i have been depressed which is a mild word  in comparison to what i feel for so long i dont remember ever being happy EVER,i hate this life i hate everything about it, i hate my ex i  would love to castrate him and  engulf him on fire then shoot myself, but naw i would rather just end my own pain let him live with his and everything he did to cause all my newest pain, i dont see any reason to exist other than to be miserable and makes those around me miserable and uncomfortable to be around me, people tend to […]
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Hell
one of the reason i am depressed is because i hate my job (who doesn’t right?) so i have decided that after one month in hell, I will quit my job. I had a nasty argument with my mother about it. She didn’t want me to leave the job because everyone she knows thinks it is a good job.. a good comfortable job. they don’t know the other end of it. I feel so miserable I get panic attacks I started to feel depressed and I am really stressed out. I lost so much weight the clothes that I ordered online that couldn’t even pass through my […]
Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
Every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn
And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around
All of these questions’ such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
Male, 18, Black, 5’9, 265
Atlanta, Georgia
Tonight is the night. It was inevitable really. LOL i finally realized that i will die from stabbing myself repeatedly in the neck. Why? Who cares? I’m ugly and fat which will never get me women. I have a terrible evil personality that comes out when i hang out with people too much. I’m just going to wind up hurting myself even more or others if i just don’t get it over with. It’s really not the big of a deal, if God does exist he’ll be just send me to hell and I can move on with my life. […]
I get a bunch of crap from a lot of people. I have been hurt all my life… I never got used to it. My dad calls me crap, tells me I’m not worth a place on Earth. My mom shoves God down my throat 24/7. My brother makes jokes about suicide a lot. I have to lie to my family, act like everything is fine. I told my grandma about my friends cutting to see what she thinks about cutting before I told her that I do it. She responded ” Oh My God, why would anyone cut, Â Its so disgusting.” I ended up […]
I’m 18/male. Pretty much everything is fucked up in my life. Well maybe its not so terrible for others, but for me, its hell.
My parents got divorced when I was 2. A few years later, my mother got married to another man. Later on i realized he’s a dick. When my sister went to high school we were very poor. I can remember that i was sad because she couldnt hang out with other girls just because we were so poor. when she was 18 (i was 12), she got married, i think she couldnt take longer that our mom was an alcoholic. She started […]
Where to start . Im sad . Unless your lucky , in my terms lucky being having the perfect life set up for you via wonderful (wealthy) parents or extreme good choices , then life is literally depressing . When someone asks why do you want to die ? my response would be , why not ? It sucks to have no one to talk to who understands . It sucks to be so alone all the time . I dont know what happened . There was a point in my life when i was so happy . So unbeleivably happy . That’s gone now […]
You are pathetic.. Using me? Who the hell do you think you are? I thought it was odd how you just wanted sex, even thoe we are not dating! Then I go onto facebook & see you gave your ex a hickey after we hooked up? Then telling me about ‘Brooklyn’ sounds like a whore too me. I think you should just be alone till you can figure your shit out dude! ***** your laying in bed with her yesterday when you had sex with me Thursday!? Todays fucking Sunday! What the hell.. I’m done.. I can’t do this shit anymore!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED […]
I am divorced. I am a mother of six. My fiance committed suicide in July. I have had numerous surgeries this year that have left me unable to work yet. I am in yet another one of my major depressive episodes that has exhausted me. I have tried having my medications readjusted and mixed around to no avail. I am just so sick of having to battle depression! I have been in an uphill battle with this terrible illness for over 25 years! I have had enough. I am tired. I cannot endure more of […]
I’m bi sexual
I’m emo
I’m a cuter
I do drugs
I’m atheist
I’m OCD
I’m bi polar
I’m a lover
I’m broken
I’m suicidal
I’m victim
I’m more things than you can probably count. I know there are others who probably have it worse than me, but I feel like this is never ending, that this world only exists to destroy me. I wake up every morning and think “why am I still here?”.  It’s a good question to be honest. I have no purpose. I’m not important. My friends tell me if I died they would care….a lot of people have told me that before…..and look where they’re at…..gone. It would be so much easier just to end it all […]
The love of my life lives in Kansas….I live in North Carolina. We have been off and on for almost a year now. We got back together about 2 months ago then he broke up with me. I fell back into cutting and pills. He swore he didn’t like anyone else, it was just the distance. He asked out my best friend 2 days after he told me that. I want to fucking hate him so much….but I can’t. He doesn’t know I know. I promised him I wouldn’t cut or get high…..yet my arm is filled with new scars and my pill bottles are […]
Hi,
I am new to this sight, but wanted to share just a bit to those who are considering suicide. As a bit of background, I am a nearly 60 woman with 4 grown kids and 3 grandkids, married to the same man for over 40 years, upper middle class, fairly attractive, intelligent, witty, talented and loved. But last year all hell broke lose…..
