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Is suicide part of natural selection?

by Anunnaki 1/7/2015

written by Anunnaki

I know it’s not entirely natural but is suicide somewhere near natural selection? It’s all about weeding out the weak and those that either have no more use to the environment or aren’t able to survive anyway. Not all people committing suicide fit this category but I do.

I thought about this today – when I get the courage to end myself, I’ll take my genes with me right? So no chance to reproduce (not that I ever would have the chance up any way) but in a way that’s just evolution doing its work. My weak and pathetic physical genes will be lost, my […]

1/7/2015 5 comments

All hope is lost

by HereticBlood 1/2/2015

written by HereticBlood

So fucking broken… I quit.. I’m done… Everything I do I fuck up.. I fail.. Everything’s always a lie… Nothing feels right… All hope is gone… I’m a wreck I can not go on…. Help me out of this hell I’m too weak to reach out.. I guess just lay me down.. I’m ready… I’m not afraid to sleep forever …..

1/2/2015 0 comment

not again….

by onkerio 12/27/2014

written by onkerio

Well the voices are bothering me again. I wonder what they want….I guess this means back to rehab I go..you know whats over rated people…. life…. ey but we live it dont we. And we gotto live it. Thats the problem. Its in a way kinda compulsory… even after death theyll keepp at you. Heh… look at that. I babling again

12/27/2014 1 comment

depression rears its ugly head

by niecy 12/17/2014

written by niecy

Hi my name is niecy I’ve struggled with depression ever since I was 14 but was not diagnosed until I was 15 I have struggled with depression and let alone bipolar disorder for a long time I’ve struggled with mental anguish its been a long struggle I need help and I’m getting help but I can no longer hide how I feel I think about dying sometimes and sometimes I feel I’m alone ever since highschool I was alone I didn’t have many friends and I still don’t but who cares in this world I guess the loners are here to not make friends I […]

12/17/2014 1 comment

Why am I me?

by worthless_user 12/16/2014

written by worthless_user

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel like I only hurt people that are close to me. All my girlfriend wants to do is help and I’m so afraid of losing her, but all I do is push her away. I punch holes in the wall, hurt myself (never her!), and cry all the time. I actually can’t even remember a day where I didn’t break down and cry. I feel like my life is meaningless and I always question people’s reasoning for even being around me. If I had the choice, I’d leave myself and never come back. I’m just a worthless […]

12/16/2014 3 comments

Another day I don’t want to be here, or anywhere

by rea3366 12/9/2014

written by rea3366

Another day of, well, nothing. I can’t laugh, I don’t want to eat, I don’t want anything but to plan my final sleep. I don’t know if my coworkers notice- probably not, they don’t know me that well. I’m trying to decide whether to do it before Christmas, before New Year, or maybe in February. All these are good times, I guess.
Every day is just empty for me, all I look forward to is sleeping and forgetting for one night and then forever. I can forget how I always let everyone down, how I always disappointed everyone- story of my adult life. They […]

12/9/2014 11 comments

Im the new shorty on the block

by MindlessContemplation 12/2/2014

written by MindlessContemplation

So yeah, the title says it all, im new around here. I guess this is the part where im suppose to tell you how i came to be here, but that is a long and very boring story.

Mostly it is a by product of my own stupidity and selfishness that forced me to slump into isolation and despair. Im not looking for any sympathy just some like minded people who have had enough of this miserable world. So far my prospects seem a little bleak. No offense but some of you here are just a buzz kill. Anyway i didn’t come here to once again […]

12/2/2014 3 comments

hello friends

by freshhotkatertot 12/1/2014

written by freshhotkatertot

I’ve never been on this site before ever. I’m killing myself tonight but I just wanted to talk to some people before I do. Idk. I haven’t really talked to my friends lately. Just something to keep my mind off of it for a few hours I guess. Thanks homies

12/1/2014 4 comments

My Suicide Journals (2010)

by L4Y 11/25/2014

written by L4Y

In 2010, after over a decade of severe depression and several years of suicidal feelings, I made the decision to finally end things. To this day, it is the only time I have ever made concrete plans to take my life.

I kept a journal documenting my decision and feelings before and leading up to my planned suicide. Below are excerpts from two of those journal entries (the second being parts of a private message sent to someone from my past I had reconnected with. It was written as my end date was approaching).

Perhaps there are some people who will find comfort in reading these things […]

11/25/2014 6 comments

Preference to the drink.

by Deathy058 11/23/2014

written by Deathy058

“I just hope that one day – preferably when we’re both blind drunk – we can talk about it.”– J. D. Salinger

I didn’t want to post here again , but it was one of those days that sucker punch you for waking up. Takes the piss out of you for walking outside. Then, it finishes you with a swift kick to the birds with a spring sticking out of your driver seat in the car.

I try very hard to smile much of the time when dealing with people. I want them to see me as happy, I guess. It isn’t as though it matters. Today, […]

11/23/2014 8 comments

Dreams of Youth

by ritualmusic 11/21/2014

written by ritualmusic

Ever since I was a little girl I dreamt of death. Specifically in the forms of vampires. I was obsessed with the thought of rebirth after death. Of becoming this new, more powerful, and less vulnerable creature simply by dying and leaving your previous life behind. I guess that’s where it started..

