Generally, I’m willing to help people.
But I’m losing that now.
Do people really need me anymore? I tried ending it all last night, but it didn’t work.
Generally, I want to help you all and I most of the time try to make people feel better, but not today.
If anyone needs to talk, they can email me.
It’s brl.cents@gmail.com
I’ll try to be kind to you.
I can’t be what you want me to be.
Im sorry.
I can’t be smart.
I can’t be pretty.
I can’t be open-minded.
I can’t be strong.
I can’t be fierce.
I can’t be what you want me to be.
Im sorry.
I cant be the honor roll student, Mom.
I can’t be the perfect girl, Jeremy.
I can’t be the ‘fun child’, Chris.
I can’t be open-minded, Morgan.
I can’t be your hero, Shanelle.
I can’t be what you want me to be.
I’m sorry.
I’m […]
is full of people. but many i met have all turned against me. there is something wrong with me…BUT IDK WHAT IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i always had these thoughts of how i know this is not me everything happens for a reason right? well my thought now is if i never moved from california to idaho i would be sweet and innocent but im not….im actually a ***** but people dont see that…especially people here on SP. for example someone was joking around with me in class yesterday and i didnt think of that til i came unglued that he talked to me…SEE WHAT I MEAN???????? […]
hold me? kiss me? love me! BUT U CANT. ur to far away. r relationship ALMOST ended today. :'( im so sorry. i didnt think u would it that way..just please stay. if i can just be next to..i can get our love back where it was…i know u love me but u knew im suicidal and said ud be there for me…i tell u i started cutting again…i do it again apparently we’re done. NO! please dont do that all ive done is hold back as much as i can from crying..just hoping u were here to hold me…even kiss me. let me know […]
when i see people sad and depressed on here it makes me sad and depressed. i decided im not going to write one note but a to couple people i actually love. one of the only things that makes me not want to get hit by that train, hang myself, blow my brains out. is the few people have been saving me all of this time. one of my best friends has been in boot camp. i dont want him to find out. i hope by the time he comes back everyone will have forgotton me, he will have forgotton me. i never go through with this. but i know how badly […]
Dear Jackie, I remember a lot of years you had a lot of issues. I saw the cuts on your wrist.. and when we asked you, you told us they were the cat. I guess I believed you at first but then it came clear. your step father raped you.. you had deliberatley hurt yourself.. I was wrong to say all of the things I said to you in front of people.. I didnt know how hard it was to deal with those things. I truly am sorry.. I now know what its like to feel these feelings.. I know what its like to be […]
i am, its true. you are ALWAYS here for me, when im to fucked, to even think. promise after promise i make to u saying i will not attempt suicide, i will quit cutting, and in a week i will stop taking pills for the hell of it. honestly, im sorry, idk why i make promises i cant keep. i try but my mind out rules me. everytime. im terrified, i dont deserve a friend as AMAZING as u, im scared u will finally understand that, and leave. im still ALWAYS and FOREVER will be here for u. u can tell me ANYTHING. but again […]
yeah basically it seems like a habit now, and im sure iv said the wrong things plenty on here so sorry.
ME.
underneath im: stupid, a loser, a loner, a cutter, unusual, different, shunned, hated, betrayed, embarrased, failure, sad, unloved, defeated, lonely, DEPRESSED. so strange i can make this seem untrue. i fake my way through life- “fake it til u make it” would that make me a liar? an attention seeker? i dont think so but i dont care what i think.. ha i dont even know who i am cuz i care what u think, i change all the time. just to make you happy. but that will neva happen cuz u will never be ok with me. dont feel bad its not just […]
Im sorry when I read these posts that there seems so many people that feel like I do as I know how I feel and wouldnt wish that anyone. Im going ti give in and give up as Im not strong enough to carry on, but dont want anyone else to hope you all manage to find a reason to pull through a hope, dream just anything. I know your thinking who the hell arfe you to doll out advice your gonna end it but I just want to put this out there sorry
k, lately things have been horrible. i got contact with this one guy again who has been helping me through everything and AtTheEnd im so sorry everything i said i had no right too and i know its impossible to forgive me then my sister has been causing me so much stress with hittin, punching, biting, and choking me, i have been so fucking stress and this is where i must be crazy i was telling that guy i just contact with again bout all this and he said he doesnt want to his gf to be so sad i said im your gf? he […]
Im going to keep this short, and I`ll be back.
Mom, Dad,and well everyone else, You`ll never read this but Im sorry. Sorry for everything. Im sorry your daughter goes to sleep wanting to kill herself. Im sorry you dont understand. Im not trying to act like a whore, but if being wanted is what keeps me alive let me keep it. I cant do this anymore. Im going to wait till im on the anti depressents, Im going to pretend everythings okay. But if one more thing happens..Im gone. Out of this world.
“If you want to help me, help me die”…Im not happy anymore..And i […]
im done with everyone everthing no one gives a fuck anymore so take my things and burn them stab me in the heart with all ur rage show me ur hatred
so now my boyfriend thhe lvoe of my life hates me now cuz of u that one certain boy who was out to make my life a living hell you know what now its a dead hell
you sent him those pics i sent long ago but now im gone so raise ur glass to the death ull never miss….. nd to u my love im sorry <3
i feel like im the one always saying sorry
i didnt mean to cause it
i was just being myself
im sorry if im not fake like her
im sorry if i cry
im sorry im not important
im sorry she had suregy
while i sit every night in pain
knowing there nothing the doc can do
but it wont matter i have my knife on my wrist
and i feel okay
Currently on the phone with my boyfriend about to kill myself…we just got into a big arguement. After breaking up numerous times in the past couple months, we decided that since we’re dating now, we’d keep it secret. In order to keep guys from hitting on me, i put on facebook that im in a relationship..he never put that he was in a relationship on his facebook though. So i decided to take it down after a day because i felt like people thought iw as lying about having a boyfriend. He got upset really fast and started being rude. The rudeness eventually led to […]
im sorry but i really dnt have neone to talk to nemore. since 2001 ive had serious thoughts of suicide. My life really sucks… when i was three my grandfather decided to molest me and then when my elder brother hit puberty he decided to rape and molest me for almost 5 years. i accidentally told the cops and he was arrestted but no one in my family believed me except my mother. everyone else just called me a liar because they didn’t like me as much as they liked him. When i grew into my teenage years my cousins decided to try ‘sstuff’ on […]
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