My first time in the hospital was in Dec 2011, I self checked in because I had become obsessive about suicide and was tempting fate with pills, a loaded gun, knife to wrist and other dangerous and fatal things and ideas. I didn’t REALLY want […]
I hate life. What the hell is the point of it, anyway? Why ME? Why was I stuck in this hellhole? I am so out of place. Everyone else at my school is perfect. Skinny, pretty, acne-free. Then there’s me, an annoying, short, ugly little freak. My mom hates me. My dad hates me. Everyone hates me. I hate me. The only reason I’m still here is because I can’t get the right pills. I cut, people call me an attention whore. I’ve tried to kill myself 3 times now. My damn parents caught me and “grounded” me for 3 months because they didn’t want […]
everythings supposed to be perfect. i have the most amazing boyfriend ever but… i still want to cut and puke. i cant eat normal even though he begs me to. im still depressed. i still want to die. i still feel fucking empty like i dont exist…. WHY? this was supposed to fix everything having my best friend in the whole universe as my boyfriend but somethings wrong. i just wanna starve, cut and die but he wont let me.
i dont know how much longer i can last
Yes; How long can I stay here?
I get treated like shit! There is no other way to explain it. I still believe my father hates me deep down.. for calling the cops on him because he was out of control.. Would you rather of been to prison for the rest of your life? Exactly! I saved your sorry ass. When you said to me ‘I hate you’ ‘Your dead to me’ ‘I don’t want you in my life’ & also called me a ‘*****’ ;; I just wanted to punch you! See why beer does to you?! This hasn’t happened once, its happened […]
I’m not in a good mood today. It was a P.E day. We had to dance with boy partners and most of all of them i had was wanting to switch partners, meaning, i’m an unenthusiastic, worthless creep. I was depressed all day over one little thing. i’m so ridiculous. I wanted to cut myself all day, it was so painful to be me. These things, negative comments, just triggered me to want to kill myself. Anyway, i have a plan to. I don’t mean to give people ideas, but i just wanna know if it’ll work. One idea was to take an overdose of […]
stuck in a hole in south east asia, wanted by the authorities, hiding like a scared dog. truth be known, I’ve been hiding my entire life. severe depression since childhood, won’t get into the abuse i suffered but its has haunted me thru  my adult life. I crapped in my mess kit and now i have no way out other than death and frankly i don’t care any longer. Im only writing because its lonely as all hell here. I suppose dying is to be a private matter, but every step is agony and isolation. I believe the plastic bag and morphine is the way […]
i’ve been cutting again, my mum found out and guess what she said! i have no reason to do it im just calling out for attention… that’s what she said to me. how the hell do i not have a reason to do it! i’m dieing litterally heres y i do it…
im in pain
i have cancer!
no one cares about me
my lifes stuffed up
i get bullied
and im worthless
maybe i should end it right now, maybe i should stop fighting for my life. why should i have to suffer while no one cares about me.. am i left here to rott in this stupid hospital with a […]
If today was my last day alive i wonder who would miss me? i wonder if my mother would realize she was the cause of me killing myself with of all the emotional abuse……. smh probably not, only thing she would be worried about is how much money she can get out of my death. Every since i told her that im a lesbian its been HELL, it was hell before i came out but it
Well, after contemplating for a couple hours, I finally decided to post something. The main reason is because I mean who the hell wants to listen to some teenager going on about how depressed he is when there is no reason as to why he would be? I have a roof to sleep under and food to eat every night. I don’t get bullied. I don’t hate myself or think I’m ugly or stupid. I have no good reason to want to die. Â But yet there’s something inside me that is tearing me apart. I have no emotions any more. I just want to die. […]