I’ve never been able to release this obsession with death. Recently I’ve been making things more dangerous by mixing and overusing medications plus alcohol. I don’t know if I really want to die, or if I just want the rebirth. Rebirth into the life where I’m invincible.

The saddest part of all of this […]

11/21/2014 3 comments

How Do I Fix This?

by marypie2000 11/16/2014

written by marypie2000

Hi, My name is Mary Jean. I have this small problem, well I guess you could say it isn’t small. I have been trapped in a world of self harm and self hate for nearly 4 years. The biggest reason is the huge rumors going around that I can’t ever seem to stop. They all keep asking me if I’m pregnant, which can’t possibly be true.. because I’m a lesbian. Shocker.. right? This girl named Caytlin has been helping me through my problems since the beginning of this school year. I’m head over heels for her and I know that she is, or at least was head […]

11/16/2014 1 comment

I guess it’s in my blood

by silversurfer 11/15/2014

written by silversurfer

you could have been great.

but your mother is a poor adulterous whore

and your father is a cheating son of a child molester

and your step-mother is a vindictive ****

and you are a weak selfish bastard

nobody wants to see you succeed

11/15/2014 4 comments

Pretty little prison cells

by depressednihilist95 11/14/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I think about suicide every day, but generally not too seriously. I wonder if I’ll be happy in a year or so from now. Life is a random set of coincidences that ultimately has no inherent importance. Being a member of this “life” game is boring. People keep telling me that it’s fun. What exactly is fun about working, coming home, eating, fucking, sleeping, and dying? Relationships are pathetic. They all lead to divorce and disappointment. Work is just a pretty word for “slavery.” Houses are just like cozy prison cells. We’re stuck on this stupid rock, only to die here… so I guess humanity […]

11/14/2014 5 comments

Having No Friends

by dreamsinwhichimdying 11/6/2014

written by dreamsinwhichimdying

I guess I don’t really know why I don’t have any friends, because I’ve told myself the same thing over and over again so that I believe that, instead of what’s probably true. I never tried to figure it out because it would be pointless, as I couldn’t talk to anyone about it. I started posting here simply so that I could finally say what I needed to. I’ve always told myself I don’t want friends. I do. It hurts to admit it, but I do. I used to have friends, but for the past few months, I just stopped. I didn’t want my problems […]

11/6/2014 5 comments

I’m really stupid

by life_isnt_for_me 11/3/2014

written by life_isnt_for_me

Ah god I am stupid….it hurts so much ….
I figured out too late that I don’t want to die ._.
What am I doing in here and not going to go call 911? Easy I’m too much of a retard and coward who would rather die I guess than seek help ….man I’m stupid.
I swallowed twenty Tylenol pills and even though I tried taking myself out of it I still did it …. I’m so stupid god I’m stupid.
I’m so tired and I feel so icky and ugh….my head hurts….my stomach hurts too. I tried puking them out and yet again […]

11/3/2014 2 comments

What a fun day

by ClairDeLune 10/31/2014

written by ClairDeLune

Everyone is gone for Halloween. Even my lol online friendlist is completely empty, and they are nerdos like me! How come everyone else is having fun on a day like this and I am just sitting here doing what I always do. Oh right, for a second there I forgot I have no friends. Hm, maybe I should acquire some imaginary friends, but they’ll probably dump me as well. I guess that only leaves only the computer. At least he doesn’t judge.

10/31/2014 28 comments

I guess there IS everything on the net

by putonahappyface 10/25/2014

written by putonahappyface

I’ve thought about it for years. Tried various ways. Failed (obviously) every time. Lied my way out of hospital after hospital. Spent years “reinventing” myself. But can’t escape the overwhelming need to die. Not to die just any way. I need something creative. It cannot look like a suicide. It can NEVER be questioned. My husband doesn’t know and can’t know i am like this. He didn’t know me when i was “depressed,” medicated. In therapy everyday. He knows the now me. That person works 60 hours a week. That person adores her children. That person is positive and upbeat. Fun loving and adventurous. The […]

10/25/2014 1 comment

I Need Some Technical Help

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 10/24/2014

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on the Suicide Project, but I guess… It’s good to be back?

At any rate, this websites added a new feature of displaying actual user pictures–ones that’re more revealing than just some random colorful pattern–and I was hoping to figure out some way of either changing my profile picture or deleting it entirely. This is because I’d like to post here without having my privacy compromised.

Any help would be greatly appreciated.

10/24/2014 3 comments

Life promised me justice…

by stu_pidd_cow 10/24/2014

written by stu_pidd_cow

Everyone tells me that I’m so lucky, so smart, so attractive. I have everything apparently. But there’s more to life than that superficial crap. In life you need only one thing: a place to belong. This is the thing that I don’t have.

I had a bunch of friends that I thought cared about me. I was wrong. They all stabbed me in the back. I asked them to go easy on me because I thought I was becoming depressed. They told me to grow up. Depression is for children, apparently. Anti-depressants only make me sleepy. I guess the objective is to just sleep your life […]

10/24/2014 9 comments

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