I have dealt with more pain than you think. You have no reason to judge me. The simple fact that you judge me proves that you are smaller and weaker than me. You can’t deal with the pain I’ve been through. Yeah you can say all you want about me, but it’s not gonna change what I believe and I believe in myself. I don’t need to believe in you or your friends or your family. I don’t have to listen to you or what you have to say. I am me for a reason and no one can change that. You can go fuck […]
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I tried to sleep. But I couldn’t.
My thoughts are continuously racing in my mind. I can’t even sleep properly. I was extremely sad even in my sleep, even in my dreams.
So I wake up. And a thought came in my mind and I decided to share it. It was peaceful.
I know I can’t stop my suffering. I know this. I know there is no cure for me. But this is true that nothing is everlasting. Nothing.
Millions years ago dinasouras were here and now there are not. Billion years ago even earth wasn’t exist.
So here is the thing I want to tell you. I don’t know when, […]
I’m writing this and it’s early as fuck.
I can’t sleep. I just made a grilled cheese too an it was great. Early in the morning is when my thoughts are crazy.
I was thinking about how I feel like the day I die my soul will finally find peace . It will be a relief . I’ll finally get to rest. I wish the day could come sooner.
I was also thinking about a afterlife . I wouldn’t say that I believe in God , but I believe in something . I hope there is something after this world . Maybe this life is hell? There has […]
Today was bad. The Angels were bad. The visual hallucinations were bad. Everything was bad. I almost died.
I was barely able to get out of bed because of the Angels; but I forced myself because of my dogs. I was almost unable to stay downstairs this morning; but I had to make myself because I got lumbered with my brother while my mum and stepdad stayed in bed. The visual hallucinations got almost unbearable around this time – 9:50, I believe it was. Everything would move around, faces were everywhere, figures were everywhere. Despite how awful they got, I got my brother to distract […]
Interpret this according to your current mood. I think it fits quite well whether you’re ready to give up or want to fight on. I believe the speech is from the film ‘Network’.
This year I was diagnosed with a metabolic disorder towards my eyes. And my diet changed completely.
Then around May time this year I started to feel depressed, suicidal and I had anxiety. And I started cutting.
Then I promised my best friend I would stop cutting. I broke that promise twice. This time I promised and he made me swear on his life:(
A month ago I found out my dietitian thinks I need Physchologist, she thinks something’s wrong with me.
About a week ago I had surgery. And then about 2days ago I did the most stupidest move in the world and it could’ve ruined my life. […]
I think one of the reasons I’m still here is because I’m scared of what comes after this life. I believe there is nothing,but what if there is something? And it’s worse than it is here?
Make me hurt
Scratch and tear at my mind
Come on, I actually want it this time
Where are you when I need you?
Rip my heart apart
Why not
WHY NOT
Why not, you bastard
I’m begging for it
I want it
I need it
Give it to me
How dare you abandon me
When you’ve been my faithful companion for so long
You
The one thing that has always been there
You liar
You said you’d never leave
I believe you
You’ll never leave
You Goddamn monster
You’re fucking sick
Does it please you
To watch me bleed on the ground
I loved you once
I think we all do
Then we hate you
We wish you dead
You’re deep inside of me
The only way you’ll die is if I do
And […]
I went to the Buddhist center with my roommate and he was volunteering there and I was with a woman who is some regional leader that he’s close to and people were chanting for 2 hours. So I did the 2 hours of chanting then most everyone moved to the auditorium and even though we were just listening to people speak and not chanting, I had a vision that I’d live somewhere past 85 and I would always be alone, never marry, never have anyone, and never have sex again from this time forward. I didn’t think I’d be homeless and I don’t know how […]
For a while now I’ve contemplated suicide. I believe it’s the easiest way out. No, I don’t think running away from problems is going to solve them but I do know that after trying your hardest to solve them with absolutely no solution, running is your only option. And after running and running and running you get tired. I’m tired. Tired of running, tired of fighting, tired of breathing, tired of existing. I just feel like, if I die, everything will be better. I feel like the minute I swallow those pills or that poison or from the moment I jump, everything […]
Anyone heard from him? I believe his last post was end of September. Anyone have contact since then?
can love turns to hate at some point .!
