I believe each and everyone of you are incredible.
I mean this whole-heartedly, and I’m never going to stop posting it up.
All of you have a great effect on the ones around you, whether you see it or not.
An old friend of mine committed suicide on Tuesday night. He is missed dearly. I have no idea what pushed him to do something like that, but I can assure you that no one is taking his death lightly. I guess he […]
Please everyone who thought about suicide read! I love you all, this is coming from The God in me, or my good spirit.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
Dear Everyone who feels like committing suicide,
I feel like I have an answer. I can’t guarentee it will work. But you have to try it first ok. Just promise, you’ll try.
Hi everyone,my advice is try to learn God for yourself. In order to know God you first have to know Jesus. Only through Jesus can you be healed. Trust me. It might sound crazy but it’s true.
Trust me, i know. I’m not that religious and allmy life i have been the loner, awkward black girl that no one ever really noticed. almost every guy i ever wanted to love rejected me and […]
Well, As it began, I was such a fool. Trying to impress the likes of you. You were sixteen years old and I was merely Thirteen. My heart was cold and my eyes were dull. My wrists were cut and my spirits were gone. Â I was a zombie. Simple as that.
One day, I saw your name on the internet, and..something drove me to look. I talked to you for a month.. During which we were the best of friends.. You were hospitalized in Florida. And I was alone in Alabama. When you got out of the place, you came back to my town (where you lived) and […]
I always have such grand ideas for things to do during my lunch hour but I usually end up lazily browsing the national post website and wallowing in some self pity.
I would rather not have been born; I think all the time how I hate the various sensations that go along with occupying a living body. It’s all so draining, trying to find some level of contentment… I dunno.
I feel like, some time ago, I experienced heaven, but now I’m here. I’ve completely forgotten the experience of perfect happiness except for the lingering feeling that I’ve been better. I long for non-existence.
My Story,
All my lyfe ive been compared, contrasted, and told i never tried my best. Im a sophomore in high school and this year especially, ive been having many thought about suicide. I have strict asian parents who dont take anything but a’s. I have a lot of pressure on my shoulders and when i told my parents ive wanted to something else besides a doctor or do another major than pre-med, they would get mad or tell me im stupid. Ive wanted to chase after my dreams as a musician and an artist. My parents never accepts the idea no matter how many time […]
it’s non-existence. I would choose non-existence over every aspect of my life; I really don’t care all that much about it. I could do without living and perception.
So you either wait for your body to run out of steam, some freak accident, or take matters into your own hands. I wanna go to heaven, and for me heaven would be absolute nothing. I want everything that I am to be gone, every trace of consciousness, kaput, finito. But to kill myself is so pro-active; so much work. Ugh, wait, do it myself or hope for an accident. Is this all we’re doing here, going […]
My suicide story isn’t base on a single dramatic occurrence or a series of bad hands dealt to me by life, like so many have posted concerning their suicide stories. Like many (if not all) here I have been dealing with deep depression, manic mood swings, and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis, that at times feels all consuming. Again, my path to suicide wasn’t due to a traumatic event but rather a fucking series of mundane, minutiae life events that have led me to deciding to off myself at the end of lackluster, Loserville 25 year bullshit life. All my life I haven’t amounted […]
im tired of all this shit 🙁 i want it all just to go away…………..i dont really care how…..but it would kinda be nice if it was now…………i look back at the notes i wrote on my phone and i think to myself……………why dont you just put your missery out now……is it really worth going threw all this pain and suffer…..will things actually really get better at the end of this mest up world be calll life…….i do believe there’s a heaven and i do believe there is a hell but i feel like the one below is kinda pulling me down while God is […]
Is there something wrong with me?
Am I…?Â
Insecure
Self destructiveÂ
Afraid to grow up
Nervous
Delusional
Crazy
SchizophrenicÂ
Proud
Dissociative
DilapidatedÂ
Narcissistic
Misaligned
Inoperable
Anorexic
FailureÂ
DisappointedÂ
Nostalgic
ConflictedÂ
Non-committed
Addicted
Afraid
Fearless
Normal
Perfect
Relentless
Depressed
Suicidal
Genius
Mad
Insane
I am!
There is something wrong with me!
I want to be committed to cure my ailments. I am of clear thought of body and mind for all pertinent matters. My fear of seeking help is loss of respect from my family, social status, future, but most of all, my 2nd amendment right to bare arms. I shall stand naked holding my weapon of choice and I will […]
Thinking about my perfect heaven…
all i can think about lately is ending my life. these thoughts went away for awhile. i used to have them all the time when i was little, probably about 7 or 8. i don’t know why i’ve never been able to have happiness. the clues are that my mom worked all the time and i never knew my dad. i didn’t have friends or family growing up. i was very much a loner. i was raped when i was in high school and again, a few years ago. it’s my own fault both times–drinking and being around people who don’t care about you at […]