I want to talk clearly about my boyfriend ..
I believe that he really loved me from the depth of his heart
I will not lie to you .. I did so wrong things to him ,, I cheated on him so many times , and I used him as my slave for a whole three years .. all this time he was okay and never said a word
but once we had a sex on skype
and he got a pic of that thing and he started threaten me with it … when I told […]
Just letting some randos know that I’m going to end it. Gotta act fast, as my condition is worsening, and I can already barely walk.
I’m going with a drop-hang. Can’t find a gun.
I’ll be sorry for whoever finds me, but at least they’ll have something dramatic to talk about with their friends. Imagine the mawkish, self-serving Facebook post! So many likes.
I’ll be especially sorry for my mother. My poor, hardworking, lonely mother. I am all she really has, and I am worthless: if I don’t end it, she continues to suffer through my deteriorating health, and if I do, I also end her life in a way.
But, I […]
Red for my rage black for my depression I believe if red wins others will have great harm done to them if the black wins I’ll have great harm to me I noticed many have very harsh opinions of the red route maybe you can’t understand
( c+c dont worry tho)
It was around 7 years ago I tried to end it all, I was a single mum and couldn’t cope anymore. I was lucky as my parents would have my daughter over night once every two weeks so I could go out. I loved to go out and drink and drink until I felt numb, I abused myself and my body I let men use me for sex. One night though I’d just had enough I couldn’t do it anymore I couldn’t live with myself for what I was doing i was drinking everyday I never ate I smoked weed aswell. People started judging me […]
I wanted to say hi to all of you and wanted you to know that you are the most understanding people I know, and I’m grateful that you people exist and this website exists as well.
I also want to say that I’m definitely not here to encourage people or discuss methods or anything alike. I just want to be part of this community to share our feelings/experiences together. Together we will feel less lonely I believe.
I have been reading SP every now and then for the last 4 years, as the idea of suicide has been with me for that amount of time. My anxiety/depression […]
No drama I promise. Just truth. First of all, I would like to give a shout out to all my friends in this group. Thank you for your love and support. If any of you would like to chat via email, my address is wndozh8er@aol.com.
I recently discovered that many of the posts I wrote broke the rules of this group and my status here is already hanging by a thread. Over the past few days we had a lot of fun, had deep and intelligent conversations, etc. the best of the best resides here.
I am a very outspoken person. Despite crossing the line with methods, […]
I’m sure many of you heard the breaking news today of 2 news reporters being shot to death by a disgruntled former employee while the victims where filming live.
I saw the video and its deplorable and unforgivable. These innocent people where happy, loved life, and didn’t want nor diserve to die. This monster than turned the gun on himself. I never understood why people like this just don’t shoot themselves instead of trying to take others with him.
Thing is – the man is still alive and in critical condition. He shot himself in the head with a handgun. A lot of people have the misconception that […]
If there’s a punishment in the afterlife for suicide, don’t you think one would deserve it at least until people forgive the suicidal one? I don’t believe with certainty that there’s even an afterlife but you never know. The only thing I’m almost sure of is that there’s no eternal “hell” because there’s so many factors that go into one’s life that It’s not fair to punish you eternally for what you did in a short lifetime. I believe in God for some reason. Also, NDE’s and even science are beginning to support a theory of an afterlife.
As a political and social philosopher, I developed many ideas over the years – education and prison reform for example, which I may talk about later, among many other ideas. What I want to share with you all today is my vision on bioethics and how my ideas should be turned into federal law.
My ideology on bioethics has been inspired by secular humanism, suffering abolition, emerging technologies, futurology, and above all, choice! Let me give you some examples of what I believe should be turned into law.
1. Euthanasia for the terminally ill or severely handicapped should be a constitutional right.
2. Euthanasia for the mentally ill […]